xmas post

On the xmas eve went to sh home to cele..we brainstorm n decided to cook our own christmas dish..last yr we prepare steamboat for christmas, this yr we dcide to cook western food..haha...we meet at vivocity de giant at 430pm to buy our necessary things..wow vivocity was damn crowded..evryone dressed at their best for the countdown party..but some oso nv reali dress up lar..anyway we went to giant to get chicken fillet, fish filiet, fries, campbell soup, the french bread, fruits n so on....after getting all the goceries it was about 6plus le...den we thut of gg to bakerzin to buy our logcake..but in the end bakerin disappoint us no logcake sia..we went to swendsen to buy..wah the queue at swendsen was damn long...so many people queuing up to eat dinner..after buyin our logcake we chiong to sh home...cos from sh home the bus journey nd about 30min..but the dry ice can onli tahan 45min sia..

so ard 7pm we rch sh hm.. me n sy cut the fruits to prepare our fruit salad..tsktsk peelin of fruit skin n cuttin of fruits was no easy task..haha..while sh n jj preare the campbell soup thngy n deep fry the fillet n fries...wah we preapre all this till ard 830 den start eating sia..the dishes gt fries, fillet, nuggets, campbell with bread, fruit salad...haha..a sumpteous dinner sia..haha..but overall the food was not bad..but then we cook too much sia..waste some food...

our sumpteous dinner

after dinner, we were all lazy to clear up the plates..so we juz chat around n slack around...ard 10 we den start clearin up the plates...but in the end is sh maid wash the plate sia..haha..after clearing up, we slack around takin some random pic...

one of the random cool pic

we are some kind of illegal people being caught by police

after habin fun with the camera, we den went up to sh room to watch tv..again slack around n waiting for 12am to come..finali the arrival of 12am..yippie..we went downstair to hab our logcake..waha...its icecream log cake..coolz..choclate one..we were eating the log cake in a barbarian way..haha...we juz use our forks n dig the cake..but as usual we cnt finish it

After eatin the logcake, the guys play with the dry ice n invent some stuff..actuali wana upload the video abt the dry ice..but tat dumb utube upload so long..in the end forgo the idea of uploadin le.this dry ice invetion causes a mild explosion...n this things entertain us for about 15min or more sia..haha...

after all this, jj n wj went home...left we 5 gals at sh home...hmmz..5 of us has nothin much to do..fio play the piano den ch play the guitar..i was like gg to fell aslp soon sia..sy was slackin ard...den awhile latr i try playin the piano..it seem hard though..haiz..then after tat we watch some tv n clips...ard 4 am we tuck in...xz den came..sh went downstair to enterain xz...then awhile latr sy went down to eat her tibits..haha she hungry sia..they about 5am den slp..after tat slp slp slp...10am woke up...prepare some stuff..watch tv..den fio,ch,sy n me went to clementi eat lunch..sh went out wif her family to eat..we went to the jap restaurant..the food damn cheap..but the food tatse okok nia lar..after eatin, we went to clementi big book shop cos fio wana buy superglue...after tat was ard 2 plus le..den we went home le...tats how i pass my xmas eve..

no pt gg bac to the past cos its over and will not return..

supper

supper anyone?? anyone hungry can call me out for supper sia..haha..so bored sia..recently hab some thuts..i think tat if i hab some fren who live near my home as in few blocks away it will be damn great..haha..cos if at nite cn call him come out n eat supper or chit chat..when bored cn meet up with him..or sometimes cn go jogging or night cycling 2gata.can play badminton...cn visit each other house..tat would be so fun...even if we go out, we can go home 2gata..gt a company mahz ..but then too bad sia..no hab sia...

actuali last tym when i m in pri schl abt pri 1 or 2 use to hab de..she juz live a block aaway from mine..we used to be damn gd frenz..used to go to her home and play..her bdae she will invite me to her party..but due to some reasons, our friendship severed le..so now..no hab anymore..

-naive-

部落格里含的意识，
我想我明白，
不知该同情，
或是冷酷无情，
或许这一切都与我无关，
批评的空间轮不到我


在人生的道路上，
遇见的人让我长大一些，
慢慢接近大人的世界，
远远离开小孩的一切，
或许沉默是我用来对代未来，
而欢乐是我放下用沉墨代替

yipyip..its finali the arrival of 3 wk holi...so happy..this will b the last holi in my poly life....in another few months time gg to grad from poly le...hmmz...wed juz attended my grad party...the perormance by the kinderlands kids r so cute...though they dance not v.professional..haha..but then they entertained all of us...so mighty of them...so young but yet make us laugh so happily..sometimes juz so pei fu wif the kids..they can dance daringly n will not bother about whether is it dui lian or not..unlyt the adults..they will care about their face..anyway quite admire one of the tcher..though she nv taught me b4..but tat day she sang a song dedicating to her food students..n i think she rox...y ic no tcher dedicate song to us de..haha.so unfair..sobz..
hmmz..anyway when they display the clips on our life in poly...i suddenly think tat i will miss sp..haha..miss the tchers..miss the foodcourt..miss evrything..thought i will not miss the stuff...mayb 3yrs of life in there will make me somehow miss them...saw the students tahnkin their tcher but too bad i nv been feature in the clips..i shall thx them here in the blog though they will nv c it..but nvm...hmmz..i wana specially thx the tcher which i feel they r damn gd..ahha..jeff whey..ms tan hwee bin..mrs tan..kwok..hta..hmmz tats all..waha...aiya n also those who taught me lar...dun say dun hab..
how i wish study life will nv end..but sometimes its so miserable to study..haiz...after the clips thingy went to t1a to eat the buffet n after phototaking session den went home le...was so tired...zzz...

fri went to eat steamboat wif slack...went to tian tian huo guo to eat..wah the steamboat so ex..tsktsk...nxt tym dun wana go there le..but i think the tom yam nt bac..hurmp..after tat was so thirsty den went to a dessert shop to est dessert or rather drink water..hmmz..we were all thinkin wat to do for christmas..hmmz...after tat..duneo y..some1 suggest we go buy 4d.waha..each person gib one no.den we decided to bet on 4 no....buy on sat n sun...1st time buying 4d sia...hope lao tian will bless me..lolz/.///..hehe..after the number choosing session...we were all crazy..kp imagining wat to do after we strike 4d...drive posh car..den go ex hotel eat...wear nice shirt..haha..like we strike a few millions sia..waha...pray hard we todae n tmr will strike 1st prize...wahah....tonite 7pm must stay tune at the tv text c gt strike not..hehe..

hmmz..todae earli morning went to temple wif my mama....wat a filial girl..hehe...eh dun think i go there pray to strike 4d worz..waha...aiya i pei my mama go out of kindnesss sia..she kp on askin me to pei her...think she feel lonely..waha...after prayin den go vivo shopshop a while den went home le...hmmz..tats the end of the day...shall end here...




if life is a book..wat is your tile of the last chpt?..

hmmz...mayb things might not be as it seem...ple might appear to be bad..but mayb they hab kind intentin...or mayb people might appear to be friendly to u but actuali they r bad....human r juz so unfathomable...the more u wana undertsand dem the more dey r diff to be understood..recently sort of wrong k n c....thut they r bad...but in the end they are not as bad as they seem...mayb shuld understand more shuld not judge them by thier cover....yupz...

Gg to the place remind me of smthin...we hab once agree to go there b4 gg to s...but things change..hopefuli we wuld hab the chance...i believe we will hab the chance

sometimes feel tat i m juz tokin to the air....mayb its beta to not tok at times....

Its been a long time since i do something i like most... mayb life is juz busy or its another reason..was thinkin after watching the i not stupid show yst though the movie its long tym ago ...its say if u wana do something u like den do it to the fullest...but i feel tat depend whether u r giben the chance to proe yr potential..aiya duneo wat i m crappin abt..shall end here...

-silence-

finali fyp is offically over le...yippie...finali can put an end to fyp..hmmz..todae fyp was so nervous..as usual no confidence to present and i suck in expressing..anyway juz hope i gt do well bahz..my eyelid gib jumping since sat..mayb its a bad sign..haiz...anyway...since fyp its over so let be it..for this wk i cn relax abit..nxt wk nd to study for test agn..hmmz....


Juz thinking bac..feel that for the past few wk has been neglecting my fren..so long nv meet up wif dem le..so busy wif fyp n tests...felt quite guilty abt it...so sianz..how i wish life can be not so busy at tym...been rushing here n there mayb hab miss some wonderful parts of life...
anyway been wondering alot some times...wondering abt friends wondering abt life wondering abt ple character n this n that...

yawnz...so tired todae...feel that all my energy r gone..mayb i shall slp earli tonite...

-potential-

life's unfair

the moment i rch home...i haben even put down my bags..i juz step into the house..den ma yell at me ...hey todae go out nv close window..the whole floor was wet...i was damn pissed off...juz rch home nia...gana all this shit...yell at me...den nvm....awhile latr i go watch tv...den bro came bac...den ma walk out off the kitchen...scream at me agn...yst raining nv kp the clothing ar...the neighbour call nv listen to the phone...i was lyt sian diaoz....yst gt ple ph hm mehz....as if i m deaf wun hear the ph ring....she rather believe the neighbour den me....tat neighbour oso another de lar..blurblur one duneo she gt call the wrong no. not lor...haiz...den she say yst gt remind me to kp the clothes before she go out le...i was lyt diao...she gt call me mehz...she called bro lor...as if i gt stm will 4get wat she say in a few hours...aiya she evrytym lyt tat de...evrything blame me...she nv scold him at all de lor....she is damn biased de...all is my fault sia, evrytym my fault....its damn unfair de...the more she scold me the more i hate him sia...is it being the elder one must b responsible for evrything...get the scoldin n all tat....i rather nt to be the elder one...all even not to b born into this world...was realli damn pissed off...haiz....wateva....it spoil my mood for todae...T_T

one incident can affect the day mood

Mixed-feelin

Nothin special this mornin, but just feel lyt blogging thtas all. Life is pretty busy, how i wish 7dec faster arrived, by then mos of the tests are over and of cosh fyp is den over. Now finding info for my formal rpt which is due tmr. hab been finding the info since yst, the tcher gav us such a hard formal rpt to do, no info can be found on the internet,haiz.

Yst was thinkin abt human nature..Juz feel lyt evryone sometimes will show their fake side somehow or another..u muight did it not-knowing-ly..hmmz..They might appear to be good with u.but then behind u they might backstab u or wat..Sometimes its makes ple wonder is that prsn sayin the truth cos they duneo which are the truth n which are the fake..This not only happen in working life, schl life oso will happen too..Mayb showin their fake side is for self-denfense, or juz to make evryone happy n to avoid conflict. Juz as i say in my older entry, children(kindgeratan or pri schl) life r much happier, they wun backstab u or wat n they r v.innocent.

Anyway, yst bro n dad had a short arguing.hmmz..sometimes i m gettin to hate bro, his action,his attitude irk me. I think he has change bahz somehow or rather. Nowadays when he quarrel wif dad he would use vulgarity #%^%*.. i hate ple using vulgaity even they r in the right position or wat n somemore use on my parents..how can sia..he would den scream n slam the damn door n den my ma wuld go into his room n say cnt scold vulgar n blah blah blah....so wat ..he still haben change yet..juz feel tat mayb ma too pampered him n let him become lyt tat. Sometimes juz feel lyt gibin him a tight slap on his face. Wateva.i wun tch him how to zhuo ren, cos his life is up to him to choose, wat can i do.. juz hope he can wake up n stop using vulgarity to release his anger ..

ok yah tats all for todae...bac to rpt-in tym..yawnz...@_@




Can the present be exchangable for the past?

sianzzzz

AARgh~...y no hab any any info on paracetamol in the intenet wan....so angry...find so long ..still no info...mon gg to hand in the formal rpt..but still cnt find any info...find until so pek chek le..yawnz..





thut evything its over but its nt...

Juz got bac home nt long ago. This few days has been reaching home late. Most of the days stay in the schl library pia-in fyp rpt until 7 plus den went home. Tmr still nd to pia fyp logbk, mon nd to hand in..haiz wonder went den i will be free...so busy with fyp and tests..i think not onli my grp r rushin fyp..other grp r also sia..hope dem all the best...hope we will do well in fyp sia..anyway yst receive a msg frm my cousin she has open a manicure shop call muemue( a cute name sia)..haha...anyway if anyone wana do manicure can go to her shop..haha
shop add:
33 mohamad,sultan rd, #02-12

hmmz..not bad sia...she open a business her sis(which is my another cousin)...hmmz...last tym use to c her v.often went i was attending pri schl..but nowadays ..i onli see her once a yr (cny)...hmmz...we r all busy with our own lifes...n i miss my grandparent cos its been 9 months since i last saw dem..though we didn't tok to one another much due to communication prob..anyway quite envy my cousin got capital to open a shop on her own...hmmz..i think i can never a shop bahz....haha..no money sia..waha..if i were to open a shop..hmmz ...mayb i can try opening a restaurant..waha..no lar..i seriously nv thut of opening a shop on my own...i juz wana b a ming xin can le( a dream nia)..haha....cos i feel tats so cool sia..n mayb still gt fan club somemore..waha..mayb i m thinkin to much..
while studyin for my test yst..was thinkin tat time flies sia..cos in another few months time i m gg to graduate soon...mayb i will miss my poly fren somehow....will we contact or will we lost contact...will we say hi to one another while walkin dwn the street somedays..will we think of one another or rmb another..
dun feel lyt workin so soon..mayb might consider further my study in local or private uni but den oso duneo wat course to study on..hmmz..

-differences-

Punctuality = Responsiblity

Mayb nowadays ple r neglecting the sense of punctuality. Is it bcos they fear to wait or was it becos they are taking things for granted...5 min is consider late, 10 min is also consider late, 15 min is oso consider late...so mayb its doesnt matter to b hw late..is tat true?..but to me 5min is acceptable, 10min ok cn tolerate...but 20minutes n above ..hmmz tat bad~.....

Actuali i sometimes also tend to be late..i m late due to various factors..sometimes is due to bus..sometimes is i hab bad time magnagement..n sometimes i dun wana wait for other( i rather other wait for me..hehe.. ) hmmz n i m oways late for lecture..mayb i m takin things for granted when the tcher didn't say anything abt it..thinkin tat they should be immune about it..

Todae attend the lc lesson n was readin a story on puctuality..the gal actuali let her frenz to wait for 1 whole hour n in the end didn't feel any remorse but argue back when her fren was angry with her . She bcame caculative saying she let her waited for 5minutes on the other day..hmmz..if i were in her fren situation i will be damn pissed. i rather go home den meet her..haha...







-Sense-

Tired

I was so tired today. i woke up at 12pm and took my breakfast. After breakfast, i went back to sleep again. I woke up at 3pm but was still phycically n mentally tired. I dun neo y...was it becos of fyp or was i running away from smthing..hmmz ..hw i wish i could be more awake and not so restless..


Hate the start of nxt week.. Nxt week onwards is going to be horrible...gg to hand in edited-fyp rpt agn...the fyp rpt is driving me crazy gt so many things to edit and nd to think of hw to ans k's ans sia..argh~..then gt 2 test...n den nxt nxt wk gg to hab 2 test agn( 1 of the test sux, gg to hab alot of memory work to do) den nd to hand in formal rpt...after den soon its gg to fyp presentation..blahblahblah...how i wish the 3 wks holi to come soon...haiz...






休息是为走根长远的路，但害怕的是要休息的时间也没有

fypsuxbigtime

all because of fyp

evryone gone crazy
slpin late at nite
neglecting one another not knowingly
worrying abt the dateline of fyp




we r all being control by a non living things



abolish fyp~

读完文章
留下的是悲伤

记得在巴士上
一起唱的歌
那不是一首简单的歌
因为它在我们的心里
留下了一个回忆


事情慢慢转变
彼此各忙各的
但我们彼此都不想回到从前
努力挽救
求的只是一个的结果

bored..

stuck at home for whole day
can't wait for elearning week
den can relax abit

todae when to cityhall to shopshop for my ma bdae prez...walk here n there in the end got nothin....when i was abt to go home tat tym when to the toilet beside quicksilver de...den the toilet qeueue was damn long...in front of me was standing 2 gals..one gal dressed in black n the other dressed in white t-shirt..the gal who dressed in black seem somehow mature though she look lyt 17yrs old tat kinda..the white shirt gal seem much kiddy n dressed much lok kok den the black shirt gal (she oso look lyt 17yrs old lar)..then tat white shirt gal standing bhind the black shirt gal den put her head on the black shirt gal shoulder ..at 1st i was thinkin wah they are over-intimate as a fren sia..but then this part was nothin as compared to the nxt scene..the two gals den went in to the same cubicle..i was lyt-_-"....wth dey so urgent to pee ar..nd to go in to the same cubicle..nvm den i went to pee too..when dey came out of the cubicle i think the one who is gg to use their cubicle was shock or wat lar den stare at dem...i think i would oso b lyt tat lar..when i c two grown up gals comin out from a single cubicle..den when they were abt to get out of the toilet (i was standng behind dem to get out of the toilet too)..teh black shirt gal den turn over n shouted to tat lady who stare at dem" wats wif the stare..nv c before lesbian is it"..den the white shirt gal giggle away..i was lyt wth...ok lar..so wats if u guys r lesbian, its there anything to b proud of..no nd to go to the same cubicle or wat shit lar...tryin to show off u guys r lesbian or wat..-_-..wats wif the world nw sia..bisexual is on the trend is it..hmmz..




不想是逃避,逃避未必快乐

不能被褥据
是因为我们不能
或是我们都没尽力过
大家带着失望离开
拼命的找借口
安慰自己
让自己好过一些


That night, it seem so nice and enjoyable, we finally found the feeling we once lost. Even though we didn't manage to complete our main objective but the journey was still worthwhile. This journey let me understand more about this world. 为何要自己扛着重重的背包，如果把背包的东西分给周围的人，这一来会让自己好过一些。Maybe i should learn and move towards it.
However, a beautiful picture without color is not yet complete. It would be even more pleasant if color was painted to it.

渐渐的开始懂了
是因为了解了
或是详细的看了

想着改变
但大家都不知该从哪里开始
大家反复都迷失自己心中的指南针
进还是退


当她们说她们选择了那个答案
我也没想那么多
只是不犹豫选择自己的答案
但现在回想
或许我也和她们如此一样
是因为大家的来原都一样吗。。。

《小时候的我们》

闭上眼睛
去感受我们的童年。。。

大家都很无知
见的世面不多
做错事时，
大家都会说还小不懂事，
而爸妈就威胁我们吃果条烦恼的东西很少计较的不多

梦想好多，
有真实的，
有很夸张的

想哭就哭，
想笑就笑，
想气就气，
绝不会带着假面具做人

很容易逗我们开心
而我们的笑容在那一刻是最真实和灿烂的

Abt her

In this quiet and late night
she sat there alone
with soothing music played along
staring out of the window
deep in her thoughts
sooner or later she knew no one
she feel so lost in the crowded city
she feel so lonely even though there are lots of people around her
the people once close to her seemed like stranger now
no one understand her inner side
and she just cannot understand their behaviour
she tried to open up but..its seemed so harrrd
she attempt to 4get but the scene seem so vivid
loneliness and sadness overwhelmed her
but not a drop of tear drip down her tired eyes..

Recently,i juz can't slp earli..hab been slpin at ard 3am even though i m physically v.tired..kp thinking of alot of stuffs, thinking of this n that. Anyway, time passes so fast, in another 2 days tym, i will go genting le. This is the 1st time i m gg oversea wif frenz(though go to neighbourin country nia), felt quite excited and abit scared..lolz...can't wait for wednesday to come..yippie..hmmz..then after genting trip, i m gg to chiong to ecp for night cycling..though its quite tiring but once in a while its damn cool sia..cycle frm ecp to changi..feel the cool breeze, the excitement , the silence @ the night and the c-in of ah-guah(kidding lar) ..wateva it is..nxt wk is gg to b a interesting one..





Enjoy life today, yesterday is gone and tomorrow may never come

人的不完美

人总是觉得自己很完美
而觉得周围的人有缺点
是自己和别人的想法不一样
而造称自己觉得周围的人有缺点

人总是爱计较
老是想着别人付出的多少
而从不想到自己可以为别人付出多少

人往往把自己放在第一
做任何事都从自己的角度看
绝望了别人的感受

人很矛盾
有时为了想改进自己
为了让周围的人更喜欢他门
但他们绝迷失了原来的自己
有时会让周围更讨厌他们

他们

好多话说不出口
不懂得这么去表达
许多想法都不一样
太多的不了解
无意间的忽略
我们之间朋友的定义都不一样
这一切的一切不知该怪自己或对他们失望

宽念不同
彼此都不沉实
而都不信任
小憩的我们
都不让对方
以再而三威胁的你
让我渐渐的恨你

这一切的一切造成那一夜的我们

two-sided

是否每个人都会有双面/性格呢？

有时的自己是没有同情心的
而有时的自己是有良心的

有时的自己是那么的催落
而有时的自己是那么的坚强

有时的自己是倔强
而有时的自己是那么的拿不定主意

有时的自己是坏
而有时的自己是好的

有时的自己是那么的爱玩
而有时的自己是用功的

有时的自己是沉默
而有时的自己是超 high

有时的自己是顽固
而有时的自己又不是

到底哪一个是真真的自己呢？

-who vs. who-

click

m bac to post agn...exam is finali over...finali..yeah! but i was not happy as i thut i would be...anyway after xam went to ps to watch click...
wow~ click is a damn nice movie ..
its a mixture of not just comedy but oso kinship and abit of sdaness...i m quite amazed on hw the director manage to come up wif a funny yet emotional-filled movie..so i encourage evry1 to watch it...while watching this movie, it left me hab lots of thuts n emotion-filled...so i will briefly describe the movie

The main character(duneo wats his name), he oways place is career 1st and family 2nd...so when he got this so call universal remote he can control the ple/stages of his life....whenever he quarrel with his wife or wat he will fast forward them and as a result he will miss some parts of his life...so i was wondering if it's gd to hav this unversial remote to juz fast forward to the best moment of yr life which you wanted but in the mean time u will miss out some stages of yr life and cannot experience them agn n might regret...
The main character as i said placed his career 1st and neglect his dad n family members...he skipped his children growing up while fast forwarding his life..and oso its such a pity, when he realised that his dad had passed away, he was remorseful as when his dad died he didn't even attend his funeral cos he had fast-forwarded his life....this part of the movie makes me some thuts..the mian character didn't xpress hw much he love his dad n took his dad's love for him for granted until he died n its too late...i was thinking i oso din xpress hw much i love my parent esp to my mama or even to my friends..不是我不要，而是我不会。mayb u guys might think its sound ridiculous..hw can be duneo de..i juz duneo..mayb i dun hab the courage or wats..
And also the main chracter while pursuing his career has neglect his family..so i was thinking hab u guys stop doin wat u r busying wif n spent more tym u yr love ones b4 its too late... cos u might be missing some interesting part of yr life....或许人在失去后才懂得珍惜吧...
so after watching this movie...i rather not to hab this universal remote n juz go thru my life step by step......

-stand by me-

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter
I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through
Cause it's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on Calvary Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose contro
l Cause it's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
To you

喜欢一个人不一定要拥有他/她

这故事是关与两个不同的人....


她是一个想天长地久的人

爱他是应该放手,
因为她看不见幸福,
虽然天天细念着他,
心里有点不舍,
但她更害怕受伤害,
"别对我太好,
我怕我忘不了,
别对我太好,
我怕我想走也走不掉"
或许这样是更完美的一个结局,



他是一个在乎成轻拥有的人

他把爱看得很简单,
爱她不应该放手,
而是一起勇敢的面对困难,
他一次一次的试着挽留她,
"别对我太好,
我怕你走了,
我承受不了"
他依然相信爱情可以解决一切








nothin is constant expcept for changes

yst..went to sh's hm to celebrate my bdae...though nt evry1 is present but still its kinda fun...we went to make sushi...but sad to say..the making of suhsi its a failure..hehe...firstly the rice is quite soft..secondly the wrapping of sushi is oso a failure..and lastly cutting of sushi was v.hard..hmmz..after eating of sushi we ate popiah..yummy..sh's ah ma de popiah was veri nice..but i put qiute alot of chilli in the end it tasted quite hot sia..

den after we ate popiah we sat ard to chat ...sh suddenly said wat we gg to do in our future...the 3 of dem hab sort of thut abt wat they wana b le..ch wana b a xin ni yi sen n oso open a shop....sy gg to take over his dad business...sh wana open a shoe shop...as for me, seriously i nv ren ren zheng zheng de thut abt this qns b4 bahz...my childhood dream's gt alot..gt bcum doctor, air stewardess, actress.... but as i grew up all this dream bcame juz a dream..i find that all these r kinda unrealistic bahz...i reali duneo wat i gg to b sehz...mayb in the end i juz b a normal lab technician bahz...

sh oso said will we remained lyt this when we grow old..will we still crap with one another? will we continue suan-in one another?...we believe tat we will even when we aged..^^...i reali wonder wats is our topic lyt when we r 30 plus or 40 plus, i reali cnt imagine we will gather ard n discuss hw our kids r doin in schl, or which market's food is the freshest..haha...

oso ch questioned us wat we gona do for our 21th bade celebration...smthin surprised n amused me is wat ch wana do...she wana held a bade cele in mac ...gt ronald mac come n entertain us...hmmz..at 1st it reali amused me..but after hearin ch xplanation i accept her idea..haha..tats her childhood dream to hab cele in mac...hmmz..i think i nv hab celebratn go attend party in mav bahz..nt bad to go bac to our childhood times...as for me..agn i duneo....but i will consider this questn durin this 2 yr bahz...i hab thut abt holdin a chalet but its kinda ma fan n tiring..u nd to plan wat u wana to or else it will be kinda bored..anyway yst ch said smthin which strike me..she said even though went we gather ard we might nt tok at tym but the feelin is still gd.. oh yah...i hab juz realised we hab known each other for abt 7 yrs le...so fast...though its seem lyt we hab known each other for 2 yrs nia..hehe..n we oso realised we nv hab big quarrel b4 cos we all r calm n rational ple, n will considered each other feelin...i juz felt tat yst conversatn was kinda heart-warmin..i juz feel tat slack is smthin which kept our friendship gg...


hmmz...anyway thx for the prez given by slack...i was xpectin a shirt or wat..so when i recieved tat prez was kinda "hard-to-believe" ...haha...i seriously lyt it..thx u guys...n i enjoy the tym spendin wif u guys ...it will reali bring my trouble n sadness away...mayb i suld feel fortuanate as compared to other ple out dere who nv haD zhi tong dao he de frenz...hehez..tc...bb...

...promises r easily made n at the same tym dey r oso easily broken...

advance celebration

hehe..todae was v.memorable..haha cos my poly clique help me cele my bdae..although its still earli but i reali appreciate wat dey hab done..

hmmz...should i say the whole story?..nope..me kinda lazy to write evrything out..anyway..todae st,wn n ms dey collabrate wif my mama to trick me lor...omg..i din xpect my mama will collabrate wif the 3 to cele my bdae..waha..1st dey trick me to tb den i walk home...den dey appear in my home to gib me a surprise..was kinda shock to c dem sia...haha..din xpect they would be/in my home..haha...ok lar..was sort of gan dong...sing bdae song for me..cut cake...gib me present...soon we set off..we went to ecp...we went to ms dere to eat..wah eat alot sehz..eat until my stomach gg to xplode le..but the foods v.nice..yummy~..hehe...after dinner..dey began to act suspiciously..haha...nt onli after dinner mayb is the whole day..lolz..ok..den after dinner..dey made me wait outside the toilet for 20min..tsktsk..kelian de me..haha..cos dey nd to go make smthing..a surprise..waha..after waiting for 20min...st finali come to "fetch" me..lolz..she bought me to a shelter den i saw their masterpiece sehz..waha..so nice..too bad i dun hab the photo or else cn show..hehe..n dey bought the firework thingy(duneo wats is tat called)...n we play n play..until the whole shelter was damn smoky..haha....n st hurt herself while lighting the fireworks..i think todae seem to be a bad day for her...n oso dey bought vodka for me...dey knew i wana tried drinkin alcohol so dey fulfil my wish..waha...but out of 3 bottle dey bought onli 1 tasted nice..so in the end we hab to play zhong zi mi ma to clear the alcohol..lolz..after drinking, i was kinda mild drunk, but i think winnie more serious..haha..winnie n ms face turn red sehz..haha..den after drinkin we went home leh...but smthin funny happen to me sia..so ps sia..omg...u knoe i m mild drunk le..den me n ms was gg to sit mrt home...ms chiong into the mrt whereas for me i was lyt strollin to get into the mrt cos i nv heard the train was gg to close the door..den when i was abt to enter the train the door was 1/4 shut..thinkin omg n panicking..ms was inside den i haben get into the train..duneo y i suddenly use my both hand n try to force open the mrt door..omg..i think i reali drunk le..if i m awake i wun do such a dui lian thing sias..argh~...but in the end i think the mrt driver saw me or watz..the door open n i quickly board onto the train..ms was laughing at me..hurmp..but i think it was reali damn funny..it will be the 1st n last tym i will b doin tat bahz..hehe...ok lar..shall end here..anyway juz wana thx st,ms,wn,mama for gibin me a surprise..hehe..luv u all...tata...

....距离是美....

frenz

we may fight,
we may quarrel,
we may disagree,
we may neglect one another,
we may yell at each other,

But on behalf of "frenz" this word

we will 4give ,
we will giv in ,
we will accomodate n compromise
we will get on our feet n b fren agn..

tats wats the difference of being a fren




waha above is a "poem" created by me..waha...juz feel kinda bored nw n dun feel lyt slpin..hehe...anyway tmr match will be germany vs. portugal...though the chances of portugal winning is slim but i still support dem..gogogo portugal...aiya evn if germany win i oso dun mind lar..but the best is portugal win lor...as for the finals i wun comment much..cos its italy vs. france..i m nt interested in both of the team..but i hope france will lose cos i hate dem lyt hell...waha...opps....oh yah anyway todae is my ex-itp colleague last day of work sia..x.w and w.k...hope dem all the best in wateva dey do bahz..hmmz..anyway hab the urge to drink some alcohol..waha..feel lyt xperiencin the taste of being drunk n 4get abt evrything..waha..dun say i m a wild gal..i m v.zhenG jing de ok!...hmmz...anyway i will end here le...cya..tc evry1..bb..nitey~




我们要把恨拿出来才可以把爱放进去

recently, i had not been online in msn...knoe y..haha...cos my com crash sia...sadz~....now no computer to use le...luckily, my mama borrow her company come home lend me use...do my project n stuff...hehe..hengheng...but quite sad..cos all my songs r gone..argh~...and oso maple no more le..sadz...nvm...wait till my new cpu /hardisk to come bahz...kelian...anyway tonite match is portugal vs. france...please let portugal win sia...i reali hate france sia..it eliminate spain n brazil sia...all of dem r my fav team leh..hw could france be so power~..argh~...anyway germany lost to italy..they final r kinda borin le cos all the powerful team r gana eliminate le...sianz...recently was kinda low...oh yah..i fell in love with a band called x-japan..nt their appearance lar is their songs..dey are a old band le.all the members look old le..waha..s dun xpect me to fell in love wif dem..waha..i think dey oreadi disband le bahz..i juz got to listen thier songs n fell in love wif their songs..waha...especially the song called "forever love"..their songs are v.touching sia..i cn somehow sense the sadness..waha..i m nt kidding ..its real...
haiz..so sianz..ok lar ..i wana end here..go study for tmr quiz..tata ^_^~






we lost our dreams along the way

Inspiration

m here to update agn...i intend to blog bcos was kinda inspired by one of my fren..hehez...her blog made me hab many thuts...

anyway in another year or so i m gg to be 20 le...haiz..time reali flies..and in no time i m gg to step into the workin society.. i m gg to b an adult or oreadi an adult but i feel that i m still childish and dependent at times...mayb i shuld change all this n to be a real adult.. i also feel that i m v.pampered by my family..althu i felt v.fortunate but on the other hand, i feel that mayb all these are the causes to my dependency ...for example wat i want, my parent would try their best to gib me...i felt that mayb this would result me in takin things for granted and would nt cherish dem and etc.. Therefore i feel lyt workin at least cn make some money on my own rather den rely on my parents for $..yupz...and i oso thut of gg other country to study..one is to get a dipolma and also train me to b more independent..but i m afraid that my ma would nt allow..one is money prob n the other is nt fan xing lar...n oso i scared i might regret all watz...mayb gg abraod is nt as easy as wat i imagine...so fast in another 1 yr time i need to decide wat i reali wan...to take A route or B route..nobody would decide for me xcept myself...

hmmz...i duneo wat wuld happen after we graduate...would my frenz in poly n S.L.A.C.K kp in contact...or mayb we might b too busy wif our lifes..haha..or mayb dey r busy with their family..lolz..if one day i reali recieve a wedding inviatatn card frm my fren..i would be damn shocked..n admit tat i m old le..hahaz...
anyway..i wana thx all my fren who walk into my lifes..no matter whether dey cn b/will b bside of me when i m down.. ok..I reali miss the days wif slack where we play nite basketball, cycling, n been to places tat i nv been to, teasing or suanin at one another, sun tanning and etc so many beautiful memories wif their presences i m oways happy..nt onli
s.l.a.c.k, all my frenz in poly..i rmb the most vivid is when we hab clz chalet-1b22..althu nt all the clz ple were present but i hab alot of fun. The nite we went to changi beach to play swings and fireworks, and oso the days when we play badminton..i neo that it would no longer be lyt b4 but thx for this tiny little memories....N also my poly clique..hehe..the 3 ple..thx for the fun time we had, gossiping, shopping, eating of expensive food..lolz....yupz..all these memories are juz a film which is played in my mind nw...so fun n swt..^^

Above are my thuts after readin my fren's blog..ahah..waha..gtg..bb..anyway happy bade jj





就让它变成一个美丽的回忆吧。。

Spain lost!!!!

This morning match was kinda sad....spain lost to france...3-1...sianz..i was kinda sad and disppointed...spain nv won..i hab pinned high hopes on they will win this match...i know that they tried v.hard to score a goal but france played quite well..haiz...was reali damn low after spain lost...haiz...

cnt c luis garcia

n alonso played for spain for world cup...sobsobz...haiz....nvm..hope brazil will help spain revenge by thrasing france..hehez..gogogo brazil.... haiz must wait till fri then gt nxt match..hehe...

rule the game

end of holi

1 more day of relaxatn before schl open..omg...i haben done my hmk..so many test n hmk..dey r all piling up waiting for me to clear dem one by one...i hab no mood to study..sianzz..haiz..3wk seem too short for me..hw i wish i hab another mth of holi to clear my hmk n watch world cup n oso maple..heehz..sianz tues nite is spain vs. france...duneo i cn watch nt cos the nxt day gt test sia..haiz...y must it b on tues..argh~....anyway pray hard tat spain will win...gogogo..anyway was quite happy yst..*grinz*...k gotta go mug le..i think i will fell aslp while muggin agn..bb

4get the un4gotton

Finali bac to blog...was kinda lazy to blog..cos too many stuff to do le..but hw cn i let my blog stagnant for so many weeks..anyway nw is world cup craze..so busy watching soccer..waha...hehe...anyway yst match btwn spain n Tunisia...spian won ...yesh!!...although i didn't watch the match but heard tat its a nice match sia..spain from lose to win..hengheng tunussia nv won..hehe..zai sia spain...but too bad luis garcia n alonso nv score for spain..haha...hope nxt match dey 2 cn score for spain sia...oh tonite match oso nice..england vs. sweden..hope england will win...gogogo england....
Anyway recently hab some thuts...to b a follower is gd or leader is gd..haha but i conclusion to b follower is beta..tats my view..cos if u being a leader dere r bound to b ple opposin u..but b a follower u suit evry1 wish..it makes 1s life easier, isn't it..yupz..but those leader who reali lead well will gain my respect...haha..till nw ar..i onli c a handful of great leader leh..haha..one of the great leader i seen is when i was in cjc, my odac tcher..he reali gain my respect for him..i mean he lead well and do thngs with considerin ple feelin..he say that makind r self-centred..i agree wif him..waha..ok tats all ..
haha...sianz..me still gt so many rpts n assignment haben do yet..argh~...hw i m gg to survive when schl open...nxt wk schl gg to open le..time reali flies sia..sianz..schl open damn sian de...hmmzz..i duneo wat to write le..waha..my mind is in the blank nw..ok lar...gtg..go shoppin wif mama le..waha..cya~

Oh yah anyway todae date is a memoriable one cos its 20-06-2006..hehez

human's thuts r the most difficult things to understand

hehe...nw habin holi...was quite free..eh nt reali...though gt alot of assignment but i lazy to do...me juz went to create new skin for my blog..nice??..waha oso add a new thing...a tagbox dere..rmb to tag hor...lala...i quite like my new blog skin..waha..its simple n nice lar...the reason y i put tagbox nw is bcos i feel tat in the past aiya the tagbox is juz a useless piece of thing n no bother would bother to tag de lar...but nw...erm...duneo y juz feel lyt putting tis tagbox..haa...anyway..tis holi is kinda bored ...i think i will stuck at hm majority of holi..though i feel lyt workin n earning money but me ..u neo lar...v.lazy..haha..anyway the job my fren intro r thoese retail all tat..aiya must c customer face...nahz..i dun wan lar..later gana scold by dem v.sad de..eh...ok lar..nothin much to write...haha..its raining heavily outside..so coolin..tym for bed..waha..so hungry nw..tym for luch..bb


not all those who wanders r lost...

rainy sunday

hmzz..its raining ever since 11am..tsktsk...tats gd anyway..i love rainy days..waha...hmmz..my life is gg to b busy nxt wk...haiz...gt two quizzes n one presentatn...omg...gt so many stuff for me to memorise..haiz...hw i m gg to survive..haiz...but after nxt wk..life is gg to b happier..yippie...no schl..so happy...but my clique r gg oversea le..so sad..i cnt go..i oso wana go..go enjoy my holi in oversea..so relax n happy...if i gt the chance..i would like to go..hmmz...japan...australia...yah...so long nv go oversea le leh...waha..ok i will stop here nd to mug for my test..ke lian me..haiz..


为何要为别人而活，而不是为自己而活

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This entry is linked wif titleless..after readfin an email...suddenly lots of thuts came to my mine...hmmz...so decided to blog agn...anyway i cnt comment alot of things cos i duneo who will read this blog...juz wana sae..evrythings start from misunderstanding n wadeva..i admit tat we r somehow at fault...but i believe in these situation nobody is happy..but if u think otherwise den its too bad...anyway its great to somehow knoe smthing though nt in detail...haiz..but i believe for nw nothin will change unless he do smhin abt it...cos its easy to start but diff to end..n i duneo ___is gd or bad...i reali v.confuse nw..argh....___ seem to hav 2 sides..so scary...haiz...wadeva..hope for world peace..n no matter how frustrated or angry m i, i reali hope tat if reali gt the chance we can go bac to the days we had 2gata..eg chalet...yupz tat all...
gona styudy for my tmr quiz...hope i will 4get abt evrything n CONCENTRATE...yesh!!gogogo

anyway a piece of notes...i juz wana thx evryone who help me in this incident...u guys knoe who u r...^_^


a impt lsn which i hab learnt..

what i wan

hmmz...wad i reali wan is :

• to hab is to have a new life..n get out from this schl asap...
• to go gym evry wk..lolz..
• to be happy evryday
• stop habin bad dream
• to go abroad as in go japan..australia those kinda
• to clear my doubts asap
• wana try studying abroad

在很久很久以前，这世界很美丽，但现在这一切变得很灰暗

titleless

HEY MAN....ALL THOSE WHO R READIN JUZ WANA SAE I LIVE FOR 18 YRS...N THIS IS A 1ST TYM ...REALI 1ST TYM...I SEE SUCH A BASTARD, NO BRAIN, ARROGANT PERSON...OMG...SO SUAY TO MEET HIM...N GOD PLS TAKE HIM OFF MY SIGHT FOR GOD SAKE....I REALI CAN'T STAND HIM...HE THINK HE IS DAMN BIG...FOR GOD SAKE...PLSSS...BIG AS IN HEAD BIG OR WATZ?....NORMALI I WUN SCOLD 4 LETTER WORD...HE REALI GET OFF MY TEMPER LIMIT...TO THE PLE READIN MY BLOG SEE-IN THE UNSIGHTLY OF ME...PLS GO BLAME TAT ASSHOLE...I SWEAR FROM NW ON I WUN TOK TO HIM ANYMORE...IF I TOK TO HIM...HE WILL DIE RITE IN FRONT OF ME...THX..NO MATTER WATZ...HOW "POPULAR" HE SEEM..HIS FRENZ N ...... WILL LEAVE HIM 1 DAY...I CN BE 100% SURE...YUPZ..COS THEY CAN'T STAND HIM...LYT I DO...

ANYWAY I JUZ CRIED...I REALI REGRET CRYING ABT IT...I RATHER CRIED FOR A ANT THAN CRY FOR IT....CAN I TAKE BAC MY TEARS AND USED IT FOR MEANINGFUL PURPOSES....MY TEARS R DARN PRECIOUS LOR ...

ANYWAY I DUN WANA WRITE A LONG ENTRY FOR HIM...WATSE MY BLOG SPACE AND ENERGY...HOPE EVRTHING WILL BE GONE WIF THE WIND...NW MY MOOD IS BETA...I KNOE GOD WILL OWAYS BLESS ME WIF GOOD LIFE AND GOOD FRENZ...HMMZ...I 4GET MY LAST ENTRY PROMISE TO WRITE GOOD STUFF ABT MYSELF...HAHAZ.OK SHALL WRITE SOME GOOD PTS TO CHEER MYSELF UP...I M LOYAL TO MY CLOSE FREN..FUNNY PRSN..LOLZ...ERM...HARDWORKIN(GUILTY)..LOLZ..ERM TATS ALL..THINK STILL GOT.. WAHA...MUST ASK MY CLOSE FRENZ...DUN SAY I M BHB..OK CYA...BB..


IN MY LIFE I SEE SORROW..BUT I SEE HAPPINESS MORE...

sleepless nite

anyway todae came hm the earliest..me rch hm abt 2pm..though its earli den usual..but tym passed v.fast..i did edit my rpt n datasht..n its 7plus le...tsktsk..hmmzz...its 1230am nw...n i m still wide awake..tmr still hab schl sia..tmr jialat..from 8-5 sia..sianz...normally at this tym i would be sound aslp..hahaz..but tonite cnt slp sia...so sianz..somemore so warm sia...feel lyt bathing..haha..but if i bath nw..think i will be siao kia..so late bath..hmmz...so me hab nothin to do...actuali gt alot..but all is so borin stuff(schl work)..dun feel lyt doin...so intend to blog...oh yah..todae aunt came bac from taiwan(holiday)..hehez..wonder if she got bought any nice stuff for me..

anyway juz nw i did something rude..lolz..haiz..duneo gt offend her..i oreadi send my apology to her le..hehez...waha..cos juz nw in bad mood lar...hmmzz..me lyt to bottle up my unhappiness...den think n think...den smtym will show black face..hai the ple ard me to suffer..waha..cos dey duneo wat happen i will nt tell dem de...think i should change tis bad habit...

anyway i think i hab change alot in a sense to the negative nt positive...i think i became more n more hot temper le..my temper nt as gd as last tym...in the sense nt as tolerant as b4...hmmz..n mood swing v.easily...den became rude..haha..think i suffering from depression...*cross finger*..lolz...

aiyo y i kp sayin bad comment abt myself...nvm nxt entry me gg to say gd stuff abt myself le..hehe...anyway..its seem lyt typing tis entry is sort of entertaining myself sia..tsktsk..aiyo type so long..onli 10 min as past..sianz..think i 1 am den go slp...bleah! me nw go surf the webbie..go read ple blog...anyway sayin abt blog..read one of my pri schl fren blog..wah..she gana ditch..sad sia..i think tat guy is a jerk lor..he ditch her cos of another gal..kaoz...wat kinda guy is tat..ok shall comment no more...so scan ple blog le..tata..nitey...

recieve a msg fin chi from my fren which says:

喜怒哀乐是由自己制造，要笑要泪就看自己这么县。

i oso thut of :

we must not let time control us..we must control time...

memories of yst

Friday entry

woke up ealri on fri morning despite its a holiday..duneo y..hehez...actuali need to go temple todae de..but int he end nv go..anyway my bro oso nv go...so when to meet slack at je..wohooo...todae we went to gym..yipyip..this is the 1st tym i went to gym in my whole 18yrs...dun laugh at me horz...ok den..went dere change into my attire.hehez..wow gym was damn fun...i fall in love with gym le...though the euipment in je is limited..but i hab try alot of he diff equipment..the euipment i like most is the one which can train my stomach muscle..hehe...we staye int he gym from about 230 lyt tat to 5pm sia...hehe...at there saw quite alot of muscular guys..woo..but dey all short short de...no handsome guy though..keke...was quite fun..how i wish i could go gym n train evry wk..haha...train into a fit fit prsn...yeah!...
den after gym went to sh hm to bath...after bathing we went to bugis to eat...went to barnsburk(smthin lyt tat)..we ordered the set meal..nt v.nice lar...somemore the service is damn slow..haiz...after tat nana went to take her mother days present..the present was quite nice..den sh intend to buy her mother day present..but could nt find anything she lyt..so in the end she decide to treat her mom out to eat ...den we went to mos burger to slack..i was feel tired le wana slp le..haha..den we went home at abt 10pm..me took bus hm..hehz..rch hm...den abt 11pm plus went to slp le..cos was so tired..think i used alot of energy on gym le...hehez..


以前想着未来， 但是现在想着过去。

meaningless life...

ok..mon was my csw presentan...we are the 1st grp to present...so excited...hehe..but...the meeting was kinda fun..our tcher video us dunrin our meetin..wonder hw i lk lyt..lolz...tcher still sae i gt gd eye contact skill...lolz...so happy...hmmz...gt my result bad..nt bad..70 plus...hmmz..
tues was in no mood condition...
wed was quite happy cos we went shoppin for our fyp stuff..heehz..went ard schl to search for fish shop..cn u juz imagine..spore has limited fish shop..finali found one in chua chu kang...we bought bags of things...so heavy worx..
thurs...was oso v.bored..guess my life is oways bored de...todae gt exp..tis exp i hated most...becos of two reasons....omg gt sore throat todae...hope i wun b sick tmr ...pray hard...

hw i wish i faster graduate and get out from tis kinda life...i dread gg to schl...it remind me of smthin in sec schl...i think i gt karma...me nw reali believe in karma le...haiz...i hope history wun repeat itself...sobz..

actuali todae quite unhappy...no mood to blog..think tmr shall blog...tmr wuld b a happy day i guess...waha...gogogogo tmr


在镜子面前，我们是在一起, 但是在我心里，我们是有段距离。

lolz....:x

was so bored n went to try out some test...juz found out from my name tat:


Lazy
Edgy
Overwhelming
Natural
Gorgeous

Mischievous
Easy
Ideal

Zany
Helpful
Emotional
Nice

and also

What personality elements make up your Personality cocktail?

How to make a Leong Mei Zhen
Ingredients:5 parts intelligence1 part silliness3 parts beauty
Method:Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of fitness

Hahaz...too bored...did tis test to entertain myself..keke


was reading thru ple blog as usual n found smthin nice.......
the st0ri of 2 teardr0ps-Two tear drops were floating down the river. One tear drop said to the other, "I'm the tear drop of agirl who loved a man and lost him. Who are you?" "I'm the teardrop of the man who regret letting agirl go....."
She teardrop consoled, "There would come a time when we have to stop loving someone because we found out that they'd be happier if we let themgo..."He teardrop replied, "But then you'll know thatyou miss someone very much when every time you think of that person, your heart breaks into pieces and just a quick 'Hello' from that personbrings the broken pieces back..."She teardrop said, "It's really painful to saygoodbye to someone else that you don't want tolet go; but it's even more painful to ask someone tostay if you can never make the relationship workout the way it should be."She continued, "LOVE? It's kind of complicated,but I'll tell you this... the second you're willing to make yourself miserable is to make someone else happy, that's love right there...."He teardrop pondered and said, "You know, if I had the letters "HRT", I can add "EA" to geta "HEART" or a "U" and get "HURT". But I'drather choose "U" and get "HURT" than havea "HEART" without "U"...She teardrop smiled and replied, "Giving someoneall your love is not an assurance that she will love you back. Don't expect love in return, wait forit to grow in her heart, if it doesn't, becontented it grows in yours."He teardrop continued, "She told me once, do not be too good, I will miss you. Don't be too caring; Imight like you. Don't be too sweet; I might fall foryou."She teardrop smiled and said, "A heart truly inlove never loses hope but always believes."She teardrop continued, "If you love her please let her know because it hurts to love when you have to go. Take care of me; don't go away because if you love me, you will stay... I love you and do you know why? You got me when you first said 'Hi'"He teardrop said, "You are brave she teardrop, now I know it's always better to have found the courage to love even if you lose it in the end ratherthan never found love because you were too afraid of the challenge."He teardrop continued further, "Did you know thatthe expression "Nothing" is the subconscious mind's way of saying I Love You... that's what ido, I told her NOTHING and because of that i losther even though i love her... I cry for the time that she was almost mine, I cry for the memories I've left behind, I cry for the pain, the lost, the old and the new. I cry for the times i thought I had her!"She teardrop consoled, "Relationships are like glass, sometimes it is better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together,or worse, have nothing strong to bind it together.you never lose in loving. you only lose in holding back."He teardrop cried,"Now I know, I have learned.don't throw your back to love when it's already infront of you, don't drive it away from you becauseif you did, someday you'll think again why you let love fly away when it was once next to YOU..."

election day

woot~woke up at 10 plus this morning....some funernal thing from downstair woke me up....yawnz...woke up went to watch tv...haiz...no show to watch...wat a boring sat....at 12 plus my parents went to vote ...my ma vote for pap..while my dad vote for opposition...hmmz...fair n square...if i hab the chance i would vote for pap for my area...yupz...after slackin for about 2 hour or so...went to use com to do my rpt...omg...the info are so hard to find...so bored...went to look at the blog...i think i addicted to readin ple blog le...evrything on the com i would nv fail to browse ard ple blog...and the blog i read are from mostly ple tat r younger den me...their lifestyle reali interest me...haha althu dey r quite normal..but i juz lurbe readin dem...dun say i kpo ok...hurmp...wah from 12pm use till now le...think my eyes gg to spoil soon...so bored..stuck at hm oso duneo wat to do...boredX3.....i wana go shoppin...buy shoe..buy jacket...buy yummy food....hw i wish i hab alot of $$...haiz..anyway tats all for today..nothin much though....i wana maple...haha...train my mage..lalala....

oh yah my previous entry say was bothered by schl stuff...but nw it seem to b improvin le...gogogo.....hehez....hope one day the outcome wuld be wat i hoped for...yeah!...i dun wana b bored in my last yr of poly, i wana hab FUN...yupz



i m borned lonely to this world...*sigh*

the story of the heart...

真的

我努力的仰着脸孔
试着眼泪不往下流
别往下流
不安的感觉到什么
在我生活中不再相同
很不相同
想要说
却还沉默
伸出手
无法触碰
天空突然一片辽阔
原来你是真的已经离开我
在我不熟悉的世界过新的生活
闭上眼让泪水滑落
此刻你已真的永远离开我
在另外一个没有我的世界
自由的走

-by 张韶涵

bad day

recently...some stuff happen to me in schl which left me v.bothered....i reali duneo wats the cause ....i reali wana knoes the truth...sometimes it is quite sad been etalosi ...sobsob...i reali wana stop all this things and lead the life i used to....anyway tis things is the 1st tym happening to me lar...haiz...soo sad...wateva it is hope evrthing will b alrite after few wks tym...

anyway wed went back to my company to take my pay...yippie....n return my nice nice smell dalmantian lab coat..^_^...went to take the pay frm carol..finali knoe who is carol le...hehe...aiyo gt so little pay...diaoz...so sad...thut cn get 600 plus...sianz...den after tat help out the lab ple...me went to the new lab...help out lian hua...prepare reagent...cos in the new lab duneo where the things r placed den i kp askin lian hua...i feel tat i m a nuisance..haha...cos kp askin(disturbin) her...quite ps....haiz..luckily lian hua v.kind...nv showed me a annoyed face...help me to take the reagent all tat stuff...hengheng me...wah tat day was the 1st tym handlin con HCL ...so scary...luckily nv corrode my skin sia...when i took out a few drops of HC n dripped into the solution...i could c smoke n violent reaction...alot of bubbles...scary...wonder wat will happen if HCL touched yr skin sia..might rot sia...tsktsk...anyway tat day..time past v.fast...6plus went hm..hehe...anyway wana comment tat when i went to the old lab its seem v.unfamilar to me...though i left for onli 1 wk..hmmz....anyway i will still miss dem de..

thurs...ms showed me a blog...tsktsk...its nt a ordinary blog...its a blog abt _ _ _...wahah...wah after readin it, it left me alot of thuts sia...haha...duneo shuld i support dem or anti dem..waha...juz wish dem all the best bahz though i find it abit weird...wateva it is gonna end here..

fri after sch me went bugis wif st n ms...as we end claz quite earli...we went dere nothin to do..kinda bored with bugis le...waha..we onli went dere to window shop a while..n sit down to chat...chat about happy things and unhappy ones...sayin about our clz....tis n dat...then about 6plus went to v8 n eat...i oredered the pineapple rice...omg it sucks...me will nt go v8 anymore le...n the surrounding is soo cold..brrr...me still hab to suffer while eating..wth..the bill came..i nd to pay $17..sobsob..gg to be broke...i rather go eat at other reasurant..much beta..hehez...at least the food nicer abit...nt soo cold sia....den went home..was v.tired and slp at 9 plus...i must b a pig slp so earli...ok gona end here le...cya peepz..bb

-这世界多复杂。。没有我想说的话-

schl started...-_-zzZ

sianz...tis wk started schl....no more workin life....nd to return to ploy agn...sianz.....i rather work den study actuali...alot alot alot of things in my mind nw...i reali wish i was younger..at least no trouble....haiz....me nw feelin so bored......dun feel lyt maplin...no tv to watch...so bored..argh....think wed i m gg bac to my company to collect my pay..still haben get a single cent frm my company yet...wonder hw r my colleague...did dey miss me..waha....so bhb...nvm...anyway dun feel lyt blogging le..waha...my mood swing v.fast de...so i will stop here le...bb


how i wish we will lyt b4....so united...but nw..i dun c it...this kinda spirit has vanished...y?...i duneo y...

how i wish i nv know the truth...tat nite i can't slp...tis matter revolve ard my mind...还你自由~

how i wish some1 understand mi....


我终于知道哭着笑最痛

last wk of itp

this is the last week of itp....offically no more itp for me le....time really passes so fast...anyway i will miss my colleague...i realli abit can't bear to leave the company...but i think tis kinda feelin might disappear in few wks time..sometimes i rather wana stay in the company than go to schl..wahaha...anyway i might go back to the company to help out somedays when they need me bah....we 3 hav printed a copy of our timetable to dem le..haha...but think durin june dey would nt nd us le..cos gt another batch of attachment student comin...

for mon, wee nie work ot sia...cos our company got alot of sample..too bad i cnt work cos gtg out to buy stuff for my colleague...but the ot was quite cheap...4 bucks per hr...but gd thing is tat gt $5 on food and $6 ontransport..i reali wana try workin ot...seem lyt so fun to me..waha

for wed, freddy broght us out for lunch..sort of the whole company go...xcept a few..lynn and dose night shift ple nv go nia...we went to dover hawker centre dere to eat...i ate the hokkein mee...and drank bubble tea...so long nv drank bubble tea le...brought back some memories durin sec schl days....used to drink buble tea veri often...mostly is drink the pearl milk tea...waha....anyway after lunch we went to the office to work le...

on thurs, its the last day of work le.....me make two cards for my colleague(susan and kitty) whom taught me alot durin this 6wks...and oso gave lynn our thank you card....to show our appreciation, we 3 shared to buy biscuit and pizza for dem... susan was lyt sharin aiyo...dun waste yr money lar...haha...anyway its worth it lar...dey reali taught me alot...and been gd to me leh...we took alot of photographs...xue wei was lyt sayin if we left the company le...no one will crap wif her le...haha...r we dat crappy??....hmm...anyway..tis wk i leave the company v.late...on tues i leave at 7 plus lor..cos wana discuss wat to buy for dem...den thurs... esp the few hr b4 we end work...i was lyt quite sad...knowin tat in a few hr tym we gg to leave the company le...we kp counting dwn..waha...finali we reali left the comapny le...we bid evry1 the final goodbye...haiz...reali had lots of fun in company... goodbye my colleague!! ms u guys...all the best..

the company ple

haiz duneo y cnt upload more photo...4get abt it le...hurmp....

心中觉得空空的，好像人生少了些么。。。

5th week of itp

woo~ 5th wk of itp le...last wk nv update cos quite busy no tym to update..waha...hmm...anyway...left 1 wk b4 schl start..

so tis wk....on mon was i continue on my experiment den after tat did soem admin stuff n power point slide...tues n wed n thurs...was quite sianz...did alot of admin stuff n some bo liao stuff....qas quite slack sia...den me n wee nie...went to paint dere n drew somethin...entitled "panda and me"..waha..we were damn bo liao..after we drew le..we save inside the com...on wed..liew...kana suan by some1..worst thing is nt in the company lor..is frm the uncle from hawker centre...tis is the 1st tym i bjy goreng pisang for my itp...den i ordered 2 goreng pisang(50 cent each)...den wee nie say seperate...den uncle sae...separate must 1 bucks arh...den i was thinkin wah 1 bucks...den after tat eh nt ritez....2 oso cost 1 bucks mah./..wat unlce sayin sia...so i was processin wat uncle say...tat uncle den suan me sae..wah mention seperate 1 bucks yr face change color..haha.
-_-"....wheer gt lor...i was processin nia..anyhw shoot me...he den say...evry customer oso lyt tat..."say seperate 1 bucks den say dun wana seperate le..tat uncle so disturbin sia...haha...but anyway i nxt wk gg to eat goreng pisang agn...so yummy n cripsy.....
den thurs worst..reali nothin for us to do....but thurs freddy gib us take 1 test..but is open book de...wahha...after tat i was nearly slackin the whole day..our supervisor...susan was on leave...den lynn was askin admin dere gt work for us to do nt...hmm den we help freddy do his powerpoint..den freddy gav us bac our test..i gt a "A"..yeah...wahha..hmm...den lynn n rest went to resaurant eat...cos its calvin last day le...sobsob...cavin is a nice guy..so sad he go to join other company le....den dey went to eat for a long tym...about 2 hr sia...den me n wee nie n loy were chattin...was lyt siao gi na ...especially wee nie lor...kp laughin non-stop...den loy kp suan-in wee nie...me oso of cosh lar...waha...so slack lor...the company tat day onli left suresh n muthu nia...haha....den went dey were bac...cavin bought polar cake for us...treat frm him ...cos his last day...yummy...so full sia tat day...

oh yah den fri...earli mornin came alot of sample..so we were sent to help out the lab dere...so busy..try out ashin todae for 1st tym...wah the fire was so big...hehe...so cool...feel lyt takin photo of it...hehe...brian, the australian guy left company last wk...but he came bac todae sia..n visit us..waha...den in afternoon help out muthu to do flash point...anyway left 1 more wk nia with the company...actuali will kinda of miss dem seriously...at 1st i thut i wun but nw i feel otherwise..haha...especially susan...kitty..dey taught me alot of stuff sia...n joshua n kenneth...the 2 gao siao king...hehe...hmm duneo wat to gib dem when i leave...sobsobz....ok lar gtg end le...nxt wk is the last wk of itp..haiz...

-sori i can't be perfect-

3rd week of itp

its the 3rd week of itp le...3 more wk...n the end of itp n the startin of schl..argh...sianz...so nw i shall sae wat happen on this wk..

Mon, my lo, joseph chan came ...haha...thut he will kp suan-in me...surprisingly..nahz...onli suan 1 tym nia..phew...but tat day we 3 oso gt suan him sia..haha...anyway when he came lynn was nt ard...so he chat wif us...n some of the collegue...his action is quite funny which kp makin wee nie laughing sia..hmm...those collegue who has seen him eg freddy, susan,kitty sae he dun lk lyt tcher but instaed lyt our fren sia...so young worx...haha...when lynn came bac..she open a conference rm n let us n our lo chat n she herself oso tok to joseph..hmm...the whole situation seem awkward...den thru the conversation, found out joseph oso frm dcp sia...his attachment oso in jurong island sia..hmm..den he sae his last tym project wif the company is abt shampoo-pantene..den he was sayin wee nie hair is abit dry ..blah blah..my hair abit frizzy...blah blah...sayin we zhuan dao cos gt free consultation sia..after tokin, its was abt 1pm..our lunch tym le...so joseph went to hav lunch wif us at the nearby fdcourt...he treat us our lunch so in return me n wee nie treat her drink lor...hmm found out he lyt to eat veg cos mostly the veg are eaten up by him sia..even cucumber he eats..so healthy..wow...den afetr lunch went bac to the company..he sign our log bk...den went off le lor..he sae he most prob onli visit us 1 tym nia..if gt tym he will drop by...hmm wee nie lyt k[p wishin him to come sae he veri funny all tat..for me kk lor.....quite funny oways do weird stuff...hmm...but smtym he will make my blood boil...anyway tats for mon...

eh tues, wed,thurs are all abt the same..nothin special happen lar..juz help freddy do his powerpt slide..did 1 or 2 exp....did filing..haiz...kinda bored...wah freddy power pt slide is damn long...about 100 plus slides sia...last tym he oso gt attachment student help him do..2gata gt 200 plus slides...omg....wonder hw the ple attend his course survive..so many slides sia...haha...though i did for 3 days le..but the powerpt slides still haben done..so u cn c hw long are the slides..den thurs was abit late for work abt 833am den rch but phew lynn was nt dere yet..she is late agn...waha..lucky...den fri...wAS gd..ahah..cos freedy brought we 3 out for lunch and treat us sia.so gd of him...even lynn who is in charge of us oso nv bring us go out..niao sia..finali i m out of the industrial park..yippie...at 1st he was gg to bring us to sp tat reasurant at near the swimmin pool de..but we lyt showed him a dun wan face..haha...den he suggested to go ginza...den...we went to ginza de sakura n eat...the food dere was nt bad..cos its near my sec schl..n i hab been dere a few tym le..the food dere is hala de...hmm ...found out tat freddy nv eat chili cos he ordered kangkong in those sauce nt lyt the usual sambal chili kind..so we eat n chat,..agn/.. the situation is awkward..waha...found out tat freddy was a tcher last tym sia...she teach math n sci sia..hmm..den he was askin if we are interested to join the company after we grad..if wan must apply fast in jan...cos dere would be some vacancy de...hmm..i dun think i wan to join the company..provided the pay is damn high ..waha...after lunch..rch the office abt 215 pm sia..haha...kitty ask us where we go..told her is ginza...b4 i told her teh name she guessed it le..wah so smart...she sae she v.gd in eatin de...sae sakura nt bad..haha...den she sae..y nv ask freedy to treat us to jap food even more ex...haha..manager treat must slash him..lolz...hopefuli its nt the last tym he brought us out..hehez.....

so i think tats all for this wk...quite a boring wk sia...nothin interestin for me to do..sianz...hopefuli nxt wk more lab work..cos maria is bac frm her leave on mon...yippie..finali...so long sia...3 wk le...she den bac frm her leave ...wonder hw she lk lyt..waha...shal update nxt wk..cya..bb

-attitude-

2nd week of itp

2nd week of itp has passed....left 4more wk of itp.....so wat i had been doing this wk....

tis wk i was late two days...on mon i rpt at 832 lyt lucky my manager-lynn was even later den me....but wed was worst...i rpt at 840am...lynn was oreadi dere i hab meetin wif the rest of the staff dere...walk in and lynn glance at me..shit...was damn ps....anyway nvm....all the bus fault anyway...waited for the bus for damn damn long...n when the bus came...it was damn packed..i nearli cnt step onto the bus..kp squeezing in...damn du lan....i was late le and still nd to squeeze...lucky magange to board the bus if nt would be evn later....suddenly a phase came into my mind when i was in the bus..haha...不是你死就是我亡。。duneo y tis phae came to my mind ..so funny..

anyway lynn was on leave majority of this wk...she was on leave on tues, thur, fri and took half day on wed....life without lynn was damn shiok..the company ple was slack...haha...we even had tea break anytym we lyt...wed ...wee keong bought curry puff for teabteak....haha..the curry puff was soso...den cavin bought banana for teabreak..wah the banana was very very starchy...eat until damn full...den duneo who fri bought goreng pisan...but i nv eat it...cos no one invite me to eat...haha...nvm....but i fri drank coffee and tea for my teabreak..waha....self make de...nt bad...even freddy(another manager) came over n had tea break sia for wed thurs n fri..haha...too bad.. sian lynn returnin bac on mon....which mean evry1 will b work n work le..no more tea break..sobz..no more slackin..

anyway i finali gt the chance to touch some lab work...though nt much....but i enjoy the 1st exp..quite fun though...callibration of some apparatus..n we oso did engravin of the volumetric flask...at 1st i thut engravin was fun....it was nt...nt fun at all...instead it was damn noisy and the device for engravin vibrate alot...i oso did some admin work ...of cos...typin of billing rpt..photocopyin...arranging of files..n oso helpin freddy out in a ppt slide ...cos he holdin a course...den me n wee nie helpin him to add some pic to the slides and do the backgrd all tat..sian i dun lyt to do....wish some1 can help me do..haha....

also for lucnh break...i went to two new food centre where i nv been b4...gt one food centre nt bad..cos below gt provision shop...cn buy ice-cream...yummy....chill myself...on tues i ate guava ice-cream...fri i ate the lime ice-cream...yummy...shall eat ice cream nxt wk too..i lub dem..haha....yum yum....but the 3 food centre all so far frm my company..nd to walk quite a distance..sianz...

i felt tat workin life u hab to be strong sia....cos even arranging of filess..the files r damn thick n heavy...n u hab to carry here n there..soo heavy...even lab oso lor...fri did at exp...abt the sepearting funnel de...the funnel was 1l lor...den we hab to shake it n shake it to extract out the lead..i think i hab shake it for 15 times lor...shake until my hand pain (aching sia)...

hmm..think tats all for this wk...shall update nxt wk...cya guys....hope nxt wk is beta den tis wk...ahhaz

-self centred-

human nature

i juz can't understand y human lyt to act as if they are correct although they r in the wrong....it sometimes reali pissed me off.....can't they juz admit that they don't knoe/ in the wrong...instead of makin up stories and actin as if they r correct...worst things is that they thut i dun knoe they r actuali makin up stories and doin it over n over...omg...reali cnt stand it....y?..y?...is it reali dat embarrasing?...

-u r the ending of the story-

1st wk of itp

muhaha...so fast 1st wk of itp has gone..amazing..time reali flies...so wat hab i been doing tis wk....all i cn sae is admin and more admin work...i m a typical admin gal...doing filing..typing....photocopying...omg...i learnt nothin relevant to my course sia...i think my xcel skill has improve tis wk...hehez....actuali tym reali flies while doing admin work...evry morning...do work...wish for lunch to come...after go bac to work ...wish for 615pm to come...cn go hm le...tats a daily routine...

hmm...actuali my collegue nt bad lar...cn get along well with...hmm...gt a few of dem came frm sp de...hmm...gt one guy called kenneth..i think he is the joker in the company...without him...the comp would be quite quiet...his laughter is horrible..hahaz...and my lab manger which is in charge of me for itp...the way she speak is in broken lang...and i knoe tat her kou dou cang is ->u get wat i mean nt?....haha...i caught her sayin tat alot of tym le..she seldom tok to us much de...she seem busy evryday..hearin ph call evry min sia...muhaha....n kitty the admin gal whom i speak to most...actuali is tokin to her abt admin stuff all tat...she lk younger den her actual age worx....oh yah..my com still gt one australian guy..haha...wah he quite zai de worx...gt win wat climbin highest hotel in spore one lor..zai sia...n still gt alot of ple lar...haha..lazy to mention....oh yah...i went to another side of my com(#1-03) on tues i think...the all admin section to type my billing report cos my com(#1-04) gt nt enuf com lar...den some1 a quite cute lady(big eyes) sittin nearby me...ask me wan to drink water nt..haha..cos she c me lyt nv drink water...waha...den b4 she went for lunch still remind me said...eh..later must rmb to drink water horz...waha...so funny...quite touch..she actuali care for me...waha...though we dun knoe each other and i duneo her name anyway.. waha

haha 1st day of work...the com hold meeting(smthing usual evry morning de)...kenneth n ms yap(lab manger) were argueing over the result thingy lor...though is a sort of meetin but onli kenneth n ms yap r tokin nia..others r juz eatin n listenin breakfast..ahha..den kenneth duneo say wat..i u gg to say --- in front of the attachment student..hmm...den..in teh end they nv sae le..i feel tat ms yap is quite stubborn...i felt tat she feel machine which r expensive n can r used by quite alot of comp is gd....hmm..anyway tats my opinon lar..mayb she is rite in her judgemnt..

actuali....i dun mind doin admin...but todae i m reali damn sian of doin le...cos for the past 4 days i hab been doing the same thing..which is typin of billing report..mai siao siao..the billing rpt gt my name...cos below dere gt type "prepared by mz" ( in arial narrow- font 6) wahah..though the font is small...but at leaste beta den nothin..waha...gt left a history in my company..haha...anyway while typing of billing rpt make alot of mistake den must reprint n reprint lor..omg..waste com alot of resources..so ps...den kitty told me those paper gt mistake de...cn throw away..i was lyt omg..so wasteful...the error i make cn accumulate to a big file of lecture notes lor...den i feel throwin the paper away was quite wasteful so yst n todae i kop some paper home...shh..dun tell my company..waha...mayb nxt wk if i doin admin i might kop some home too...cos i think i evryday would make mistake de lar...haha...den todae in the meetin...the lab manager..ms yap...sae tat we itp student might do admin until nxt fri..i was lyt...diaoz...wat shuld i write in my log bk sia...sianz....lucky calvin( gt rank in the company) help us to voice out sae...its nt fair to use lor...cos we nd to update our log bk...if evryday do admin we hab nothin to write...so mayb we might alternate days do admin bahz...hope so...cos i reali quite sian of typin billing rpt though its quite alrite the job...

oh yah..den todae ms yap said to kitty den yur work as been cleared nw become my table hab big pile of work le( mainly signing of her signature) -_-"....i was thinkin ...serve her ritez...haha..who call her dun let us do lab stuff...ask us to do admin stuff...hehez...if she let us do lab stuff...mayb the admin thingy would nt b cleared so fast..den she wun hab much stuff to sign le..hez..

as for the food centre near my company...there is abt 3 hawker centre...but tis wk i onli went to 1 hawker nia...n todae i eat the mee rubus...which is the tastiest fd i eaten so far..haha...the hawker centre mostly is cai fan..so sianz..mayb nxt wk will go to another hawker centre..heard kitty said dat teh canteen at our com basement...the fd quite ex..so i might nt go dere bahz....

actuali if i were to chose btwn schl n job..i oso nt sure nw...both gt its pros n con lar...for workin ritez...its quite relax...though smtym the work assign to u its quite urgent...but i tis wk..average evryday 10 plus slp le...so shiok...unlyt schlin me 12 plus den cn slp lor...mayb gib me few more wk..shall c hw is my com..

kk lar..gtg le...seem todae my blog seem quite lengthy...too much things to write..waha...shall update nxt wk...hope i cn touch lab stuff n nt admin work evryday...waha....cya guys...all the best for itp..n enjoy sia....byebye....



stero-typing might make 1 life worst...

the day has arrived

Yeah!! xam is finali over...so happy...erm mayb nt..haha...cos i think i might do well for tis sem n itp is gg to start in abt 3 days time...omg...todae went to lk for my lo..omg...he reali erm duneo hw to say...kp suan-in me...each sentence i sae he will suan me..sianz... aiya..think my itp grade would nt b gd le...sobzsobz

anyway juz wana share wif u guys who r readin my blog abt a true story which left me with huge impact..heard tis story on yin yue re ji(933fm)..tis it hw it begins....

在某一个国家。。。一位父亲刚买了以辆新豪华的车。他高高兴兴的驾那辆车回到他家去。他便把那辆车停在他家外面， 然后回到自己的房间去。过了不久后，他就听到一阵砰。。砰。。砰。。的声音， 便急忙跑下楼看个究竟。令他吃惊的是， 他看到他的儿子手拿着铁锤 再拼命的敲打他刚新买的车。他看到后，非常的生气，便拿铁锤 拼命的敲打儿子。当他发现自己在做什么时， 已经太迟了，因为儿子已经昏迷了。他连忙把儿子送进医院。医生说儿子的手需要据掉因为一根骨已经断了。但手术完了后， 儿子醒过来 看到自己的手已经被据掉了。。他就望着爸爸 对他说：“爸爸对不起。。我错了。。我以后不贪玩了。。我的手还会张的对不对？"。。。。爸爸听到了非常伤心。
爸爸回到家后便自杀了。

tats the end of the story..it left me with double impact...hmm....anyway the morale of story is patience is one of a component in love.....








Changes is good or bad?

Song

Let's dance in style,
let's dance for a while
Heaven can wait,
we're only watching the skies
Hoping for the best but expecting the worst
Are you going to drop the bomb or not

Let us die young or let us live forever
We don't have the power but we never say never
Sitting in a sandpit, life is a short trip
The music's for the sad men

Let us die young or let us live forever
We don't have the power but we never say never
Sitting in a sandpit, life is a short trip
The music's for the sad men

Can you imagine when this race is won
Turn our golden faces into the sun
Praising our leaders, we're getting in tune
The music's played by the madmen

Forever young,
I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever
Forever -- and ever

Some are like water, some are like the heat
Some are a melody and some are the beat
Sooner or later, they all will be gone
Why don't they stay young?

It's so hard to get old without a cause
I don't want to perish like a fading horse
Youth's like diamonds in the sun
And diamonds are forever

So many adventures couldn't happen today
So many songs we forgot to play
So many dreams swinging out of the blue
We'll let them come true

Forever young...

-So nEar yEt DifFerEnt woRlDs apArt-

是他还是她？

到底是他还是她？


我每天晚上都能听到一首又一首的曲子。。。
传出美妙的琴声
我永远都不知道他是谁
唯一知道的是他住在我家对面

当我一听到钢琴的声音
我就会走去窗那儿
望望对面
希望能看到弹钢琴的人

已经一个星期了
我仍然不知道他是谁
虽然大家的距离很近
但他永远对我来说只是一个影子。。。








A wAke Up cAlL...

Life StIll GoES on

hmm..suddenly felt so bored studying...another 6 more days is exam...so sianz...i dun hab the mood to study ...feel lyt playin...n enjoyin...u might think after exam cn relax..no way man....ITP would den start...argh....i hate workin...wonder hw is my company lyt..me no hab any holidae...borin...hmm...was scrolling thru my friendster...n redain the testi written by my fren...haha...suddenly hab lots of thuts....some -ve thuts n some +ve thuts..haha...wateva it is...sometimes it is gd to view the memories u once hab...

kk i wana stop here..cos some1 tempt me to maple...n i cnt resis it...muhaha...shall blog another tym...cya...bb...

The 1st CuT IS tHe DeEpest!!

bullshit day...venting anger

hwhw nw so angry....damnz it...hate tis life....in schl oreadi so stress wif many many test...nw came wif this bullshit stuff....dere r some things which i dun wana say .....feel lyt shouting out loud....think i will get depression one day man...wth.... things might be nice on the appearance but inside its rotten man....argh~....there are alot of stuff i wana say...but i can't.....

hope after end my blog..my mood would be better..

happy chinese new yr eve ....

hmm....so fast another yr had past...which mean i hab grown older le.....actuali its v. contradicting...beacause when i was in primary schl i which i would faster grow up...but nw i which i was younger....thinkin abt gg to attachment sn...scares me....the workin society is v.complicated...haiz......wonder hw wuld it be lyt workin....though its nt my 1st tym workin ...haha...

though its cny...but dere are tons of hmk for me sia...n test comin up ....wat kinda cny is tat man...haiz...dun feel lyt gg to schl...1stly becos gt alot of test comin up...2ndly is abt the envir in poly.....shall nt elaborate much....anyway.....hw i wish times would rewind bac....anyway i once heard a 933fm dj saying 在年轻认识的朋友是最真实的。。。i agree with it.....becos when we r young like durin primary or sec schl yr....the ple ard us r v.pure(no corrupted mind)...n dey make fren wif us with gd intention.....but as we grow up.....ple changes...dey search for power, reputation...result in bac-stabbin...gossiping....
seriously....as i grew up i slowly 4get the definition of wat frenz is....
is it fren r dey ple oways beside u whenever u go?...... frenz are oways dere when u nd dem?......or is it fren is lyt love definition.....wat u think it is n tats is.....depend on individual....wats the ans?........

anyway for tonite reunion dinner...mama nt gg to hab steamboat...sobsob...but mama gg to cook buddhA jump over the wall...muhaha...yummy...haha.....duneo wat other dishes she gg to cook....tmr is cny le....gg to c my grandparent...auntie...uncles....cousins....n collect alot of ang paos....hehe....

shall end here...gg to pia my rpt....hope tonite cn maple...so long nv touch maple le...



在同样的时间里，发生不同样的事。

HAppy new yr.....

yst 31/1/05.....last day of 2005.....as usual i m wif SLACK for our countdwn session...though onli 7 out of 10 members present but we still hab a fun tym...haha....how i wish evryday would be lyt last day of 2005 and 1st day of 2006...reali reali enjoy the day in west coast park..kk...we meet up at 7pm at kent ridge bus stop...den we went to west coast park de mac n eat our dinner. den we stay there tok n eat...play some stupid game...haha...qw was workin at the macafe dere...he lk lyt so free sia...kp walkin here n dere...bcareful gana fired arh..haha....den we tok abt our days in sec schl...so funny...tok abt hw we bully tcher...tok abt weird weird tcher...haiz....the days in sec2c were v.fun....hw united were we....hw we joined force n bully tcher...make dem angry...too bad..time flies...nw in poly u wuld c tis kinda situation le...noo more....kk...continue with my stories....we chat until abt gg to 11pm den we went to west coast park...hunting for a gd spot to set up our stuff...after walkin one big round...we settle down...

Our chosen place

sy den suggested to form [S.L.A.C.K] wif candles.....anyway we gt nothin to do so we formed it out....we took abt 10 min to formed....the effect was gd when we lighted it up...so impressive sia....so proud of our masterpiece..ahah...

Our hardwork

at abt 1130pm...we thut of playing a game...qw by den oredai end work le...we ask him go bac to mac to steal scrotch tape for our game...by the tym we write the things for our game...its oreadi 1145pm...so we suggested after count dwn den play our game lar... we ask a passer-by to take pic for us...den we started to countdwn.....

ahha so smoky sia the pic...we gana drowned in the smoke on 1st of 2006...argh...help!!!!

after the coutndwn we continue wif teh games....hmm...duneo hw to explain the game...but quite fun...me gana forfeit 3 tym sia...gana hit on ear ...argh so pain sia...sobsob....we play until abt 1 lyt tat...den we went to mac dere drink coffee...wah...though is abt 1pm ..mac still v crowded...we finali gt to sit dwn...sice qw work dere..he help us to karpo cold coffee...haha..dun envy worx...tahnx qw..but while he help us to karpo..he still nd to help out in macafe dere though his workin hr over le...cos mac reali so amny ple...business damn gd...kk den..me , fio, ch drink until halfway hab to go le...cos ch dad drove us hm...n ch mum lyt quite angry...den fio rch hm 1st den me....anyway thanx ch n ch dad for teh ride..me rch hm ard 2am sia...so exhuasted...den slept ard 3am...todae woke up at 12pm...1st tym so late woke up...haha....

memories are a film played without sound....