rainy sunday

hmzz..its raining ever since 11am..tsktsk...tats gd anyway..i love rainy days..waha...hmmz..my life is gg to b busy nxt wk...haiz...gt two quizzes n one presentatn...omg...gt so many stuff for me to memorise..haiz...hw i m gg to survive..haiz...but after nxt wk..life is gg to b happier..yippie...no schl..so happy...but my clique r gg oversea le..so sad..i cnt go..i oso wana go..go enjoy my holi in oversea..so relax n happy...if i gt the chance..i would like to go..hmmz...japan...australia...yah...so long nv go oversea le leh...waha..ok i will stop here nd to mug for my test..ke lian me..haiz..


为何要为别人而活，而不是为自己而活

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This entry is linked wif titleless..after readfin an email...suddenly lots of thuts came to my mine...hmmz...so decided to blog agn...anyway i cnt comment alot of things cos i duneo who will read this blog...juz wana sae..evrythings start from misunderstanding n wadeva..i admit tat we r somehow at fault...but i believe in these situation nobody is happy..but if u think otherwise den its too bad...anyway its great to somehow knoe smthing though nt in detail...haiz..but i believe for nw nothin will change unless he do smhin abt it...cos its easy to start but diff to end..n i duneo ___is gd or bad...i reali v.confuse nw..argh....___ seem to hav 2 sides..so scary...haiz...wadeva..hope for world peace..n no matter how frustrated or angry m i, i reali hope tat if reali gt the chance we can go bac to the days we had 2gata..eg chalet...yupz tat all...
gona styudy for my tmr quiz...hope i will 4get abt evrything n CONCENTRATE...yesh!!gogogo

anyway a piece of notes...i juz wana thx evryone who help me in this incident...u guys knoe who u r...^_^


a impt lsn which i hab learnt..

what i wan

hmmz...wad i reali wan is :

• to hab is to have a new life..n get out from this schl asap...
• to go gym evry wk..lolz..
• to be happy evryday
• stop habin bad dream
• to go abroad as in go japan..australia those kinda
• to clear my doubts asap
• wana try studying abroad

在很久很久以前，这世界很美丽，但现在这一切变得很灰暗

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HEY MAN....ALL THOSE WHO R READIN JUZ WANA SAE I LIVE FOR 18 YRS...N THIS IS A 1ST TYM ...REALI 1ST TYM...I SEE SUCH A BASTARD, NO BRAIN, ARROGANT PERSON...OMG...SO SUAY TO MEET HIM...N GOD PLS TAKE HIM OFF MY SIGHT FOR GOD SAKE....I REALI CAN'T STAND HIM...HE THINK HE IS DAMN BIG...FOR GOD SAKE...PLSSS...BIG AS IN HEAD BIG OR WATZ?....NORMALI I WUN SCOLD 4 LETTER WORD...HE REALI GET OFF MY TEMPER LIMIT...TO THE PLE READIN MY BLOG SEE-IN THE UNSIGHTLY OF ME...PLS GO BLAME TAT ASSHOLE...I SWEAR FROM NW ON I WUN TOK TO HIM ANYMORE...IF I TOK TO HIM...HE WILL DIE RITE IN FRONT OF ME...THX..NO MATTER WATZ...HOW "POPULAR" HE SEEM..HIS FRENZ N ...... WILL LEAVE HIM 1 DAY...I CN BE 100% SURE...YUPZ..COS THEY CAN'T STAND HIM...LYT I DO...

ANYWAY I JUZ CRIED...I REALI REGRET CRYING ABT IT...I RATHER CRIED FOR A ANT THAN CRY FOR IT....CAN I TAKE BAC MY TEARS AND USED IT FOR MEANINGFUL PURPOSES....MY TEARS R DARN PRECIOUS LOR ...

ANYWAY I DUN WANA WRITE A LONG ENTRY FOR HIM...WATSE MY BLOG SPACE AND ENERGY...HOPE EVRTHING WILL BE GONE WIF THE WIND...NW MY MOOD IS BETA...I KNOE GOD WILL OWAYS BLESS ME WIF GOOD LIFE AND GOOD FRENZ...HMMZ...I 4GET MY LAST ENTRY PROMISE TO WRITE GOOD STUFF ABT MYSELF...HAHAZ.OK SHALL WRITE SOME GOOD PTS TO CHEER MYSELF UP...I M LOYAL TO MY CLOSE FREN..FUNNY PRSN..LOLZ...ERM...HARDWORKIN(GUILTY)..LOLZ..ERM TATS ALL..THINK STILL GOT.. WAHA...MUST ASK MY CLOSE FRENZ...DUN SAY I M BHB..OK CYA...BB..


IN MY LIFE I SEE SORROW..BUT I SEE HAPPINESS MORE...

sleepless nite

anyway todae came hm the earliest..me rch hm abt 2pm..though its earli den usual..but tym passed v.fast..i did edit my rpt n datasht..n its 7plus le...tsktsk..hmmzz...its 1230am nw...n i m still wide awake..tmr still hab schl sia..tmr jialat..from 8-5 sia..sianz...normally at this tym i would be sound aslp..hahaz..but tonite cnt slp sia...so sianz..somemore so warm sia...feel lyt bathing..haha..but if i bath nw..think i will be siao kia..so late bath..hmmz...so me hab nothin to do...actuali gt alot..but all is so borin stuff(schl work)..dun feel lyt doin...so intend to blog...oh yah..todae aunt came bac from taiwan(holiday)..hehez..wonder if she got bought any nice stuff for me..

anyway juz nw i did something rude..lolz..haiz..duneo gt offend her..i oreadi send my apology to her le..hehez...waha..cos juz nw in bad mood lar...hmmzz..me lyt to bottle up my unhappiness...den think n think...den smtym will show black face..hai the ple ard me to suffer..waha..cos dey duneo wat happen i will nt tell dem de...think i should change tis bad habit...

anyway i think i hab change alot in a sense to the negative nt positive...i think i became more n more hot temper le..my temper nt as gd as last tym...in the sense nt as tolerant as b4...hmmz..n mood swing v.easily...den became rude..haha..think i suffering from depression...*cross finger*..lolz...

aiyo y i kp sayin bad comment abt myself...nvm nxt entry me gg to say gd stuff abt myself le..hehe...anyway..its seem lyt typing tis entry is sort of entertaining myself sia..tsktsk..aiyo type so long..onli 10 min as past..sianz..think i 1 am den go slp...bleah! me nw go surf the webbie..go read ple blog...anyway sayin abt blog..read one of my pri schl fren blog..wah..she gana ditch..sad sia..i think tat guy is a jerk lor..he ditch her cos of another gal..kaoz...wat kinda guy is tat..ok shall comment no more...so scan ple blog le..tata..nitey...

recieve a msg fin chi from my fren which says:

喜怒哀乐是由自己制造，要笑要泪就看自己这么县。

i oso thut of :

we must not let time control us..we must control time...

memories of yst

Friday entry

woke up ealri on fri morning despite its a holiday..duneo y..hehez...actuali need to go temple todae de..but int he end nv go..anyway my bro oso nv go...so when to meet slack at je..wohooo...todae we went to gym..yipyip..this is the 1st tym i went to gym in my whole 18yrs...dun laugh at me horz...ok den..went dere change into my attire.hehez..wow gym was damn fun...i fall in love with gym le...though the euipment in je is limited..but i hab try alot of he diff equipment..the euipment i like most is the one which can train my stomach muscle..hehe...we staye int he gym from about 230 lyt tat to 5pm sia...hehe...at there saw quite alot of muscular guys..woo..but dey all short short de...no handsome guy though..keke...was quite fun..how i wish i could go gym n train evry wk..haha...train into a fit fit prsn...yeah!...
den after gym went to sh hm to bath...after bathing we went to bugis to eat...went to barnsburk(smthin lyt tat)..we ordered the set meal..nt v.nice lar...somemore the service is damn slow..haiz...after tat nana went to take her mother days present..the present was quite nice..den sh intend to buy her mother day present..but could nt find anything she lyt..so in the end she decide to treat her mom out to eat ...den we went to mos burger to slack..i was feel tired le wana slp le..haha..den we went home at abt 10pm..me took bus hm..hehz..rch hm...den abt 11pm plus went to slp le..cos was so tired..think i used alot of energy on gym le...hehez..


以前想着未来， 但是现在想着过去。

meaningless life...

ok..mon was my csw presentan...we are the 1st grp to present...so excited...hehe..but...the meeting was kinda fun..our tcher video us dunrin our meetin..wonder hw i lk lyt..lolz...tcher still sae i gt gd eye contact skill...lolz...so happy...hmmz...gt my result bad..nt bad..70 plus...hmmz..
tues was in no mood condition...
wed was quite happy cos we went shoppin for our fyp stuff..heehz..went ard schl to search for fish shop..cn u juz imagine..spore has limited fish shop..finali found one in chua chu kang...we bought bags of things...so heavy worx..
thurs...was oso v.bored..guess my life is oways bored de...todae gt exp..tis exp i hated most...becos of two reasons....omg gt sore throat todae...hope i wun b sick tmr ...pray hard...

hw i wish i faster graduate and get out from tis kinda life...i dread gg to schl...it remind me of smthin in sec schl...i think i gt karma...me nw reali believe in karma le...haiz...i hope history wun repeat itself...sobz..

actuali todae quite unhappy...no mood to blog..think tmr shall blog...tmr wuld b a happy day i guess...waha...gogogogo tmr


在镜子面前，我们是在一起, 但是在我心里，我们是有段距离。

lolz....:x

was so bored n went to try out some test...juz found out from my name tat:


Lazy
Edgy
Overwhelming
Natural
Gorgeous

Mischievous
Easy
Ideal

Zany
Helpful
Emotional
Nice

and also

What personality elements make up your Personality cocktail?

How to make a Leong Mei Zhen
Ingredients:5 parts intelligence1 part silliness3 parts beauty
Method:Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of fitness

Hahaz...too bored...did tis test to entertain myself..keke


was reading thru ple blog as usual n found smthin nice.......
the st0ri of 2 teardr0ps-Two tear drops were floating down the river. One tear drop said to the other, "I'm the tear drop of agirl who loved a man and lost him. Who are you?" "I'm the teardrop of the man who regret letting agirl go....."
She teardrop consoled, "There would come a time when we have to stop loving someone because we found out that they'd be happier if we let themgo..."He teardrop replied, "But then you'll know thatyou miss someone very much when every time you think of that person, your heart breaks into pieces and just a quick 'Hello' from that personbrings the broken pieces back..."She teardrop said, "It's really painful to saygoodbye to someone else that you don't want tolet go; but it's even more painful to ask someone tostay if you can never make the relationship workout the way it should be."She continued, "LOVE? It's kind of complicated,but I'll tell you this... the second you're willing to make yourself miserable is to make someone else happy, that's love right there...."He teardrop pondered and said, "You know, if I had the letters "HRT", I can add "EA" to geta "HEART" or a "U" and get "HURT". But I'drather choose "U" and get "HURT" than havea "HEART" without "U"...She teardrop smiled and replied, "Giving someoneall your love is not an assurance that she will love you back. Don't expect love in return, wait forit to grow in her heart, if it doesn't, becontented it grows in yours."He teardrop continued, "She told me once, do not be too good, I will miss you. Don't be too caring; Imight like you. Don't be too sweet; I might fall foryou."She teardrop smiled and said, "A heart truly inlove never loses hope but always believes."She teardrop continued, "If you love her please let her know because it hurts to love when you have to go. Take care of me; don't go away because if you love me, you will stay... I love you and do you know why? You got me when you first said 'Hi'"He teardrop said, "You are brave she teardrop, now I know it's always better to have found the courage to love even if you lose it in the end ratherthan never found love because you were too afraid of the challenge."He teardrop continued further, "Did you know thatthe expression "Nothing" is the subconscious mind's way of saying I Love You... that's what ido, I told her NOTHING and because of that i losther even though i love her... I cry for the time that she was almost mine, I cry for the memories I've left behind, I cry for the pain, the lost, the old and the new. I cry for the times i thought I had her!"She teardrop consoled, "Relationships are like glass, sometimes it is better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together,or worse, have nothing strong to bind it together.you never lose in loving. you only lose in holding back."He teardrop cried,"Now I know, I have learned.don't throw your back to love when it's already infront of you, don't drive it away from you becauseif you did, someday you'll think again why you let love fly away when it was once next to YOU..."

election day

woot~woke up at 10 plus this morning....some funernal thing from downstair woke me up....yawnz...woke up went to watch tv...haiz...no show to watch...wat a boring sat....at 12 plus my parents went to vote ...my ma vote for pap..while my dad vote for opposition...hmmz...fair n square...if i hab the chance i would vote for pap for my area...yupz...after slackin for about 2 hour or so...went to use com to do my rpt...omg...the info are so hard to find...so bored...went to look at the blog...i think i addicted to readin ple blog le...evrything on the com i would nv fail to browse ard ple blog...and the blog i read are from mostly ple tat r younger den me...their lifestyle reali interest me...haha althu dey r quite normal..but i juz lurbe readin dem...dun say i kpo ok...hurmp...wah from 12pm use till now le...think my eyes gg to spoil soon...so bored..stuck at hm oso duneo wat to do...boredX3.....i wana go shoppin...buy shoe..buy jacket...buy yummy food....hw i wish i hab alot of $$...haiz..anyway tats all for today..nothin much though....i wana maple...haha...train my mage..lalala....

oh yah my previous entry say was bothered by schl stuff...but nw it seem to b improvin le...gogogo.....hehez....hope one day the outcome wuld be wat i hoped for...yeah!...i dun wana b bored in my last yr of poly, i wana hab FUN...yupz



i m borned lonely to this world...*sigh*

the story of the heart...

真的

我努力的仰着脸孔
试着眼泪不往下流
别往下流
不安的感觉到什么
在我生活中不再相同
很不相同
想要说
却还沉默
伸出手
无法触碰
天空突然一片辽阔
原来你是真的已经离开我
在我不熟悉的世界过新的生活
闭上眼让泪水滑落
此刻你已真的永远离开我
在另外一个没有我的世界
自由的走

-by 张韶涵