life's unfair

the moment i rch home...i haben even put down my bags..i juz step into the house..den ma yell at me ...hey todae go out nv close window..the whole floor was wet...i was damn pissed off...juz rch home nia...gana all this shit...yell at me...den nvm....awhile latr i go watch tv...den bro came bac...den ma walk out off the kitchen...scream at me agn...yst raining nv kp the clothing ar...the neighbour call nv listen to the phone...i was lyt sian diaoz....yst gt ple ph hm mehz....as if i m deaf wun hear the ph ring....she rather believe the neighbour den me....tat neighbour oso another de lar..blurblur one duneo she gt call the wrong no. not lor...haiz...den she say yst gt remind me to kp the clothes before she go out le...i was lyt diao...she gt call me mehz...she called bro lor...as if i gt stm will 4get wat she say in a few hours...aiya she evrytym lyt tat de...evrything blame me...she nv scold him at all de lor....she is damn biased de...all is my fault sia, evrytym my fault....its damn unfair de...the more she scold me the more i hate him sia...is it being the elder one must b responsible for evrything...get the scoldin n all tat....i rather nt to be the elder one...all even not to b born into this world...was realli damn pissed off...haiz....wateva....it spoil my mood for todae...T_T

one incident can affect the day mood

Mixed-feelin

Nothin special this mornin, but just feel lyt blogging thtas all. Life is pretty busy, how i wish 7dec faster arrived, by then mos of the tests are over and of cosh fyp is den over. Now finding info for my formal rpt which is due tmr. hab been finding the info since yst, the tcher gav us such a hard formal rpt to do, no info can be found on the internet,haiz.

Yst was thinkin abt human nature..Juz feel lyt evryone sometimes will show their fake side somehow or another..u muight did it not-knowing-ly..hmmz..They might appear to be good with u.but then behind u they might backstab u or wat..Sometimes its makes ple wonder is that prsn sayin the truth cos they duneo which are the truth n which are the fake..This not only happen in working life, schl life oso will happen too..Mayb showin their fake side is for self-denfense, or juz to make evryone happy n to avoid conflict. Juz as i say in my older entry, children(kindgeratan or pri schl) life r much happier, they wun backstab u or wat n they r v.innocent.

Anyway, yst bro n dad had a short arguing.hmmz..sometimes i m gettin to hate bro, his action,his attitude irk me. I think he has change bahz somehow or rather. Nowadays when he quarrel wif dad he would use vulgarity #%^%*.. i hate ple using vulgaity even they r in the right position or wat n somemore use on my parents..how can sia..he would den scream n slam the damn door n den my ma wuld go into his room n say cnt scold vulgar n blah blah blah....so wat ..he still haben change yet..juz feel tat mayb ma too pampered him n let him become lyt tat. Sometimes juz feel lyt gibin him a tight slap on his face. Wateva.i wun tch him how to zhuo ren, cos his life is up to him to choose, wat can i do.. juz hope he can wake up n stop using vulgarity to release his anger ..

ok yah tats all for todae...bac to rpt-in tym..yawnz...@_@




Can the present be exchangable for the past?

sianzzzz

AARgh~...y no hab any any info on paracetamol in the intenet wan....so angry...find so long ..still no info...mon gg to hand in the formal rpt..but still cnt find any info...find until so pek chek le..yawnz..





thut evything its over but its nt...

Juz got bac home nt long ago. This few days has been reaching home late. Most of the days stay in the schl library pia-in fyp rpt until 7 plus den went home. Tmr still nd to pia fyp logbk, mon nd to hand in..haiz wonder went den i will be free...so busy with fyp and tests..i think not onli my grp r rushin fyp..other grp r also sia..hope dem all the best...hope we will do well in fyp sia..anyway yst receive a msg frm my cousin she has open a manicure shop call muemue( a cute name sia)..haha...anyway if anyone wana do manicure can go to her shop..haha
shop add:
33 mohamad,sultan rd, #02-12

hmmz..not bad sia...she open a business her sis(which is my another cousin)...hmmz...last tym use to c her v.often went i was attending pri schl..but nowadays ..i onli see her once a yr (cny)...hmmz...we r all busy with our own lifes...n i miss my grandparent cos its been 9 months since i last saw dem..though we didn't tok to one another much due to communication prob..anyway quite envy my cousin got capital to open a shop on her own...hmmz..i think i can never a shop bahz....haha..no money sia..waha..if i were to open a shop..hmmz ...mayb i can try opening a restaurant..waha..no lar..i seriously nv thut of opening a shop on my own...i juz wana b a ming xin can le( a dream nia)..haha....cos i feel tats so cool sia..n mayb still gt fan club somemore..waha..mayb i m thinkin to much..
while studyin for my test yst..was thinkin tat time flies sia..cos in another few months time i m gg to graduate soon...mayb i will miss my poly fren somehow....will we contact or will we lost contact...will we say hi to one another while walkin dwn the street somedays..will we think of one another or rmb another..
dun feel lyt workin so soon..mayb might consider further my study in local or private uni but den oso duneo wat course to study on..hmmz..

-differences-

Punctuality = Responsiblity

Mayb nowadays ple r neglecting the sense of punctuality. Is it bcos they fear to wait or was it becos they are taking things for granted...5 min is consider late, 10 min is also consider late, 15 min is oso consider late...so mayb its doesnt matter to b hw late..is tat true?..but to me 5min is acceptable, 10min ok cn tolerate...but 20minutes n above ..hmmz tat bad~.....

Actuali i sometimes also tend to be late..i m late due to various factors..sometimes is due to bus..sometimes is i hab bad time magnagement..n sometimes i dun wana wait for other( i rather other wait for me..hehe.. ) hmmz n i m oways late for lecture..mayb i m takin things for granted when the tcher didn't say anything abt it..thinkin tat they should be immune about it..

Todae attend the lc lesson n was readin a story on puctuality..the gal actuali let her frenz to wait for 1 whole hour n in the end didn't feel any remorse but argue back when her fren was angry with her . She bcame caculative saying she let her waited for 5minutes on the other day..hmmz..if i were in her fren situation i will be damn pissed. i rather go home den meet her..haha...







-Sense-

Tired

I was so tired today. i woke up at 12pm and took my breakfast. After breakfast, i went back to sleep again. I woke up at 3pm but was still phycically n mentally tired. I dun neo y...was it becos of fyp or was i running away from smthing..hmmz ..hw i wish i could be more awake and not so restless..


Hate the start of nxt week.. Nxt week onwards is going to be horrible...gg to hand in edited-fyp rpt agn...the fyp rpt is driving me crazy gt so many things to edit and nd to think of hw to ans k's ans sia..argh~..then gt 2 test...n den nxt nxt wk gg to hab 2 test agn( 1 of the test sux, gg to hab alot of memory work to do) den nd to hand in formal rpt...after den soon its gg to fyp presentation..blahblahblah...how i wish the 3 wks holi to come soon...haiz...






休息是为走根长远的路，但害怕的是要休息的时间也没有

fypsuxbigtime

all because of fyp

evryone gone crazy
slpin late at nite
neglecting one another not knowingly
worrying abt the dateline of fyp




we r all being control by a non living things



abolish fyp~

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