计算着，
时间一天一天过去，
不知为何好害怕，
好想放慢时间，
希望可以为你们
全心全意，
做一件事，
不需要感动，
不需要回报




其实还是很在意的

我最喜欢的它

我喜欢白色

它代表了纯真

我喜欢黑色

它代表了气质

我喜欢蓝色

它代表了自由

我喜欢红色

它代表了感情

我喜欢青色

它代表了生命



但最喜欢的它还仍然分不清

Actuali was kinda interested on photoshop but din really hab the chance to play with it..Finali, todae went to xplore ard photoshop and abit got the hang of it..And above, tats my masterpiece..its nt well done cos its my 1st attempt..yah...shall work hard and improve on my photoshop this few days..there are way too much for me to learn...



忘了，再也不想去记了

不能潇洒的处理事情，

只能用逃避，

这样才不会受伤害，

但最后还是难免了。

很快的，

在一个多月后就好开学了，

但我一点都不期待着，

虽然很想上学，

可是环境和人都变了，

未来我不知道，

只知道的是，

现在要，

玩得痛快

笑得痛快，

哭得痛快，

喝得痛快，

恐怕以后没有机会了。

告别了，

再见乐了。

巨蟹座真的是没有安全感吗？

越来越像它了

p/s: 不要用语言伤害我

风的来临，
雨天的出现，
让这个世界看不清，
留下的只不过是，
似乎像写不完的文章，

YEAp..finali m here to blog..hmmz..wat hab i been doin for the past few days..i shall summarise briefly..cos kinda lazy to elaborate dem agn.. sure tok abt those places which i visited tat r much more distinct

still rmb last fri which is the 25th may ard evening tym went to

where we took dozen of pictures

After tat we decided to ton overnite at outside. This was a sudden decision. We went ard spore aimlessly and finally decided to go to holland v..

whereby we hab our tea at dere. And juz for yr info it was ard 1am at tat pt of tym. But the place is still kinda crowded. e ordered our tea and potato wages and calamari. Hmmz..my tea taste kinda like milo?..but it taste nt bad though. if i m nt wrong the tea is called "dance of tea".

Agn we took pic

After tat..abt 2am..aimless agn..we decided to go to vivo

after tat sy drove us bac to sh hm n for once i din slept the whole nite..tats amazing....the nxt morning chiong dwn to the nus talk..

On wed, the 30 may, went to

to eat half a chicken.wow the portion is v.big n in the end i can't finish.but the fries is yummy.n i share wif st the "sex on the beach"..waha..its an alcholic drink ..it taste like alcohol plus fruit punch..quite alrite though..but ms n hw ordered tat "bloody mary"..it taste damn disgustin..reali disgustin..its actuali mixture of tomato n chilli sauce n etc..one mouth of this is more than enuf..den fw oreder "spore sling"..its taste kinda nt bad oso..

kk tats all for the week..sure blog agn soon

Morning evryone...Todae which is the 21th may, the day whereby i am jobless. I am feeling kinda sad though. No work equal to no pay. I am thinking whether should i work or rest first. I feel like workin now as i'll have plenty of rest tym in july. But i scared i will lose the enthu of lkin a job soon..waha..Will be startin schl in aug, wonder how's life dere.hmmz..hopefuli i will enjoy it.

Life is reali full of contradiction. when i m workin i feel like quitting but nw when i m jobless i feel like workin. Anyway i m missing my work n collegue now..haha..wonder will dey miss me ..lol..At my workplace, i would say majority of the ple r kind n helpful to me though..haha..and oso i hab 4 "niangs" in my dpt..hmmz gt lao niang(she duneo she is lao niang..waha), da niang, er niang and san niang..i will miss dem..waha..hmmz..durin my last day of work..the other dpt ask me wana go work for dem nt as a temp staff..cover recept n admin stuff..but my 4 "niangs" discourage me la..cos they say life its nt gd workin in dere..so i decline the offer..waha..n oso i think its kinda weird to tiao zhao..lolz..somemore the dpt is damn near my dpt..haha..da niang told me the HR manager told her tat if nxt tym after i grad frm my uni cn str8 away join the company no nd to go thru any intreview..waha..duneo true or not..lolz..aiya after i grad it would be 3 yr latr le..3 yr leh..evn 1 yr will hab lots of changes..duneo by then will he left the company le mahz..cos he is expat..Anyway i learn quite alot of stuff frm dem n oso cr8 quite alot of trouble for dem=x..feel kinda guilty..haiz..yupz..duneo y on fri(the last day of work) i m v.high la..though i m yi yi bu she de..waha..

Anyway 2 more days latr, i'll b gg for my grad cermony..actuali i hate this kinda event..i juz dun c the need for it..can't dey juz post us the cert, y go through all this trouble to hab the cermony..

Hmmz..actuali currently got nothin to lk forward on..mayb the hk trip?..hopefuli cn go to hk bahz ..hopefuli its nt juz a say say thing..haha..stupid me hab spend all my salary on holi trips..but since mayb it will be the last tym we hab this kinda chance before schl or work starts offically..Hmmz..ok la..gtg end here..


虽然大家都不说，但心里都知道彼此的答案了

hmmz..m bac to write a simple n short entry abt my life..waha..ehh..went to the sci centre on tues..which is labour day..let me count..hmmz..it has been ages since i last went to the sci centre..haha..rch dere n it was quite packed..i thought it wuld b less crowded in the sci centre nowadays sia..waha..ok went there..play some stupid but fun game..waha..hmmz..sci centre seem to change a littlle..now gt quite alot of interestin games to play..at least its beta compared to when i visited it durin my pri schl days..waha..

c tat invisble body of mine..waha..lots of kids r tryin to queue up to try this out man..phew..finali gt the chance to snatch a place wif dem..wahah...figure out hw to make my body invisble le?..haha...i wun tell u the ans ..go dwn to the sci centre n check it out..waha

haha..this is a shot of me n st..waha..c our backgrd..so cartoon-ic sia..lolz.

Can't c a thing..its nt bocs my photography skill is lousy..its juz tat the image of our "froozen shadow" will disappear the moment i took a pic..think its bcos of the flash light produced by the camera..this thing is kinda interestin..waha..cn freeze our shadow .

we hab been tryin v.hard to take a pic of ourselves..spendin lots of time in the stuffy area..but sad to say in the end we failed..tats the best shot we took..waha..so in the end we ask for assistance..the complete n nice pic of us its at wn dere..eww..tat wn still haben send me the pic..inefficient..&*^^%$..waha..make me cnt upload the pics..

okok..i me nw gg to share wif u guys a few horror pic of me..waha...be prepared..

okok..relax..this is a orignial pic of me...a normal lookin me when i m laughing happily...

taken durin an editing process of me when using the machine which can "predict" yrself when u r frm young to old..



wth..this is a pic of me when i m a baby sia..laughing happily..come on man..this look lyt chucky sia..nt me lor..so ugly..




ohh gosh..tats a pic of me when i m a child laughing happily..swt lar..totally diff man..i look so dark..

this is a pic of me when i m a teenager..eh i look so older as compared to now..impossible la..

this is an adult pic of me..ok i m no diff from the origial pic..i suspected the now me=adult me..sad..me old liao..no longer teens le..

haha...this is damn loser pic la..this pic is when i m old n laughing happily..waha..eww man..

okoktats all..i concluded..the nw me is the best lookin one..waha..all the past n future r craps man..so ugly..i think the machine gt prob la..cnt b trusted..waha...tats all..due to INSUFFICIENT of pic..i can't blog much..waha...wn pls send me the photos..waha

i kp walkin on..
walkin the same old route..
walkin miles n miles..
see-in the same old things

met smthing todae
though i knew she was lying
but i still lend her a helpin hand
doin wat i cn afford
no regrets..
by doin this though she cn bluff n survive her way thru
but she has lost her dignity, her respect from me n others
she is no diff frm a disabled ...

她说“很久都没有这样笑过了”
虽然她每天都在笑着
我想我明白这种感觉。。。

快乐和烦恼
快乐你理解不到
烦恼你感受的到
但请不要和我分享
我肯定
不是你永远的影子

烦得我睡不着
烦得我好承重
烦得我好不快乐
烦得我恨你



了解了-
并不是神圣
并不喜欢比较
并不喜欢炫耀
并且兴趣比名分重要
但为何人人都在笑我笨妖

坐在那四方的桌子，
聊着 笑着 回想过去，
我便静了下来,
她们 说着 笑着

静了不是因为累了，
而是想着从前的点点滴滴，
好怀念 好想念
突然脑出现了他的话
[想念，
是没有回答她的话，
再也不想说话，
再也无法说话]

here some of the pic frm tw..7days of journey in tw ...finali got the chance to post it up here....lazy to elaborate..hmmz..the pic will do the work..

In the plane to tw

our 1st meal at there..we ate steamboat for dinner

wakin up earli for free breakfast in the hotel...zzzZZ

Studious me n sy in cheng pin shu dian

kind me n ch making donation

in the train

me n sh in hagen

me n sh eyeing on the cakes..

mine n sy hotel room

all of us dead beat in the hotel

takin pic wif one of the salesgal we met

at shilin nite market



our graffiti in fish cafe

2nd last day chiong-in in the KTV

in the cabbie

proudly to present hh n pp

sianzz...leaving for sg

arrival in sg

anyway....tats all abt it...had lots of fun at dere...shoppin..slpin..watching tv...eatin...life is so relax..hw i wish i cn stay at dere..ms life at dere...anyway its been a fun n enjoyable trip....

woot so long nv blog le..kinda busy n lazy to blog nowadays le..hab been busy workin..earning money..but i m still poor though..sad case..hmmz..my view for working life has nt change ....mayb workin is boring so they nd some "entertainment" to spice up their life..yupz...wateva is it...evry company is the same..hmmz....for the sake of money live on...waha...

Yeah..in another 1 more day i m gg off to tw le..yippie...so happy...wonder how is it like..will we hab lots of fun?...haha...this time round be off for 1 wk..sounds long huh....

-Aimless-

选择

是装傻还是不知，
是冷酷还是同情，
是守着还是放弃，
是演示还是露出，
是逃避还是面对，
是注定还是掌控

arr..i change my template le..y my blog kp showin the old template..angry sia..the new blog under google is damn lousy la..i like the previous one la..arrrr..





anyway..gd luck to me tmr..muahha

Rubbish

i finali make up my mind..tats the first tym i m so decisive in a right manner..mayb i shuld learn to b more independent at tym...hopefuli evrything will go fine..

如果

人往往要等到失败后才会后悔。
失败后就会说“如果我以前。。。。现在就会。。。。“

突然觉得这世界变得复杂，
心里好空但又很乱，
是我人太简单了，
所以才把这个世界看得那么乱，
有时很想把自己封闭起来，
活在一个只有我的世界里。

最近看到的和碰到的，
都让我想起从前的点点滴滴。
追求的不是别人的100%，
而是自己的100%。
这世界很奇妙，
以前觉得自己不会碰到的事，
现在一个接一个的都让我碰到了。
哈！好可笑吧？

未来反复模糊，
梦想变得遥远，
霍是我不敢去实现它。

有时有种感想，
反复大家都把她忘了，
是我太铭感了吗？
有些东西失去过才懂得它的可贵，
有些东西可以从来，
但有些没有NG的机会了，
人就是这样的。。。

心情

好久没有那么早起身，
在早晨里，
看到这繁忙的城市，
我暂时抛开烦恼，
带着轻松的脚步走入人群中，
马路上人来人往，
他们的脚步速快，
而车子噼噼噼个不停，
突然有种幸福的感觉，
自少我现在比他门轻松，
可以暂时看看“感受”这世界。

到了十点，
大家都已经到了工作岗位，
那些较早前的人群都已消失了，
留下我独自站在马路中央，
这时又有另一总感觉。




我：what is life?
他：hmmz..i oso duneo..but i think life is something i will do it to the fullest, though i might nt neo wats the outcome. I think its something interesting and wonderful.
我: hmmz..u r so optimistic
他: y?
我: cos at least u think its interesting and wonderful ...

random post

The f up life la...haiz..i duneo...this n that, nothin goes smoothly..y is things oways diff frm wat its planned..

wats life abt?

haiz..some words r hard to b xpressed out..i duneo i hab made the right choice.confused la

2dae its my 100th entry for bloggin..actuali i wanted to blog this 100th entry after xam..n make it a "special entry"..but den...


anyway..life is short do cherish it..juz got to neo the xu weilun, the taiwan actress pass away on sun..tats kinda sad..she was still like in her late 20s...read the news article say tat she still intend to do wat stuff in her 30s like gettin married n treat her family better by giving them more time..hmmz..but den evrything is too late le..she does not hab this chance..anyway juz hope tat she rip..


雨几乎下了，
听完了故事，
反复想起你，
她的故事，
就像我们之间，
没对没错，
但我比她差劲多了，
千万个理由，
但没达到重点，
也许这一次错了
live life with no regrets

Actuali..todae found out i began to like the ic module more..but if there are no testss..hmmz..anyway i like it cos sometimes gt some games n xin ni ze yan..n it or rather the tcher taught me some human skills..from the way we act it can determine our future..hmmz..being a supervisor we mustn't be "emotional blackmail"..must be more agressive n kp ot yr stand..n many more..from the eyes it can tell how reliable a person is..hmmz..it seem interesting...how i hab this "power" then i can c how reliable is that person..


She said " how can any1 change for others..its makes him changeable..n if so which side is the real him?"

Sins

Agn~

yrotsih has taeper flesti niaga....

has tahw it syawo syas:

it sekat 2 sdanh 2 palc, era ew illaer gnibig up siht myt dnuor? ebyam or ebyam ton?

pots gnikniht it 4 won....tsuj dun anaw ekam it tceffa my doom..



igonabstrongtotakeonthechallengeitstimefornojokenbmaturenthinksensible

-a choice-

decision

hmmz..in another mayb 1 mths tym reali gt to say gdbye to sp..though its 3 yrs in there but it seem so fast..still rmb in my past entry still wishin to faster grad..but now as its nearin i m quite unwilling to leave..cos after tat its either work or studyin..yupz..which way to go?...so confusin..if work..i oso duneo wat i m gg to work as..想做但害怕自己梦想着..if study oso must nd to depend on wat i wana work in future..yah..times reali flies..gg to rch the age of 20 le..wow...so fast..mayb its time to b serious..thinkin abt mine future

美好的时光一瞬间远远离去

唯一美丽的它断了
无法挽回
他们都说
再买一个新的
但却不知道
它带表了什么
只有拥有的才知

害怕我们的友情像它一样催罗

昨天上了人生的一程课，
内容不必多说，
也是我很久没遇到的问题
站在马路的中央
不断的徘徊，思考着
向左走还是向右走？

或许不想着改变
还是我很顽固，
还是害怕受在一次的失败

New year is coming..haben thut of any resoltuion...

xmas post

On the xmas eve went to sh home to cele..we brainstorm n decided to cook our own christmas dish..last yr we prepare steamboat for christmas, this yr we dcide to cook western food..haha...we meet at vivocity de giant at 430pm to buy our necessary things..wow vivocity was damn crowded..evryone dressed at their best for the countdown party..but some oso nv reali dress up lar..anyway we went to giant to get chicken fillet, fish filiet, fries, campbell soup, the french bread, fruits n so on....after getting all the goceries it was about 6plus le...den we thut of gg to bakerzin to buy our logcake..but in the end bakerin disappoint us no logcake sia..we went to swendsen to buy..wah the queue at swendsen was damn long...so many people queuing up to eat dinner..after buyin our logcake we chiong to sh home...cos from sh home the bus journey nd about 30min..but the dry ice can onli tahan 45min sia..

so ard 7pm we rch sh hm.. me n sy cut the fruits to prepare our fruit salad..tsktsk peelin of fruit skin n cuttin of fruits was no easy task..haha..while sh n jj preare the campbell soup thngy n deep fry the fillet n fries...wah we preapre all this till ard 830 den start eating sia..the dishes gt fries, fillet, nuggets, campbell with bread, fruit salad...haha..a sumpteous dinner sia..haha..but overall the food was not bad..but then we cook too much sia..waste some food...

our sumpteous dinner

after dinner, we were all lazy to clear up the plates..so we juz chat around n slack around...ard 10 we den start clearin up the plates...but in the end is sh maid wash the plate sia..haha..after clearing up, we slack around takin some random pic...

one of the random cool pic

we are some kind of illegal people being caught by police

after habin fun with the camera, we den went up to sh room to watch tv..again slack around n waiting for 12am to come..finali the arrival of 12am..yippie..we went downstair to hab our logcake..waha...its icecream log cake..coolz..choclate one..we were eating the log cake in a barbarian way..haha...we juz use our forks n dig the cake..but as usual we cnt finish it

After eatin the logcake, the guys play with the dry ice n invent some stuff..actuali wana upload the video abt the dry ice..but tat dumb utube upload so long..in the end forgo the idea of uploadin le.this dry ice invetion causes a mild explosion...n this things entertain us for about 15min or more sia..haha...

after all this, jj n wj went home...left we 5 gals at sh home...hmmz..5 of us has nothin much to do..fio play the piano den ch play the guitar..i was like gg to fell aslp soon sia..sy was slackin ard...den awhile latr i try playin the piano..it seem hard though..haiz..then after tat we watch some tv n clips...ard 4 am we tuck in...xz den came..sh went downstair to enterain xz...then awhile latr sy went down to eat her tibits..haha she hungry sia..they about 5am den slp..after tat slp slp slp...10am woke up...prepare some stuff..watch tv..den fio,ch,sy n me went to clementi eat lunch..sh went out wif her family to eat..we went to the jap restaurant..the food damn cheap..but the food tatse okok nia lar..after eatin, we went to clementi big book shop cos fio wana buy superglue...after tat was ard 2 plus le..den we went home le...tats how i pass my xmas eve..

no pt gg bac to the past cos its over and will not return..

supper

supper anyone?? anyone hungry can call me out for supper sia..haha..so bored sia..recently hab some thuts..i think tat if i hab some fren who live near my home as in few blocks away it will be damn great..haha..cos if at nite cn call him come out n eat supper or chit chat..when bored cn meet up with him..or sometimes cn go jogging or night cycling 2gata.can play badminton...cn visit each other house..tat would be so fun...even if we go out, we can go home 2gata..gt a company mahz ..but then too bad sia..no hab sia...

actuali last tym when i m in pri schl abt pri 1 or 2 use to hab de..she juz live a block aaway from mine..we used to be damn gd frenz..used to go to her home and play..her bdae she will invite me to her party..but due to some reasons, our friendship severed le..so now..no hab anymore..

-naive-

部落格里含的意识，
我想我明白，
不知该同情，
或是冷酷无情，
或许这一切都与我无关，
批评的空间轮不到我


在人生的道路上，
遇见的人让我长大一些，
慢慢接近大人的世界，
远远离开小孩的一切，
或许沉默是我用来对代未来，
而欢乐是我放下用沉墨代替

yipyip..its finali the arrival of 3 wk holi...so happy..this will b the last holi in my poly life....in another few months time gg to grad from poly le...hmmz...wed juz attended my grad party...the perormance by the kinderlands kids r so cute...though they dance not v.professional..haha..but then they entertained all of us...so mighty of them...so young but yet make us laugh so happily..sometimes juz so pei fu wif the kids..they can dance daringly n will not bother about whether is it dui lian or not..unlyt the adults..they will care about their face..anyway quite admire one of the tcher..though she nv taught me b4..but tat day she sang a song dedicating to her food students..n i think she rox...y ic no tcher dedicate song to us de..haha.so unfair..sobz..
hmmz..anyway when they display the clips on our life in poly...i suddenly think tat i will miss sp..haha..miss the tchers..miss the foodcourt..miss evrything..thought i will not miss the stuff...mayb 3yrs of life in there will make me somehow miss them...saw the students tahnkin their tcher but too bad i nv been feature in the clips..i shall thx them here in the blog though they will nv c it..but nvm...hmmz..i wana specially thx the tcher which i feel they r damn gd..ahha..jeff whey..ms tan hwee bin..mrs tan..kwok..hta..hmmz tats all..waha...aiya n also those who taught me lar...dun say dun hab..
how i wish study life will nv end..but sometimes its so miserable to study..haiz...after the clips thingy went to t1a to eat the buffet n after phototaking session den went home le...was so tired...zzz...

fri went to eat steamboat wif slack...went to tian tian huo guo to eat..wah the steamboat so ex..tsktsk...nxt tym dun wana go there le..but i think the tom yam nt bac..hurmp..after tat was so thirsty den went to a dessert shop to est dessert or rather drink water..hmmz..we were all thinkin wat to do for christmas..hmmz...after tat..duneo y..some1 suggest we go buy 4d.waha..each person gib one no.den we decided to bet on 4 no....buy on sat n sun...1st time buying 4d sia...hope lao tian will bless me..lolz/.///..hehe..after the number choosing session...we were all crazy..kp imagining wat to do after we strike 4d...drive posh car..den go ex hotel eat...wear nice shirt..haha..like we strike a few millions sia..waha...pray hard we todae n tmr will strike 1st prize...wahah....tonite 7pm must stay tune at the tv text c gt strike not..hehe..

hmmz..todae earli morning went to temple wif my mama....wat a filial girl..hehe...eh dun think i go there pray to strike 4d worz..waha...aiya i pei my mama go out of kindnesss sia..she kp on askin me to pei her...think she feel lonely..waha...after prayin den go vivo shopshop a while den went home le...hmmz..tats the end of the day...shall end here...




if life is a book..wat is your tile of the last chpt?..

hmmz...mayb things might not be as it seem...ple might appear to be bad..but mayb they hab kind intentin...or mayb people might appear to be friendly to u but actuali they r bad....human r juz so unfathomable...the more u wana undertsand dem the more dey r diff to be understood..recently sort of wrong k n c....thut they r bad...but in the end they are not as bad as they seem...mayb shuld understand more shuld not judge them by thier cover....yupz...

Gg to the place remind me of smthin...we hab once agree to go there b4 gg to s...but things change..hopefuli we wuld hab the chance...i believe we will hab the chance

sometimes feel tat i m juz tokin to the air....mayb its beta to not tok at times....

Its been a long time since i do something i like most... mayb life is juz busy or its another reason..was thinkin after watching the i not stupid show yst though the movie its long tym ago ...its say if u wana do something u like den do it to the fullest...but i feel tat depend whether u r giben the chance to proe yr potential..aiya duneo wat i m crappin abt..shall end here...

-silence-

finali fyp is offically over le...yippie...finali can put an end to fyp..hmmz..todae fyp was so nervous..as usual no confidence to present and i suck in expressing..anyway juz hope i gt do well bahz..my eyelid gib jumping since sat..mayb its a bad sign..haiz...anyway...since fyp its over so let be it..for this wk i cn relax abit..nxt wk nd to study for test agn..hmmz....


Juz thinking bac..feel that for the past few wk has been neglecting my fren..so long nv meet up wif dem le..so busy wif fyp n tests...felt quite guilty abt it...so sianz..how i wish life can be not so busy at tym...been rushing here n there mayb hab miss some wonderful parts of life...
anyway been wondering alot some times...wondering abt friends wondering abt life wondering abt ple character n this n that...

yawnz...so tired todae...feel that all my energy r gone..mayb i shall slp earli tonite...

-potential-

life's unfair

the moment i rch home...i haben even put down my bags..i juz step into the house..den ma yell at me ...hey todae go out nv close window..the whole floor was wet...i was damn pissed off...juz rch home nia...gana all this shit...yell at me...den nvm....awhile latr i go watch tv...den bro came bac...den ma walk out off the kitchen...scream at me agn...yst raining nv kp the clothing ar...the neighbour call nv listen to the phone...i was lyt sian diaoz....yst gt ple ph hm mehz....as if i m deaf wun hear the ph ring....she rather believe the neighbour den me....tat neighbour oso another de lar..blurblur one duneo she gt call the wrong no. not lor...haiz...den she say yst gt remind me to kp the clothes before she go out le...i was lyt diao...she gt call me mehz...she called bro lor...as if i gt stm will 4get wat she say in a few hours...aiya she evrytym lyt tat de...evrything blame me...she nv scold him at all de lor....she is damn biased de...all is my fault sia, evrytym my fault....its damn unfair de...the more she scold me the more i hate him sia...is it being the elder one must b responsible for evrything...get the scoldin n all tat....i rather nt to be the elder one...all even not to b born into this world...was realli damn pissed off...haiz....wateva....it spoil my mood for todae...T_T

one incident can affect the day mood

Mixed-feelin

Nothin special this mornin, but just feel lyt blogging thtas all. Life is pretty busy, how i wish 7dec faster arrived, by then mos of the tests are over and of cosh fyp is den over. Now finding info for my formal rpt which is due tmr. hab been finding the info since yst, the tcher gav us such a hard formal rpt to do, no info can be found on the internet,haiz.

Yst was thinkin abt human nature..Juz feel lyt evryone sometimes will show their fake side somehow or another..u muight did it not-knowing-ly..hmmz..They might appear to be good with u.but then behind u they might backstab u or wat..Sometimes its makes ple wonder is that prsn sayin the truth cos they duneo which are the truth n which are the fake..This not only happen in working life, schl life oso will happen too..Mayb showin their fake side is for self-denfense, or juz to make evryone happy n to avoid conflict. Juz as i say in my older entry, children(kindgeratan or pri schl) life r much happier, they wun backstab u or wat n they r v.innocent.

Anyway, yst bro n dad had a short arguing.hmmz..sometimes i m gettin to hate bro, his action,his attitude irk me. I think he has change bahz somehow or rather. Nowadays when he quarrel wif dad he would use vulgarity #%^%*.. i hate ple using vulgaity even they r in the right position or wat n somemore use on my parents..how can sia..he would den scream n slam the damn door n den my ma wuld go into his room n say cnt scold vulgar n blah blah blah....so wat ..he still haben change yet..juz feel tat mayb ma too pampered him n let him become lyt tat. Sometimes juz feel lyt gibin him a tight slap on his face. Wateva.i wun tch him how to zhuo ren, cos his life is up to him to choose, wat can i do.. juz hope he can wake up n stop using vulgarity to release his anger ..

ok yah tats all for todae...bac to rpt-in tym..yawnz...@_@




Can the present be exchangable for the past?

sianzzzz

AARgh~...y no hab any any info on paracetamol in the intenet wan....so angry...find so long ..still no info...mon gg to hand in the formal rpt..but still cnt find any info...find until so pek chek le..yawnz..





thut evything its over but its nt...

Juz got bac home nt long ago. This few days has been reaching home late. Most of the days stay in the schl library pia-in fyp rpt until 7 plus den went home. Tmr still nd to pia fyp logbk, mon nd to hand in..haiz wonder went den i will be free...so busy with fyp and tests..i think not onli my grp r rushin fyp..other grp r also sia..hope dem all the best...hope we will do well in fyp sia..anyway yst receive a msg frm my cousin she has open a manicure shop call muemue( a cute name sia)..haha...anyway if anyone wana do manicure can go to her shop..haha
shop add:
33 mohamad,sultan rd, #02-12

hmmz..not bad sia...she open a business her sis(which is my another cousin)...hmmz...last tym use to c her v.often went i was attending pri schl..but nowadays ..i onli see her once a yr (cny)...hmmz...we r all busy with our own lifes...n i miss my grandparent cos its been 9 months since i last saw dem..though we didn't tok to one another much due to communication prob..anyway quite envy my cousin got capital to open a shop on her own...hmmz..i think i can never a shop bahz....haha..no money sia..waha..if i were to open a shop..hmmz ...mayb i can try opening a restaurant..waha..no lar..i seriously nv thut of opening a shop on my own...i juz wana b a ming xin can le( a dream nia)..haha....cos i feel tats so cool sia..n mayb still gt fan club somemore..waha..mayb i m thinkin to much..
while studyin for my test yst..was thinkin tat time flies sia..cos in another few months time i m gg to graduate soon...mayb i will miss my poly fren somehow....will we contact or will we lost contact...will we say hi to one another while walkin dwn the street somedays..will we think of one another or rmb another..
dun feel lyt workin so soon..mayb might consider further my study in local or private uni but den oso duneo wat course to study on..hmmz..

-differences-

Punctuality = Responsiblity

Mayb nowadays ple r neglecting the sense of punctuality. Is it bcos they fear to wait or was it becos they are taking things for granted...5 min is consider late, 10 min is also consider late, 15 min is oso consider late...so mayb its doesnt matter to b hw late..is tat true?..but to me 5min is acceptable, 10min ok cn tolerate...but 20minutes n above ..hmmz tat bad~.....

Actuali i sometimes also tend to be late..i m late due to various factors..sometimes is due to bus..sometimes is i hab bad time magnagement..n sometimes i dun wana wait for other( i rather other wait for me..hehe.. ) hmmz n i m oways late for lecture..mayb i m takin things for granted when the tcher didn't say anything abt it..thinkin tat they should be immune about it..

Todae attend the lc lesson n was readin a story on puctuality..the gal actuali let her frenz to wait for 1 whole hour n in the end didn't feel any remorse but argue back when her fren was angry with her . She bcame caculative saying she let her waited for 5minutes on the other day..hmmz..if i were in her fren situation i will be damn pissed. i rather go home den meet her..haha...







-Sense-

Tired

I was so tired today. i woke up at 12pm and took my breakfast. After breakfast, i went back to sleep again. I woke up at 3pm but was still phycically n mentally tired. I dun neo y...was it becos of fyp or was i running away from smthing..hmmz ..hw i wish i could be more awake and not so restless..


Hate the start of nxt week.. Nxt week onwards is going to be horrible...gg to hand in edited-fyp rpt agn...the fyp rpt is driving me crazy gt so many things to edit and nd to think of hw to ans k's ans sia..argh~..then gt 2 test...n den nxt nxt wk gg to hab 2 test agn( 1 of the test sux, gg to hab alot of memory work to do) den nd to hand in formal rpt...after den soon its gg to fyp presentation..blahblahblah...how i wish the 3 wks holi to come soon...haiz...






休息是为走根长远的路，但害怕的是要休息的时间也没有

fypsuxbigtime

all because of fyp

evryone gone crazy
slpin late at nite
neglecting one another not knowingly
worrying abt the dateline of fyp




we r all being control by a non living things



abolish fyp~

读完文章
留下的是悲伤

记得在巴士上
一起唱的歌
那不是一首简单的歌
因为它在我们的心里
留下了一个回忆


事情慢慢转变
彼此各忙各的
但我们彼此都不想回到从前
努力挽救
求的只是一个的结果

bored..

stuck at home for whole day
can't wait for elearning week
den can relax abit

todae when to cityhall to shopshop for my ma bdae prez...walk here n there in the end got nothin....when i was abt to go home tat tym when to the toilet beside quicksilver de...den the toilet qeueue was damn long...in front of me was standing 2 gals..one gal dressed in black n the other dressed in white t-shirt..the gal who dressed in black seem somehow mature though she look lyt 17yrs old tat kinda..the white shirt gal seem much kiddy n dressed much lok kok den the black shirt gal (she oso look lyt 17yrs old lar)..then tat white shirt gal standing bhind the black shirt gal den put her head on the black shirt gal shoulder ..at 1st i was thinkin wah they are over-intimate as a fren sia..but then this part was nothin as compared to the nxt scene..the two gals den went in to the same cubicle..i was lyt-_-"....wth dey so urgent to pee ar..nd to go in to the same cubicle..nvm den i went to pee too..when dey came out of the cubicle i think the one who is gg to use their cubicle was shock or wat lar den stare at dem...i think i would oso b lyt tat lar..when i c two grown up gals comin out from a single cubicle..den when they were abt to get out of the toilet (i was standng behind dem to get out of the toilet too)..teh black shirt gal den turn over n shouted to tat lady who stare at dem" wats wif the stare..nv c before lesbian is it"..den the white shirt gal giggle away..i was lyt wth...ok lar..so wats if u guys r lesbian, its there anything to b proud of..no nd to go to the same cubicle or wat shit lar...tryin to show off u guys r lesbian or wat..-_-..wats wif the world nw sia..bisexual is on the trend is it..hmmz..




不想是逃避,逃避未必快乐

不能被褥据
是因为我们不能
或是我们都没尽力过
大家带着失望离开
拼命的找借口
安慰自己
让自己好过一些


That night, it seem so nice and enjoyable, we finally found the feeling we once lost. Even though we didn't manage to complete our main objective but the journey was still worthwhile. This journey let me understand more about this world. 为何要自己扛着重重的背包，如果把背包的东西分给周围的人，这一来会让自己好过一些。Maybe i should learn and move towards it.
However, a beautiful picture without color is not yet complete. It would be even more pleasant if color was painted to it.

渐渐的开始懂了
是因为了解了
或是详细的看了

想着改变
但大家都不知该从哪里开始
大家反复都迷失自己心中的指南针
进还是退


当她们说她们选择了那个答案
我也没想那么多
只是不犹豫选择自己的答案
但现在回想
或许我也和她们如此一样
是因为大家的来原都一样吗。。。

《小时候的我们》

闭上眼睛
去感受我们的童年。。。

大家都很无知
见的世面不多
做错事时，
大家都会说还小不懂事，
而爸妈就威胁我们吃果条烦恼的东西很少计较的不多

梦想好多，
有真实的，
有很夸张的

想哭就哭，
想笑就笑，
想气就气，
绝不会带着假面具做人

很容易逗我们开心
而我们的笑容在那一刻是最真实和灿烂的

Abt her

In this quiet and late night
she sat there alone
with soothing music played along
staring out of the window
deep in her thoughts
sooner or later she knew no one
she feel so lost in the crowded city
she feel so lonely even though there are lots of people around her
the people once close to her seemed like stranger now
no one understand her inner side
and she just cannot understand their behaviour
she tried to open up but..its seemed so harrrd
she attempt to 4get but the scene seem so vivid
loneliness and sadness overwhelmed her
but not a drop of tear drip down her tired eyes..

Recently,i juz can't slp earli..hab been slpin at ard 3am even though i m physically v.tired..kp thinking of alot of stuffs, thinking of this n that. Anyway, time passes so fast, in another 2 days tym, i will go genting le. This is the 1st time i m gg oversea wif frenz(though go to neighbourin country nia), felt quite excited and abit scared..lolz...can't wait for wednesday to come..yippie..hmmz..then after genting trip, i m gg to chiong to ecp for night cycling..though its quite tiring but once in a while its damn cool sia..cycle frm ecp to changi..feel the cool breeze, the excitement , the silence @ the night and the c-in of ah-guah(kidding lar) ..wateva it is..nxt wk is gg to b a interesting one..





Enjoy life today, yesterday is gone and tomorrow may never come

人的不完美

人总是觉得自己很完美
而觉得周围的人有缺点
是自己和别人的想法不一样
而造称自己觉得周围的人有缺点

人总是爱计较
老是想着别人付出的多少
而从不想到自己可以为别人付出多少

人往往把自己放在第一
做任何事都从自己的角度看
绝望了别人的感受

人很矛盾
有时为了想改进自己
为了让周围的人更喜欢他门
但他们绝迷失了原来的自己
有时会让周围更讨厌他们

他们

好多话说不出口
不懂得这么去表达
许多想法都不一样
太多的不了解
无意间的忽略
我们之间朋友的定义都不一样
这一切的一切不知该怪自己或对他们失望

宽念不同
彼此都不沉实
而都不信任
小憩的我们
都不让对方
以再而三威胁的你
让我渐渐的恨你

这一切的一切造成那一夜的我们

two-sided

是否每个人都会有双面/性格呢？

有时的自己是没有同情心的
而有时的自己是有良心的

有时的自己是那么的催落
而有时的自己是那么的坚强

有时的自己是倔强
而有时的自己是那么的拿不定主意

有时的自己是坏
而有时的自己是好的

有时的自己是那么的爱玩
而有时的自己是用功的

有时的自己是沉默
而有时的自己是超 high

有时的自己是顽固
而有时的自己又不是

到底哪一个是真真的自己呢？

-who vs. who-

click

m bac to post agn...exam is finali over...finali..yeah! but i was not happy as i thut i would be...anyway after xam went to ps to watch click...
wow~ click is a damn nice movie ..
its a mixture of not just comedy but oso kinship and abit of sdaness...i m quite amazed on hw the director manage to come up wif a funny yet emotional-filled movie..so i encourage evry1 to watch it...while watching this movie, it left me hab lots of thuts n emotion-filled...so i will briefly describe the movie

The main character(duneo wats his name), he oways place is career 1st and family 2nd...so when he got this so call universal remote he can control the ple/stages of his life....whenever he quarrel with his wife or wat he will fast forward them and as a result he will miss some parts of his life...so i was wondering if it's gd to hav this unversial remote to juz fast forward to the best moment of yr life which you wanted but in the mean time u will miss out some stages of yr life and cannot experience them agn n might regret...
The main character as i said placed his career 1st and neglect his dad n family members...he skipped his children growing up while fast forwarding his life..and oso its such a pity, when he realised that his dad had passed away, he was remorseful as when his dad died he didn't even attend his funeral cos he had fast-forwarded his life....this part of the movie makes me some thuts..the mian character didn't xpress hw much he love his dad n took his dad's love for him for granted until he died n its too late...i was thinking i oso din xpress hw much i love my parent esp to my mama or even to my friends..不是我不要，而是我不会。mayb u guys might think its sound ridiculous..hw can be duneo de..i juz duneo..mayb i dun hab the courage or wats..
And also the main chracter while pursuing his career has neglect his family..so i was thinking hab u guys stop doin wat u r busying wif n spent more tym u yr love ones b4 its too late... cos u might be missing some interesting part of yr life....或许人在失去后才懂得珍惜吧...
so after watching this movie...i rather not to hab this universal remote n juz go thru my life step by step......

-stand by me-

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter
I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through
Cause it's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on Calvary Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose contro
l Cause it's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
To you

喜欢一个人不一定要拥有他/她

这故事是关与两个不同的人....


她是一个想天长地久的人

爱他是应该放手,
因为她看不见幸福,
虽然天天细念着他,
心里有点不舍,
但她更害怕受伤害,
"别对我太好,
我怕我忘不了,
别对我太好,
我怕我想走也走不掉"
或许这样是更完美的一个结局,



他是一个在乎成轻拥有的人

他把爱看得很简单,
爱她不应该放手,
而是一起勇敢的面对困难,
他一次一次的试着挽留她,
"别对我太好,
我怕你走了,
我承受不了"
他依然相信爱情可以解决一切








nothin is constant expcept for changes

yst..went to sh's hm to celebrate my bdae...though nt evry1 is present but still its kinda fun...we went to make sushi...but sad to say..the making of suhsi its a failure..hehe...firstly the rice is quite soft..secondly the wrapping of sushi is oso a failure..and lastly cutting of sushi was v.hard..hmmz..after eating of sushi we ate popiah..yummy..sh's ah ma de popiah was veri nice..but i put qiute alot of chilli in the end it tasted quite hot sia..

den after we ate popiah we sat ard to chat ...sh suddenly said wat we gg to do in our future...the 3 of dem hab sort of thut abt wat they wana b le..ch wana b a xin ni yi sen n oso open a shop....sy gg to take over his dad business...sh wana open a shoe shop...as for me, seriously i nv ren ren zheng zheng de thut abt this qns b4 bahz...my childhood dream's gt alot..gt bcum doctor, air stewardess, actress.... but as i grew up all this dream bcame juz a dream..i find that all these r kinda unrealistic bahz...i reali duneo wat i gg to b sehz...mayb in the end i juz b a normal lab technician bahz...

sh oso said will we remained lyt this when we grow old..will we still crap with one another? will we continue suan-in one another?...we believe tat we will even when we aged..^^...i reali wonder wats is our topic lyt when we r 30 plus or 40 plus, i reali cnt imagine we will gather ard n discuss hw our kids r doin in schl, or which market's food is the freshest..haha...

oso ch questioned us wat we gona do for our 21th bade celebration...smthin surprised n amused me is wat ch wana do...she wana held a bade cele in mac ...gt ronald mac come n entertain us...hmmz..at 1st it reali amused me..but after hearin ch xplanation i accept her idea..haha..tats her childhood dream to hab cele in mac...hmmz..i think i nv hab celebratn go attend party in mav bahz..nt bad to go bac to our childhood times...as for me..agn i duneo....but i will consider this questn durin this 2 yr bahz...i hab thut abt holdin a chalet but its kinda ma fan n tiring..u nd to plan wat u wana to or else it will be kinda bored..anyway yst ch said smthin which strike me..she said even though went we gather ard we might nt tok at tym but the feelin is still gd.. oh yah...i hab juz realised we hab known each other for abt 7 yrs le...so fast...though its seem lyt we hab known each other for 2 yrs nia..hehe..n we oso realised we nv hab big quarrel b4 cos we all r calm n rational ple, n will considered each other feelin...i juz felt tat yst conversatn was kinda heart-warmin..i juz feel tat slack is smthin which kept our friendship gg...


hmmz...anyway thx for the prez given by slack...i was xpectin a shirt or wat..so when i recieved tat prez was kinda "hard-to-believe" ...haha...i seriously lyt it..thx u guys...n i enjoy the tym spendin wif u guys ...it will reali bring my trouble n sadness away...mayb i suld feel fortuanate as compared to other ple out dere who nv haD zhi tong dao he de frenz...hehez..tc...bb...

...promises r easily made n at the same tym dey r oso easily broken...

advance celebration

hehe..todae was v.memorable..haha cos my poly clique help me cele my bdae..although its still earli but i reali appreciate wat dey hab done..

hmmz...should i say the whole story?..nope..me kinda lazy to write evrything out..anyway..todae st,wn n ms dey collabrate wif my mama to trick me lor...omg..i din xpect my mama will collabrate wif the 3 to cele my bdae..waha..1st dey trick me to tb den i walk home...den dey appear in my home to gib me a surprise..was kinda shock to c dem sia...haha..din xpect they would be/in my home..haha...ok lar..was sort of gan dong...sing bdae song for me..cut cake...gib me present...soon we set off..we went to ecp...we went to ms dere to eat..wah eat alot sehz..eat until my stomach gg to xplode le..but the foods v.nice..yummy~..hehe...after dinner..dey began to act suspiciously..haha...nt onli after dinner mayb is the whole day..lolz..ok..den after dinner..dey made me wait outside the toilet for 20min..tsktsk..kelian de me..haha..cos dey nd to go make smthing..a surprise..waha..after waiting for 20min...st finali come to "fetch" me..lolz..she bought me to a shelter den i saw their masterpiece sehz..waha..so nice..too bad i dun hab the photo or else cn show..hehe..n dey bought the firework thingy(duneo wats is tat called)...n we play n play..until the whole shelter was damn smoky..haha....n st hurt herself while lighting the fireworks..i think todae seem to be a bad day for her...n oso dey bought vodka for me...dey knew i wana tried drinkin alcohol so dey fulfil my wish..waha...but out of 3 bottle dey bought onli 1 tasted nice..so in the end we hab to play zhong zi mi ma to clear the alcohol..lolz..after drinking, i was kinda mild drunk, but i think winnie more serious..haha..winnie n ms face turn red sehz..haha..den after drinkin we went home leh...but smthin funny happen to me sia..so ps sia..omg...u knoe i m mild drunk le..den me n ms was gg to sit mrt home...ms chiong into the mrt whereas for me i was lyt strollin to get into the mrt cos i nv heard the train was gg to close the door..den when i was abt to enter the train the door was 1/4 shut..thinkin omg n panicking..ms was inside den i haben get into the train..duneo y i suddenly use my both hand n try to force open the mrt door..omg..i think i reali drunk le..if i m awake i wun do such a dui lian thing sias..argh~...but in the end i think the mrt driver saw me or watz..the door open n i quickly board onto the train..ms was laughing at me..hurmp..but i think it was reali damn funny..it will be the 1st n last tym i will b doin tat bahz..hehe...ok lar..shall end here..anyway juz wana thx st,ms,wn,mama for gibin me a surprise..hehe..luv u all...tata...

....距离是美....

frenz

we may fight,
we may quarrel,
we may disagree,
we may neglect one another,
we may yell at each other,

But on behalf of "frenz" this word

we will 4give ,
we will giv in ,
we will accomodate n compromise
we will get on our feet n b fren agn..

tats wats the difference of being a fren




waha above is a "poem" created by me..waha...juz feel kinda bored nw n dun feel lyt slpin..hehe...anyway tmr match will be germany vs. portugal...though the chances of portugal winning is slim but i still support dem..gogogo portugal...aiya evn if germany win i oso dun mind lar..but the best is portugal win lor...as for the finals i wun comment much..cos its italy vs. france..i m nt interested in both of the team..but i hope france will lose cos i hate dem lyt hell...waha...opps....oh yah anyway todae is my ex-itp colleague last day of work sia..x.w and w.k...hope dem all the best in wateva dey do bahz..hmmz..anyway hab the urge to drink some alcohol..waha..feel lyt xperiencin the taste of being drunk n 4get abt evrything..waha..dun say i m a wild gal..i m v.zhenG jing de ok!...hmmz...anyway i will end here le...cya..tc evry1..bb..nitey~




我们要把恨拿出来才可以把爱放进去

recently, i had not been online in msn...knoe y..haha...cos my com crash sia...sadz~....now no computer to use le...luckily, my mama borrow her company come home lend me use...do my project n stuff...hehe..hengheng...but quite sad..cos all my songs r gone..argh~...and oso maple no more le..sadz...nvm...wait till my new cpu /hardisk to come bahz...kelian...anyway tonite match is portugal vs. france...please let portugal win sia...i reali hate france sia..it eliminate spain n brazil sia...all of dem r my fav team leh..hw could france be so power~..argh~...anyway germany lost to italy..they final r kinda borin le cos all the powerful team r gana eliminate le...sianz...recently was kinda low...oh yah..i fell in love with a band called x-japan..nt their appearance lar is their songs..dey are a old band le.all the members look old le..waha..s dun xpect me to fell in love wif dem..waha..i think dey oreadi disband le bahz..i juz got to listen thier songs n fell in love wif their songs..waha...especially the song called "forever love"..their songs are v.touching sia..i cn somehow sense the sadness..waha..i m nt kidding ..its real...
haiz..so sianz..ok lar ..i wana end here..go study for tmr quiz..tata ^_^~






we lost our dreams along the way

Inspiration

m here to update agn...i intend to blog bcos was kinda inspired by one of my fren..hehez...her blog made me hab many thuts...

anyway in another year or so i m gg to be 20 le...haiz..time reali flies..and in no time i m gg to step into the workin society.. i m gg to b an adult or oreadi an adult but i feel that i m still childish and dependent at times...mayb i shuld change all this n to be a real adult.. i also feel that i m v.pampered by my family..althu i felt v.fortunate but on the other hand, i feel that mayb all these are the causes to my dependency ...for example wat i want, my parent would try their best to gib me...i felt that mayb this would result me in takin things for granted and would nt cherish dem and etc.. Therefore i feel lyt workin at least cn make some money on my own rather den rely on my parents for $..yupz...and i oso thut of gg other country to study..one is to get a dipolma and also train me to b more independent..but i m afraid that my ma would nt allow..one is money prob n the other is nt fan xing lar...n oso i scared i might regret all watz...mayb gg abraod is nt as easy as wat i imagine...so fast in another 1 yr time i need to decide wat i reali wan...to take A route or B route..nobody would decide for me xcept myself...

hmmz...i duneo wat wuld happen after we graduate...would my frenz in poly n S.L.A.C.K kp in contact...or mayb we might b too busy wif our lifes..haha..or mayb dey r busy with their family..lolz..if one day i reali recieve a wedding inviatatn card frm my fren..i would be damn shocked..n admit tat i m old le..hahaz...
anyway..i wana thx all my fren who walk into my lifes..no matter whether dey cn b/will b bside of me when i m down.. ok..I reali miss the days wif slack where we play nite basketball, cycling, n been to places tat i nv been to, teasing or suanin at one another, sun tanning and etc so many beautiful memories wif their presences i m oways happy..nt onli
s.l.a.c.k, all my frenz in poly..i rmb the most vivid is when we hab clz chalet-1b22..althu nt all the clz ple were present but i hab alot of fun. The nite we went to changi beach to play swings and fireworks, and oso the days when we play badminton..i neo that it would no longer be lyt b4 but thx for this tiny little memories....N also my poly clique..hehe..the 3 ple..thx for the fun time we had, gossiping, shopping, eating of expensive food..lolz....yupz..all these memories are juz a film which is played in my mind nw...so fun n swt..^^

Above are my thuts after readin my fren's blog..ahah..waha..gtg..bb..anyway happy bade jj





就让它变成一个美丽的回忆吧。。

Spain lost!!!!

This morning match was kinda sad....spain lost to france...3-1...sianz..i was kinda sad and disppointed...spain nv won..i hab pinned high hopes on they will win this match...i know that they tried v.hard to score a goal but france played quite well..haiz...was reali damn low after spain lost...haiz...

cnt c luis garcia

n alonso played for spain for world cup...sobsobz...haiz....nvm..hope brazil will help spain revenge by thrasing france..hehez..gogogo brazil.... haiz must wait till fri then gt nxt match..hehe...

rule the game

end of holi

1 more day of relaxatn before schl open..omg...i haben done my hmk..so many test n hmk..dey r all piling up waiting for me to clear dem one by one...i hab no mood to study..sianzz..haiz..3wk seem too short for me..hw i wish i hab another mth of holi to clear my hmk n watch world cup n oso maple..heehz..sianz tues nite is spain vs. france...duneo i cn watch nt cos the nxt day gt test sia..haiz...y must it b on tues..argh~....anyway pray hard tat spain will win...gogogo..anyway was quite happy yst..*grinz*...k gotta go mug le..i think i will fell aslp while muggin agn..bb

4get the un4gotton

Finali bac to blog...was kinda lazy to blog..cos too many stuff to do le..but hw cn i let my blog stagnant for so many weeks..anyway nw is world cup craze..so busy watching soccer..waha...hehe...anyway yst match btwn spain n Tunisia...spian won ...yesh!!...although i didn't watch the match but heard tat its a nice match sia..spain from lose to win..hengheng tunussia nv won..hehe..zai sia spain...but too bad luis garcia n alonso nv score for spain..haha...hope nxt match dey 2 cn score for spain sia...oh tonite match oso nice..england vs. sweden..hope england will win...gogogo england....
Anyway recently hab some thuts...to b a follower is gd or leader is gd..haha but i conclusion to b follower is beta..tats my view..cos if u being a leader dere r bound to b ple opposin u..but b a follower u suit evry1 wish..it makes 1s life easier, isn't it..yupz..but those leader who reali lead well will gain my respect...haha..till nw ar..i onli c a handful of great leader leh..haha..one of the great leader i seen is when i was in cjc, my odac tcher..he reali gain my respect for him..i mean he lead well and do thngs with considerin ple feelin..he say that makind r self-centred..i agree wif him..waha..ok tats all ..
haha...sianz..me still gt so many rpts n assignment haben do yet..argh~...hw i m gg to survive when schl open...nxt wk schl gg to open le..time reali flies sia..sianz..schl open damn sian de...hmmzz..i duneo wat to write le..waha..my mind is in the blank nw..ok lar...gtg..go shoppin wif mama le..waha..cya~

Oh yah anyway todae date is a memoriable one cos its 20-06-2006..hehez

human's thuts r the most difficult things to understand

hehe...nw habin holi...was quite free..eh nt reali...though gt alot of assignment but i lazy to do...me juz went to create new skin for my blog..nice??..waha oso add a new thing...a tagbox dere..rmb to tag hor...lala...i quite like my new blog skin..waha..its simple n nice lar...the reason y i put tagbox nw is bcos i feel tat in the past aiya the tagbox is juz a useless piece of thing n no bother would bother to tag de lar...but nw...erm...duneo y juz feel lyt putting tis tagbox..haa...anyway..tis holi is kinda bored ...i think i will stuck at hm majority of holi..though i feel lyt workin n earning money but me ..u neo lar...v.lazy..haha..anyway the job my fren intro r thoese retail all tat..aiya must c customer face...nahz..i dun wan lar..later gana scold by dem v.sad de..eh...ok lar..nothin much to write...haha..its raining heavily outside..so coolin..tym for bed..waha..so hungry nw..tym for luch..bb


not all those who wanders r lost...

rainy sunday

hmzz..its raining ever since 11am..tsktsk...tats gd anyway..i love rainy days..waha...hmmz..my life is gg to b busy nxt wk...haiz...gt two quizzes n one presentatn...omg...gt so many stuff for me to memorise..haiz...hw i m gg to survive..haiz...but after nxt wk..life is gg to b happier..yippie...no schl..so happy...but my clique r gg oversea le..so sad..i cnt go..i oso wana go..go enjoy my holi in oversea..so relax n happy...if i gt the chance..i would like to go..hmmz...japan...australia...yah...so long nv go oversea le leh...waha..ok i will stop here nd to mug for my test..ke lian me..haiz..


为何要为别人而活，而不是为自己而活

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This entry is linked wif titleless..after readfin an email...suddenly lots of thuts came to my mine...hmmz...so decided to blog agn...anyway i cnt comment alot of things cos i duneo who will read this blog...juz wana sae..evrythings start from misunderstanding n wadeva..i admit tat we r somehow at fault...but i believe in these situation nobody is happy..but if u think otherwise den its too bad...anyway its great to somehow knoe smthing though nt in detail...haiz..but i believe for nw nothin will change unless he do smhin abt it...cos its easy to start but diff to end..n i duneo ___is gd or bad...i reali v.confuse nw..argh....___ seem to hav 2 sides..so scary...haiz...wadeva..hope for world peace..n no matter how frustrated or angry m i, i reali hope tat if reali gt the chance we can go bac to the days we had 2gata..eg chalet...yupz tat all...
gona styudy for my tmr quiz...hope i will 4get abt evrything n CONCENTRATE...yesh!!gogogo

anyway a piece of notes...i juz wana thx evryone who help me in this incident...u guys knoe who u r...^_^


a impt lsn which i hab learnt..

what i wan

hmmz...wad i reali wan is :

• to hab is to have a new life..n get out from this schl asap...
• to go gym evry wk..lolz..
• to be happy evryday
• stop habin bad dream
• to go abroad as in go japan..australia those kinda
• to clear my doubts asap
• wana try studying abroad

在很久很久以前，这世界很美丽，但现在这一切变得很灰暗

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HEY MAN....ALL THOSE WHO R READIN JUZ WANA SAE I LIVE FOR 18 YRS...N THIS IS A 1ST TYM ...REALI 1ST TYM...I SEE SUCH A BASTARD, NO BRAIN, ARROGANT PERSON...OMG...SO SUAY TO MEET HIM...N GOD PLS TAKE HIM OFF MY SIGHT FOR GOD SAKE....I REALI CAN'T STAND HIM...HE THINK HE IS DAMN BIG...FOR GOD SAKE...PLSSS...BIG AS IN HEAD BIG OR WATZ?....NORMALI I WUN SCOLD 4 LETTER WORD...HE REALI GET OFF MY TEMPER LIMIT...TO THE PLE READIN MY BLOG SEE-IN THE UNSIGHTLY OF ME...PLS GO BLAME TAT ASSHOLE...I SWEAR FROM NW ON I WUN TOK TO HIM ANYMORE...IF I TOK TO HIM...HE WILL DIE RITE IN FRONT OF ME...THX..NO MATTER WATZ...HOW "POPULAR" HE SEEM..HIS FRENZ N ...... WILL LEAVE HIM 1 DAY...I CN BE 100% SURE...YUPZ..COS THEY CAN'T STAND HIM...LYT I DO...

ANYWAY I JUZ CRIED...I REALI REGRET CRYING ABT IT...I RATHER CRIED FOR A ANT THAN CRY FOR IT....CAN I TAKE BAC MY TEARS AND USED IT FOR MEANINGFUL PURPOSES....MY TEARS R DARN PRECIOUS LOR ...

ANYWAY I DUN WANA WRITE A LONG ENTRY FOR HIM...WATSE MY BLOG SPACE AND ENERGY...HOPE EVRTHING WILL BE GONE WIF THE WIND...NW MY MOOD IS BETA...I KNOE GOD WILL OWAYS BLESS ME WIF GOOD LIFE AND GOOD FRENZ...HMMZ...I 4GET MY LAST ENTRY PROMISE TO WRITE GOOD STUFF ABT MYSELF...HAHAZ.OK SHALL WRITE SOME GOOD PTS TO CHEER MYSELF UP...I M LOYAL TO MY CLOSE FREN..FUNNY PRSN..LOLZ...ERM...HARDWORKIN(GUILTY)..LOLZ..ERM TATS ALL..THINK STILL GOT.. WAHA...MUST ASK MY CLOSE FRENZ...DUN SAY I M BHB..OK CYA...BB..


IN MY LIFE I SEE SORROW..BUT I SEE HAPPINESS MORE...

sleepless nite

anyway todae came hm the earliest..me rch hm abt 2pm..though its earli den usual..but tym passed v.fast..i did edit my rpt n datasht..n its 7plus le...tsktsk..hmmzz...its 1230am nw...n i m still wide awake..tmr still hab schl sia..tmr jialat..from 8-5 sia..sianz...normally at this tym i would be sound aslp..hahaz..but tonite cnt slp sia...so sianz..somemore so warm sia...feel lyt bathing..haha..but if i bath nw..think i will be siao kia..so late bath..hmmz...so me hab nothin to do...actuali gt alot..but all is so borin stuff(schl work)..dun feel lyt doin...so intend to blog...oh yah..todae aunt came bac from taiwan(holiday)..hehez..wonder if she got bought any nice stuff for me..

anyway juz nw i did something rude..lolz..haiz..duneo gt offend her..i oreadi send my apology to her le..hehez...waha..cos juz nw in bad mood lar...hmmzz..me lyt to bottle up my unhappiness...den think n think...den smtym will show black face..hai the ple ard me to suffer..waha..cos dey duneo wat happen i will nt tell dem de...think i should change tis bad habit...

anyway i think i hab change alot in a sense to the negative nt positive...i think i became more n more hot temper le..my temper nt as gd as last tym...in the sense nt as tolerant as b4...hmmz..n mood swing v.easily...den became rude..haha..think i suffering from depression...*cross finger*..lolz...

aiyo y i kp sayin bad comment abt myself...nvm nxt entry me gg to say gd stuff abt myself le..hehe...anyway..its seem lyt typing tis entry is sort of entertaining myself sia..tsktsk..aiyo type so long..onli 10 min as past..sianz..think i 1 am den go slp...bleah! me nw go surf the webbie..go read ple blog...anyway sayin abt blog..read one of my pri schl fren blog..wah..she gana ditch..sad sia..i think tat guy is a jerk lor..he ditch her cos of another gal..kaoz...wat kinda guy is tat..ok shall comment no more...so scan ple blog le..tata..nitey...

recieve a msg fin chi from my fren which says:

喜怒哀乐是由自己制造，要笑要泪就看自己这么县。

i oso thut of :

we must not let time control us..we must control time...

memories of yst

Friday entry

woke up ealri on fri morning despite its a holiday..duneo y..hehez...actuali need to go temple todae de..but int he end nv go..anyway my bro oso nv go...so when to meet slack at je..wohooo...todae we went to gym..yipyip..this is the 1st tym i went to gym in my whole 18yrs...dun laugh at me horz...ok den..went dere change into my attire.hehez..wow gym was damn fun...i fall in love with gym le...though the euipment in je is limited..but i hab try alot of he diff equipment..the euipment i like most is the one which can train my stomach muscle..hehe...we staye int he gym from about 230 lyt tat to 5pm sia...hehe...at there saw quite alot of muscular guys..woo..but dey all short short de...no handsome guy though..keke...was quite fun..how i wish i could go gym n train evry wk..haha...train into a fit fit prsn...yeah!...
den after gym went to sh hm to bath...after bathing we went to bugis to eat...went to barnsburk(smthin lyt tat)..we ordered the set meal..nt v.nice lar...somemore the service is damn slow..haiz...after tat nana went to take her mother days present..the present was quite nice..den sh intend to buy her mother day present..but could nt find anything she lyt..so in the end she decide to treat her mom out to eat ...den we went to mos burger to slack..i was feel tired le wana slp le..haha..den we went home at abt 10pm..me took bus hm..hehz..rch hm...den abt 11pm plus went to slp le..cos was so tired..think i used alot of energy on gym le...hehez..


以前想着未来， 但是现在想着过去。

meaningless life...

ok..mon was my csw presentan...we are the 1st grp to present...so excited...hehe..but...the meeting was kinda fun..our tcher video us dunrin our meetin..wonder hw i lk lyt..lolz...tcher still sae i gt gd eye contact skill...lolz...so happy...hmmz...gt my result bad..nt bad..70 plus...hmmz..
tues was in no mood condition...
wed was quite happy cos we went shoppin for our fyp stuff..heehz..went ard schl to search for fish shop..cn u juz imagine..spore has limited fish shop..finali found one in chua chu kang...we bought bags of things...so heavy worx..
thurs...was oso v.bored..guess my life is oways bored de...todae gt exp..tis exp i hated most...becos of two reasons....omg gt sore throat todae...hope i wun b sick tmr ...pray hard...

hw i wish i faster graduate and get out from tis kinda life...i dread gg to schl...it remind me of smthin in sec schl...i think i gt karma...me nw reali believe in karma le...haiz...i hope history wun repeat itself...sobz..

actuali todae quite unhappy...no mood to blog..think tmr shall blog...tmr wuld b a happy day i guess...waha...gogogogo tmr


在镜子面前，我们是在一起, 但是在我心里，我们是有段距离。

lolz....:x

was so bored n went to try out some test...juz found out from my name tat:


Lazy
Edgy
Overwhelming
Natural
Gorgeous

Mischievous
Easy
Ideal

Zany
Helpful
Emotional
Nice

and also

What personality elements make up your Personality cocktail?

How to make a Leong Mei Zhen
Ingredients:5 parts intelligence1 part silliness3 parts beauty
Method:Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of fitness

Hahaz...too bored...did tis test to entertain myself..keke


was reading thru ple blog as usual n found smthin nice.......
the st0ri of 2 teardr0ps-Two tear drops were floating down the river. One tear drop said to the other, "I'm the tear drop of agirl who loved a man and lost him. Who are you?" "I'm the teardrop of the man who regret letting agirl go....."
She teardrop consoled, "There would come a time when we have to stop loving someone because we found out that they'd be happier if we let themgo..."He teardrop replied, "But then you'll know thatyou miss someone very much when every time you think of that person, your heart breaks into pieces and just a quick 'Hello' from that personbrings the broken pieces back..."She teardrop said, "It's really painful to saygoodbye to someone else that you don't want tolet go; but it's even more painful to ask someone tostay if you can never make the relationship workout the way it should be."She continued, "LOVE? It's kind of complicated,but I'll tell you this... the second you're willing to make yourself miserable is to make someone else happy, that's love right there...."He teardrop pondered and said, "You know, if I had the letters "HRT", I can add "EA" to geta "HEART" or a "U" and get "HURT". But I'drather choose "U" and get "HURT" than havea "HEART" without "U"...She teardrop smiled and replied, "Giving someoneall your love is not an assurance that she will love you back. Don't expect love in return, wait forit to grow in her heart, if it doesn't, becontented it grows in yours."He teardrop continued, "She told me once, do not be too good, I will miss you. Don't be too caring; Imight like you. Don't be too sweet; I might fall foryou."She teardrop smiled and said, "A heart truly inlove never loses hope but always believes."She teardrop continued, "If you love her please let her know because it hurts to love when you have to go. Take care of me; don't go away because if you love me, you will stay... I love you and do you know why? You got me when you first said 'Hi'"He teardrop said, "You are brave she teardrop, now I know it's always better to have found the courage to love even if you lose it in the end ratherthan never found love because you were too afraid of the challenge."He teardrop continued further, "Did you know thatthe expression "Nothing" is the subconscious mind's way of saying I Love You... that's what ido, I told her NOTHING and because of that i losther even though i love her... I cry for the time that she was almost mine, I cry for the memories I've left behind, I cry for the pain, the lost, the old and the new. I cry for the times i thought I had her!"She teardrop consoled, "Relationships are like glass, sometimes it is better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together,or worse, have nothing strong to bind it together.you never lose in loving. you only lose in holding back."He teardrop cried,"Now I know, I have learned.don't throw your back to love when it's already infront of you, don't drive it away from you becauseif you did, someday you'll think again why you let love fly away when it was once next to YOU..."

election day

woot~woke up at 10 plus this morning....some funernal thing from downstair woke me up....yawnz...woke up went to watch tv...haiz...no show to watch...wat a boring sat....at 12 plus my parents went to vote ...my ma vote for pap..while my dad vote for opposition...hmmz...fair n square...if i hab the chance i would vote for pap for my area...yupz...after slackin for about 2 hour or so...went to use com to do my rpt...omg...the info are so hard to find...so bored...went to look at the blog...i think i addicted to readin ple blog le...evrything on the com i would nv fail to browse ard ple blog...and the blog i read are from mostly ple tat r younger den me...their lifestyle reali interest me...haha althu dey r quite normal..but i juz lurbe readin dem...dun say i kpo ok...hurmp...wah from 12pm use till now le...think my eyes gg to spoil soon...so bored..stuck at hm oso duneo wat to do...boredX3.....i wana go shoppin...buy shoe..buy jacket...buy yummy food....hw i wish i hab alot of $$...haiz..anyway tats all for today..nothin much though....i wana maple...haha...train my mage..lalala....

oh yah my previous entry say was bothered by schl stuff...but nw it seem to b improvin le...gogogo.....hehez....hope one day the outcome wuld be wat i hoped for...yeah!...i dun wana b bored in my last yr of poly, i wana hab FUN...yupz



i m borned lonely to this world...*sigh*

the story of the heart...

真的

我努力的仰着脸孔
试着眼泪不往下流
别往下流
不安的感觉到什么
在我生活中不再相同
很不相同
想要说
却还沉默
伸出手
无法触碰
天空突然一片辽阔
原来你是真的已经离开我
在我不熟悉的世界过新的生活
闭上眼让泪水滑落
此刻你已真的永远离开我
在另外一个没有我的世界
自由的走

-by 张韶涵