Its been a long while since i last went for my drink drank drunk session. Finali went drinking today..yeah~

Went to old school located at mt.sophia. I must say its kinda shag to go there w/o a car. I climbed like 7 flights of stairs before reaching there. Upon reaching, i must say my hardwork has  paid off.ha..the place was be-au-ti-ful~ and it reali appear like somekind of an old school...There was an art gallery ard there, where it display artisitc pic and funky,chios people are seen hanging ard there. The wow part is that they served FREE martini wif green tea. But being the un-gian ben us..didn't took it.

After appreciating the art pieces, we headed for timbre for our dinner. The food ( we ordered mushroom, pizza and wings) there was yummy~ but they onli served 1 round of plain water.... 

N of cosh not missing out our drinks

And, there is also a live band performance by the solitude...whereby the singer was soso nia...hmm..guess Tats abt it...i must say timbre @ old school is a nice place with great foods to hang out wif gr8 people...=)

-looking 4ward 2 evry session-

Recently, after enjoying d cny period,n returning bac to schl, schlwork seem to be alot alot...guess it might be due to procrastinating of work to pursue joy..think i m lagging far behind...in nd of mre tym

The plc whr we went on cny eve

The plc where we gather after reunion lunch

The place which brought us the most laughter n actions

Then we went home for our reunion dinner.....happy moo yr to evryone..gong xi fa cai

Life's so unpredictable..

He say he wun make it till cny..

His heart might fail him anytym..

n its 6 days more to cny..

cn he make it?

tats my aunt's father-in-law

well its alreadi 2009..time flies as usual..recallin bac 2008 was a not bad yr for me.at least i did something which is achieving..hope 2009 would be a smooth sailing one..schl is startin soon and sigh~~

off to bintan - 15/12 to 18/12

End of mugging phase..its holi..yea~

stepping into mugging phase

Our drinking session again~...this time round the 1 which we went is neither called tom nor dick hor but HARRY's bar...=)... Surprisingly, there's quite a number of outlets in singapore. But the chosen one was located at esplanade. The price of the drinks was reasonable-average 16 bucks and there was band performance too. This time round, the band-"wise guys" did not disappoint me. Though the lead singer was a mid-age guy around late 40s and the band look more like of a family? but he sang quite well and most of the songs are which i know..yippie..Shall add Harry's bar to one of the bar i luv..

Guess Harry might be the last bar i m going to visit for this sem as my exams are coming..Time to mug =(

-Was a 5k finisher on 26/10/08 for the great eastern run.=) No more runs for this year.

-Went M-hotel's J-bar..located near tanjong pagar..This is a nt bad place to chill if u wan to isolate yrself frm the world. They have the indoor and outdoor kind. For the indoor,air-conditioned, you can listen to the band performance while the oudoor, a small area, to enjoy the ambience/surrounding.However the band which performed at there was not gd and they were late for their performance. walax2 still my fav.Rock on~

-nobody know it but me-

Went to "loof" which is situated at at north bridge road near bras brasah there. It is actually a rooftop bar concept. The ambience there was nice and a nice place to chill. However, was not very satisfied with the toilet and the staff there. The staff chased us away after we have finish drinking. But it might be because of the crowd there, mayb shouldn't blame them. But they seriously should do something about the toilet.

Recently was watching this show, the song was nice~

After reading,a forum posted in my schl these are my after thuts. Even though i dun reali lyt prc ple but i felt tat the ple here are saying not v.gracious things. Posting bad comment abt her huh? Typing out her full name hur? Saying tat she is incompetent. Well done whoever By leaving comments w/o saying his/her name..Come on..at least she make the effort to explain things..if u guys think she is nt doin a v.gd job cn at least gib her a chnc n nt by embarrsessing her in front of many ple. I Reali cnt stand the students. A bunch of cold-blooded ple/prsn. All they care is abt their damn grades n learning new stuffs.

Today i felt s.t.u.p.i.d.f.i.e.d in front of the smart ple...I guess ever since i landed in tat schl i cn nv =) happily. Morale is oways lowering, n i dun hab the motivation to study. How lng cn i stand?

I m proud to announce tat i am a 10k finisher. Last sun, 31/8/08 was my 1st tym participating the 10k run, nike human race. The esplanade road was flooded wif a sea of red and i was one of them. Upon completion of the race, i felt a sense of satisfaction, an achievement which i can nv felt it anywhr. This gives me more motivation to run. Up coming is the 5k run in oct.






It's a joy to b able to run

Today, marks the end to olympic 2008 =(  After 16 glamorous days, the game its over...nw i shall be anticipating 2012 olympic held in london.

Spent 5 hr 20 min to collect my race pack. Indeed it was an experience and of cosh a sense of achievement. ha. 1 wk to 10k .. am i ready for it?

Yst match ljw vs gy(world no.2) was damn exciting..ljw played well during the 1st half of the game but toward the end, guess she was kinda nervous and thus letting her opponent to defeat her. But overall jw played well and has done spore proud. jiayou jw!!.Through the media interview, she teared, guess she was kinda disapointed that she couldn't achieve a bronze medal for spore. But well, it is oreadi a gd job displayed by her to achieve the 4th position..However, Sad to say this might be her last olympic game..In the upcoming, olympic game we shall c how ftw gg to perform...go~ ftw!!! in the olympic 2012.

yippie..spore got into the finals for table tennis..initiali, i thought that spore cmi sia when ljw failed to beat the korean player. The koreAn player was kinda strong and at that point of tym cn see that ljw was nervous. But well, overall spore won korea. Hope they can win china in the sun match.

Well, schl started this week. As usual schl was kinda boring.The prof are least entertaining, was wondering why can't they make their lesson more ineterstin.  Worst still, tues and fri i end schl at 8pm..crap..okie..shall stop all those whinning.. Anyway, I din realli saw much changes in the ple in my faculty. The people still look the same though .hmmz..This 2 week shall be a honeymoon period for me and week 3 shall be the start of my nitemare where all those tutoriAL and practical start.sigh~....

21st bdae entry

i know its kinda belated to post my bdae entry...yupz..
okkk ...on my bdae went celebration wif my family,bc n alvina..yupz..1st destinaation was to eat dim sum @ harbourcity..m tr8..yupz..the foood was quite nice though..2nd stop was to went prawning @ bottle tree park..i didn't manage to catch enuf prawnz as compared to my previous attempt..well prawning was still nt bad even though u might feel zzzz at tym..the 3rd destintion of the day was of cosh dinner..went to carlton hotel to eat..food there was better than rama thai..did i mentin that i hab a bad impression of rama thai at tanjong pagar there...hmmz..after eating went home to chnage to our sporty outfit..the final destination was to ecp...went to nite cycling...it has been awhle since i last nite cycle..reali miss the days where i n m sec frenz cycle on the roads to changi....yeAP...AFTER the cycle evry1 was tired..nt evry1 enjoy the cycle...mayb nt evry1 share the same passion..so i reali appreciate that they nite cycle wif me evn though they din like it..the nxt day think ard 8 am then we head hm..evry1 was shag..ok tats all on wat happn on my bdae

ok...nw my prez tym..this yr i recieve a macbk(frm my parents), 3 ballons frm alvina, pendant frm alvina's mum, burberry wallet from bc, nike bag from uni frenz, ysl perfume from poly fren, longchamp bag frm sec fren, n a diy bk frm ch...ok tats all for the gifts...thanks for all the gift ple..appreciate evry gift recive..=)

Great!! i juz sign up for another 5k run..its a great eastern run..muhaha..the shirt is addidas one..now i hab both addidas n nike shirt..cool~

Though my 5k run is gone, but here comes my 10k run.nike+ human race run. 2 more mths to go.
-just do it!-

Yst i watched the chnl 8 charity show for the sichuan earthquake. After watching it, felt kinda fortunate and oso kinda guilty. I m fortunate that spore does not have a major earthquake that can kill ple. On the other hand i was kinda guilty, that at the other ends ple r suffering while i m enjoying my life.

Actuali before the charity show, i din reali "feel" for the sichuan earthquake or rather it does not have much impact on me. However, after watching the charity show, i begin to realise what i nv realise before. I still rmb that quan yi fen say a true story which occur in the earthquake which left me touched. She say that there was a lady who protect her baby by shielding her body over her baby. In the end, that lady was dead but under her was her healthy baby who has a hp lying beside. The lady has typed a msg in the hp dedicated to her baby saying if the baby was alive she wana let him/her neo how much she love her. After hearing this, felt like tearing cos was kinda sadded as the ma can onli express her love thru sms.. Another incident was, durin a sichuan earthquake, a young girl was found dead and in her hands, held a pencil. yupz..Frm this incident, we should feel fortunate, at least we got the chance to study tomorrow but for the girl she could not anymre.

We should cherish evry1 ard us as u mite not have the chance when tmr comes...
-<3 Love your parents <3-

My life

On sat, went cycling wif my frenz n in the end i gt 3 brusies. but overall it was fun.After tat we went sunsetway to pub, guess ch n i r kinda hook to alcohol. the ambience there was not bad. So amazing that a HDB area is able to produce a dempsey-hill kinda feeling. We still arranged for another outing for alcohol.

On tues, me went to b a facilitaor for schl outing at compassvale sec. The pay was kinda low though, but i must admit i enjoy it to some extent. The job for the day was to be a station master at the old parliament house whereby students will come to yr statn and u must give worksht to them to do. though that day was sunny but i was assigend to the station which is sheltered

On wed, i was assigned to orchid park sec. The job of the day was to in-charge of the 20 students to tour around T3 and give them worksheets to do. I was assigned to a normal acad clz..Actuali teaching the students was kinda enjoyable but some of them i unwilling to learn. While some of the students are willing to listen to me. I get that sense of achievement when the students understand what i m teaching about. From this excursion, i create some kind of bond with them though its juz a mere 2 hr of interaction. I nv got to know their names but i have already remeber some of their faces. To be honest, i felt that orchid park students are must more disciplined than compassvale students.
Overall, this job was fun to some extent though the pay was real low. If there is a chance to do this job the nxt sem i might considered about it again. Mayb i will got the chnc to facilitate my sec shl.

Feelings:
This few wks was kinda tired. I juz felt that 虽然，坐得很近，但是我们的距离很远.
Think i reali nd some space n freedom.

my 5km run is gone =(...
nxt yr agn!!!..

inspired

当我小的时候，
我想长大。
但当我长大后，
我想当个小女孩

thanks my fren =)

The starting of the stressful period.

1 test is down..
Exhuasted...
nxt to come..
3 wk tym..

I want to
i wana go cycling..
to complete miles..
i wan to go running
to race kilometre
i wan to swim
to cover lapse
to search for something
that's an achievement..

1) too many things to do
2) A feeling of getting old =(
3) tired but fulfilling
4) i felt her loneliness
5) changes among us
6) missing them
7) lazy and avoiding it me
= i wonder

anticipating 2010

2 faces

"Everyone sees what you seem to be, few touch upon what you are..." -- Niccol Machiavelli, "The Prince"-xtracted from radom thut's blog

NEw yr

Well in another 8 more hr its 2008..its another year agn..should i say this year has passed by fast or slow...hmm...wateva it is..hope that nxt yr would be a great one..wish evry1 an advanced happy new year..have a great year ahead..

merry chrismas evry1

[As life goes on I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
..........................................................................]

Dedicated to the 5 of dem n my parents..



This is not the ending, its onli the beginning for me

i m tryin hard to 4get tat incident....but it somehow or rather can't b done...when i was abt to slowly 4get it...smthing(someone) will trigger tat incident agn...haizz..

hab nt been blogging after my trip..its becos i neo when i blog i m sure i will tok abt tat incident n hw i m feelin...so agn i avoid it...but juz to tell my frenz..mayb god gav us this incident or whateva obstacles we met on our way, mayb he's trying to make our friendship grew stronger n make us stronger den b4...recently evryone ard me seem to hab lots of troubles..juz wana say be strong n walk on....

yst went to meet up some friends in holland v for dinner...its has been ages since we last met up..went to settlers dere and ate...we were only allowed to stay dere for 2 hr..because there is a reservation at 9.30pm..so after lookin thru the menu, we found out the food at dere has nothin much tat fascinate us...so we juz decided to order the dessert package..as usual..i order my fav brownie wif icecream....with a cup of choco float...den we started to play games...haha...the waiter taught us how to play the games..the 1st game i have played before..waha..it mainly test on how fast its yr reaction..muhaha...but the 2nd game its kinda new to me..the waiter taught us..he juz kp tokin n tokin...but i m a kind of person dun reali like to hear explanation , i understand beta with pictures/demos or mayb my understanding of explanations is poor or wat...so my 2 frenz sort of understand how to play the game..while i juz pretend to understand by knoddin my head...waha..so then. the waiter juz say ok lets start with me..den i say huh?..so paisehz..den my fren say need to bid wat n wat...but overall tat game its nt v.nice la..den we gossip here n dere..found out workin life its nt reali gd..people frm higher post, will tend to bully people frm the lower post.. yupz...after tat ...xw wanted to eat ya kun...so went there to eat..bread wif kaya...we slack until ard 10 plus lyt tat den walk to the statn...

my 2 frenz were takin the diff lines frm me..so i board my train..as usual i lean agst the glass panel dere..yeap..when i reached queenstown statn....i saw some1 familar...its my ex colleague in pioneer..i thut..wow the world its so small..same train n same cabin..den miralculously, we gt things to tok abt sia..i still thut it wuld b an awkward situation since it has been quite lng we last met each other n we r oso diff in diff dpt in pioneer...den when the train appraoched tb, i bid gdbye n alite..

in addition, the day before yst...some1 tok to me..its my 3 mth jc fren...its has been mayb abt 3 yrs since we last met up..she asked wana meet up since she's quite free nw...after hearin this i duneo y i feel kinda happy..mayb its a great feelin to hear frm a long lost fren...yupz..so we sort of arrange a day to meet up..waha..so excited though...


overall...juz wana conclude tat its a great feelin to meet up wif long lost frenz...


这一星期并不好过，太多事发生了， 累得我无法呼吸

-没有回复的简讯-

没想到今天会为了这件事而 blog

无论在多的对不起都弥补不了，
无论在多的因为你都听不进，
或许你有你的理由，我有我的理由，
导致受伤的心变成了坏眼泪，
导致信任，友情在一夜降低掉，
原本好期待，但现在比以前根害怕明天


又失眠了。。。

计算着，
时间一天一天过去，
不知为何好害怕，
好想放慢时间，
希望可以为你们
全心全意，
做一件事，
不需要感动，
不需要回报




其实还是很在意的

我最喜欢的它

我喜欢白色

它代表了纯真

我喜欢黑色

它代表了气质

我喜欢蓝色

它代表了自由

我喜欢红色

它代表了感情

我喜欢青色

它代表了生命



但最喜欢的它还仍然分不清

Actuali was kinda interested on photoshop but din really hab the chance to play with it..Finali, todae went to xplore ard photoshop and abit got the hang of it..And above, tats my masterpiece..its nt well done cos its my 1st attempt..yah...shall work hard and improve on my photoshop this few days..there are way too much for me to learn...



忘了，再也不想去记了

不能潇洒的处理事情，

只能用逃避，

这样才不会受伤害，

但最后还是难免了。

很快的，

在一个多月后就好开学了，

但我一点都不期待着，

虽然很想上学，

可是环境和人都变了，

未来我不知道，

只知道的是，

现在要，

玩得痛快

笑得痛快，

哭得痛快，

喝得痛快，

恐怕以后没有机会了。

告别了，

再见乐了。

巨蟹座真的是没有安全感吗？

越来越像它了

p/s: 不要用语言伤害我

风的来临，
雨天的出现，
让这个世界看不清，
留下的只不过是，
似乎像写不完的文章，

YEAp..finali m here to blog..hmmz..wat hab i been doin for the past few days..i shall summarise briefly..cos kinda lazy to elaborate dem agn.. sure tok abt those places which i visited tat r much more distinct

still rmb last fri which is the 25th may ard evening tym went to

where we took dozen of pictures

After tat we decided to ton overnite at outside. This was a sudden decision. We went ard spore aimlessly and finally decided to go to holland v..

whereby we hab our tea at dere. And juz for yr info it was ard 1am at tat pt of tym. But the place is still kinda crowded. e ordered our tea and potato wages and calamari. Hmmz..my tea taste kinda like milo?..but it taste nt bad though. if i m nt wrong the tea is called "dance of tea".

Agn we took pic

After tat..abt 2am..aimless agn..we decided to go to vivo

after tat sy drove us bac to sh hm n for once i din slept the whole nite..tats amazing....the nxt morning chiong dwn to the nus talk..

On wed, the 30 may, went to

to eat half a chicken.wow the portion is v.big n in the end i can't finish.but the fries is yummy.n i share wif st the "sex on the beach"..waha..its an alcholic drink ..it taste like alcohol plus fruit punch..quite alrite though..but ms n hw ordered tat "bloody mary"..it taste damn disgustin..reali disgustin..its actuali mixture of tomato n chilli sauce n etc..one mouth of this is more than enuf..den fw oreder "spore sling"..its taste kinda nt bad oso..

kk tats all for the week..sure blog agn soon

Morning evryone...Todae which is the 21th may, the day whereby i am jobless. I am feeling kinda sad though. No work equal to no pay. I am thinking whether should i work or rest first. I feel like workin now as i'll have plenty of rest tym in july. But i scared i will lose the enthu of lkin a job soon..waha..Will be startin schl in aug, wonder how's life dere.hmmz..hopefuli i will enjoy it.

Life is reali full of contradiction. when i m workin i feel like quitting but nw when i m jobless i feel like workin. Anyway i m missing my work n collegue now..haha..wonder will dey miss me ..lol..At my workplace, i would say majority of the ple r kind n helpful to me though..haha..and oso i hab 4 "niangs" in my dpt..hmmz gt lao niang(she duneo she is lao niang..waha), da niang, er niang and san niang..i will miss dem..waha..hmmz..durin my last day of work..the other dpt ask me wana go work for dem nt as a temp staff..cover recept n admin stuff..but my 4 "niangs" discourage me la..cos they say life its nt gd workin in dere..so i decline the offer..waha..n oso i think its kinda weird to tiao zhao..lolz..somemore the dpt is damn near my dpt..haha..da niang told me the HR manager told her tat if nxt tym after i grad frm my uni cn str8 away join the company no nd to go thru any intreview..waha..duneo true or not..lolz..aiya after i grad it would be 3 yr latr le..3 yr leh..evn 1 yr will hab lots of changes..duneo by then will he left the company le mahz..cos he is expat..Anyway i learn quite alot of stuff frm dem n oso cr8 quite alot of trouble for dem=x..feel kinda guilty..haiz..yupz..duneo y on fri(the last day of work) i m v.high la..though i m yi yi bu she de..waha..

Anyway 2 more days latr, i'll b gg for my grad cermony..actuali i hate this kinda event..i juz dun c the need for it..can't dey juz post us the cert, y go through all this trouble to hab the cermony..

Hmmz..actuali currently got nothin to lk forward on..mayb the hk trip?..hopefuli cn go to hk bahz ..hopefuli its nt juz a say say thing..haha..stupid me hab spend all my salary on holi trips..but since mayb it will be the last tym we hab this kinda chance before schl or work starts offically..Hmmz..ok la..gtg end here..


虽然大家都不说，但心里都知道彼此的答案了

hmmz..m bac to write a simple n short entry abt my life..waha..ehh..went to the sci centre on tues..which is labour day..let me count..hmmz..it has been ages since i last went to the sci centre..haha..rch dere n it was quite packed..i thought it wuld b less crowded in the sci centre nowadays sia..waha..ok went there..play some stupid but fun game..waha..hmmz..sci centre seem to change a littlle..now gt quite alot of interestin games to play..at least its beta compared to when i visited it durin my pri schl days..waha..

c tat invisble body of mine..waha..lots of kids r tryin to queue up to try this out man..phew..finali gt the chance to snatch a place wif dem..wahah...figure out hw to make my body invisble le?..haha...i wun tell u the ans ..go dwn to the sci centre n check it out..waha

haha..this is a shot of me n st..waha..c our backgrd..so cartoon-ic sia..lolz.

Can't c a thing..its nt bocs my photography skill is lousy..its juz tat the image of our "froozen shadow" will disappear the moment i took a pic..think its bcos of the flash light produced by the camera..this thing is kinda interestin..waha..cn freeze our shadow .

we hab been tryin v.hard to take a pic of ourselves..spendin lots of time in the stuffy area..but sad to say in the end we failed..tats the best shot we took..waha..so in the end we ask for assistance..the complete n nice pic of us its at wn dere..eww..tat wn still haben send me the pic..inefficient..&*^^%$..waha..make me cnt upload the pics..

okok..i me nw gg to share wif u guys a few horror pic of me..waha...be prepared..

okok..relax..this is a orignial pic of me...a normal lookin me when i m laughing happily...

taken durin an editing process of me when using the machine which can "predict" yrself when u r frm young to old..



wth..this is a pic of me when i m a baby sia..laughing happily..come on man..this look lyt chucky sia..nt me lor..so ugly..




ohh gosh..tats a pic of me when i m a child laughing happily..swt lar..totally diff man..i look so dark..

this is a pic of me when i m a teenager..eh i look so older as compared to now..impossible la..

this is an adult pic of me..ok i m no diff from the origial pic..i suspected the now me=adult me..sad..me old liao..no longer teens le..

haha...this is damn loser pic la..this pic is when i m old n laughing happily..waha..eww man..

okoktats all..i concluded..the nw me is the best lookin one..waha..all the past n future r craps man..so ugly..i think the machine gt prob la..cnt b trusted..waha...tats all..due to INSUFFICIENT of pic..i can't blog much..waha...wn pls send me the photos..waha

i kp walkin on..
walkin the same old route..
walkin miles n miles..
see-in the same old things

met smthing todae
though i knew she was lying
but i still lend her a helpin hand
doin wat i cn afford
no regrets..
by doin this though she cn bluff n survive her way thru
but she has lost her dignity, her respect from me n others
she is no diff frm a disabled ...

她说“很久都没有这样笑过了”
虽然她每天都在笑着
我想我明白这种感觉。。。

快乐和烦恼
快乐你理解不到
烦恼你感受的到
但请不要和我分享
我肯定
不是你永远的影子

烦得我睡不着
烦得我好承重
烦得我好不快乐
烦得我恨你



了解了-
并不是神圣
并不喜欢比较
并不喜欢炫耀
并且兴趣比名分重要
但为何人人都在笑我笨妖

坐在那四方的桌子，
聊着 笑着 回想过去，
我便静了下来,
她们 说着 笑着

静了不是因为累了，
而是想着从前的点点滴滴，
好怀念 好想念
突然脑出现了他的话
[想念，
是没有回答她的话，
再也不想说话，
再也无法说话]

here some of the pic frm tw..7days of journey in tw ...finali got the chance to post it up here....lazy to elaborate..hmmz..the pic will do the work..

In the plane to tw

our 1st meal at there..we ate steamboat for dinner

wakin up earli for free breakfast in the hotel...zzzZZ

Studious me n sy in cheng pin shu dian

kind me n ch making donation

in the train

me n sh in hagen

me n sh eyeing on the cakes..

mine n sy hotel room

all of us dead beat in the hotel

takin pic wif one of the salesgal we met

at shilin nite market



our graffiti in fish cafe

2nd last day chiong-in in the KTV

in the cabbie

proudly to present hh n pp

sianzz...leaving for sg

arrival in sg

anyway....tats all abt it...had lots of fun at dere...shoppin..slpin..watching tv...eatin...life is so relax..hw i wish i cn stay at dere..ms life at dere...anyway its been a fun n enjoyable trip....

woot so long nv blog le..kinda busy n lazy to blog nowadays le..hab been busy workin..earning money..but i m still poor though..sad case..hmmz..my view for working life has nt change ....mayb workin is boring so they nd some "entertainment" to spice up their life..yupz...wateva is it...evry company is the same..hmmz....for the sake of money live on...waha...

Yeah..in another 1 more day i m gg off to tw le..yippie...so happy...wonder how is it like..will we hab lots of fun?...haha...this time round be off for 1 wk..sounds long huh....

-Aimless-

选择

是装傻还是不知，
是冷酷还是同情，
是守着还是放弃，
是演示还是露出，
是逃避还是面对，
是注定还是掌控

arr..i change my template le..y my blog kp showin the old template..angry sia..the new blog under google is damn lousy la..i like the previous one la..arrrr..





anyway..gd luck to me tmr..muahha

Rubbish

i finali make up my mind..tats the first tym i m so decisive in a right manner..mayb i shuld learn to b more independent at tym...hopefuli evrything will go fine..

如果

人往往要等到失败后才会后悔。
失败后就会说“如果我以前。。。。现在就会。。。。“

突然觉得这世界变得复杂，
心里好空但又很乱，
是我人太简单了，
所以才把这个世界看得那么乱，
有时很想把自己封闭起来，
活在一个只有我的世界里。

最近看到的和碰到的，
都让我想起从前的点点滴滴。
追求的不是别人的100%，
而是自己的100%。
这世界很奇妙，
以前觉得自己不会碰到的事，
现在一个接一个的都让我碰到了。
哈！好可笑吧？

未来反复模糊，
梦想变得遥远，
霍是我不敢去实现它。

有时有种感想，
反复大家都把她忘了，
是我太铭感了吗？
有些东西失去过才懂得它的可贵，
有些东西可以从来，
但有些没有NG的机会了，
人就是这样的。。。

心情

好久没有那么早起身，
在早晨里，
看到这繁忙的城市，
我暂时抛开烦恼，
带着轻松的脚步走入人群中，
马路上人来人往，
他们的脚步速快，
而车子噼噼噼个不停，
突然有种幸福的感觉，
自少我现在比他门轻松，
可以暂时看看“感受”这世界。

到了十点，
大家都已经到了工作岗位，
那些较早前的人群都已消失了，
留下我独自站在马路中央，
这时又有另一总感觉。




我：what is life?
他：hmmz..i oso duneo..but i think life is something i will do it to the fullest, though i might nt neo wats the outcome. I think its something interesting and wonderful.
我: hmmz..u r so optimistic
他: y?
我: cos at least u think its interesting and wonderful ...

random post

The f up life la...haiz..i duneo...this n that, nothin goes smoothly..y is things oways diff frm wat its planned..

wats life abt?

haiz..some words r hard to b xpressed out..i duneo i hab made the right choice.confused la

2dae its my 100th entry for bloggin..actuali i wanted to blog this 100th entry after xam..n make it a "special entry"..but den...


anyway..life is short do cherish it..juz got to neo the xu weilun, the taiwan actress pass away on sun..tats kinda sad..she was still like in her late 20s...read the news article say tat she still intend to do wat stuff in her 30s like gettin married n treat her family better by giving them more time..hmmz..but den evrything is too late le..she does not hab this chance..anyway juz hope tat she rip..


雨几乎下了，
听完了故事，
反复想起你，
她的故事，
就像我们之间，
没对没错，
但我比她差劲多了，
千万个理由，
但没达到重点，
也许这一次错了
live life with no regrets

Actuali..todae found out i began to like the ic module more..but if there are no testss..hmmz..anyway i like it cos sometimes gt some games n xin ni ze yan..n it or rather the tcher taught me some human skills..from the way we act it can determine our future..hmmz..being a supervisor we mustn't be "emotional blackmail"..must be more agressive n kp ot yr stand..n many more..from the eyes it can tell how reliable a person is..hmmz..it seem interesting...how i hab this "power" then i can c how reliable is that person..


She said " how can any1 change for others..its makes him changeable..n if so which side is the real him?"

Sins

Agn~

yrotsih has taeper flesti niaga....

has tahw it syawo syas:

it sekat 2 sdanh 2 palc, era ew illaer gnibig up siht myt dnuor? ebyam or ebyam ton?

pots gnikniht it 4 won....tsuj dun anaw ekam it tceffa my doom..



igonabstrongtotakeonthechallengeitstimefornojokenbmaturenthinksensible

-a choice-

decision

hmmz..in another mayb 1 mths tym reali gt to say gdbye to sp..though its 3 yrs in there but it seem so fast..still rmb in my past entry still wishin to faster grad..but now as its nearin i m quite unwilling to leave..cos after tat its either work or studyin..yupz..which way to go?...so confusin..if work..i oso duneo wat i m gg to work as..想做但害怕自己梦想着..if study oso must nd to depend on wat i wana work in future..yah..times reali flies..gg to rch the age of 20 le..wow...so fast..mayb its time to b serious..thinkin abt mine future

美好的时光一瞬间远远离去

唯一美丽的它断了
无法挽回
他们都说
再买一个新的
但却不知道
它带表了什么
只有拥有的才知

害怕我们的友情像它一样催罗

昨天上了人生的一程课，
内容不必多说，
也是我很久没遇到的问题
站在马路的中央
不断的徘徊，思考着
向左走还是向右走？

或许不想着改变
还是我很顽固，
还是害怕受在一次的失败

New year is coming..haben thut of any resoltuion...

xmas post

On the xmas eve went to sh home to cele..we brainstorm n decided to cook our own christmas dish..last yr we prepare steamboat for christmas, this yr we dcide to cook western food..haha...we meet at vivocity de giant at 430pm to buy our necessary things..wow vivocity was damn crowded..evryone dressed at their best for the countdown party..but some oso nv reali dress up lar..anyway we went to giant to get chicken fillet, fish filiet, fries, campbell soup, the french bread, fruits n so on....after getting all the goceries it was about 6plus le...den we thut of gg to bakerzin to buy our logcake..but in the end bakerin disappoint us no logcake sia..we went to swendsen to buy..wah the queue at swendsen was damn long...so many people queuing up to eat dinner..after buyin our logcake we chiong to sh home...cos from sh home the bus journey nd about 30min..but the dry ice can onli tahan 45min sia..

so ard 7pm we rch sh hm.. me n sy cut the fruits to prepare our fruit salad..tsktsk peelin of fruit skin n cuttin of fruits was no easy task..haha..while sh n jj preare the campbell soup thngy n deep fry the fillet n fries...wah we preapre all this till ard 830 den start eating sia..the dishes gt fries, fillet, nuggets, campbell with bread, fruit salad...haha..a sumpteous dinner sia..haha..but overall the food was not bad..but then we cook too much sia..waste some food...

our sumpteous dinner

after dinner, we were all lazy to clear up the plates..so we juz chat around n slack around...ard 10 we den start clearin up the plates...but in the end is sh maid wash the plate sia..haha..after clearing up, we slack around takin some random pic...

one of the random cool pic

we are some kind of illegal people being caught by police

after habin fun with the camera, we den went up to sh room to watch tv..again slack around n waiting for 12am to come..finali the arrival of 12am..yippie..we went downstair to hab our logcake..waha...its icecream log cake..coolz..choclate one..we were eating the log cake in a barbarian way..haha...we juz use our forks n dig the cake..but as usual we cnt finish it

After eatin the logcake, the guys play with the dry ice n invent some stuff..actuali wana upload the video abt the dry ice..but tat dumb utube upload so long..in the end forgo the idea of uploadin le.this dry ice invetion causes a mild explosion...n this things entertain us for about 15min or more sia..haha...

after all this, jj n wj went home...left we 5 gals at sh home...hmmz..5 of us has nothin much to do..fio play the piano den ch play the guitar..i was like gg to fell aslp soon sia..sy was slackin ard...den awhile latr i try playin the piano..it seem hard though..haiz..then after tat we watch some tv n clips...ard 4 am we tuck in...xz den came..sh went downstair to enterain xz...then awhile latr sy went down to eat her tibits..haha she hungry sia..they about 5am den slp..after tat slp slp slp...10am woke up...prepare some stuff..watch tv..den fio,ch,sy n me went to clementi eat lunch..sh went out wif her family to eat..we went to the jap restaurant..the food damn cheap..but the food tatse okok nia lar..after eatin, we went to clementi big book shop cos fio wana buy superglue...after tat was ard 2 plus le..den we went home le...tats how i pass my xmas eve..

no pt gg bac to the past cos its over and will not return..

supper

supper anyone?? anyone hungry can call me out for supper sia..haha..so bored sia..recently hab some thuts..i think tat if i hab some fren who live near my home as in few blocks away it will be damn great..haha..cos if at nite cn call him come out n eat supper or chit chat..when bored cn meet up with him..or sometimes cn go jogging or night cycling 2gata.can play badminton...cn visit each other house..tat would be so fun...even if we go out, we can go home 2gata..gt a company mahz ..but then too bad sia..no hab sia...

actuali last tym when i m in pri schl abt pri 1 or 2 use to hab de..she juz live a block aaway from mine..we used to be damn gd frenz..used to go to her home and play..her bdae she will invite me to her party..but due to some reasons, our friendship severed le..so now..no hab anymore..

-naive-

部落格里含的意识，
我想我明白，
不知该同情，
或是冷酷无情，
或许这一切都与我无关，
批评的空间轮不到我


在人生的道路上，
遇见的人让我长大一些，
慢慢接近大人的世界，
远远离开小孩的一切，
或许沉默是我用来对代未来，
而欢乐是我放下用沉墨代替

yipyip..its finali the arrival of 3 wk holi...so happy..this will b the last holi in my poly life....in another few months time gg to grad from poly le...hmmz...wed juz attended my grad party...the perormance by the kinderlands kids r so cute...though they dance not v.professional..haha..but then they entertained all of us...so mighty of them...so young but yet make us laugh so happily..sometimes juz so pei fu wif the kids..they can dance daringly n will not bother about whether is it dui lian or not..unlyt the adults..they will care about their face..anyway quite admire one of the tcher..though she nv taught me b4..but tat day she sang a song dedicating to her food students..n i think she rox...y ic no tcher dedicate song to us de..haha.so unfair..sobz..
hmmz..anyway when they display the clips on our life in poly...i suddenly think tat i will miss sp..haha..miss the tchers..miss the foodcourt..miss evrything..thought i will not miss the stuff...mayb 3yrs of life in there will make me somehow miss them...saw the students tahnkin their tcher but too bad i nv been feature in the clips..i shall thx them here in the blog though they will nv c it..but nvm...hmmz..i wana specially thx the tcher which i feel they r damn gd..ahha..jeff whey..ms tan hwee bin..mrs tan..kwok..hta..hmmz tats all..waha...aiya n also those who taught me lar...dun say dun hab..
how i wish study life will nv end..but sometimes its so miserable to study..haiz...after the clips thingy went to t1a to eat the buffet n after phototaking session den went home le...was so tired...zzz...

fri went to eat steamboat wif slack...went to tian tian huo guo to eat..wah the steamboat so ex..tsktsk...nxt tym dun wana go there le..but i think the tom yam nt bac..hurmp..after tat was so thirsty den went to a dessert shop to est dessert or rather drink water..hmmz..we were all thinkin wat to do for christmas..hmmz...after tat..duneo y..some1 suggest we go buy 4d.waha..each person gib one no.den we decided to bet on 4 no....buy on sat n sun...1st time buying 4d sia...hope lao tian will bless me..lolz/.///..hehe..after the number choosing session...we were all crazy..kp imagining wat to do after we strike 4d...drive posh car..den go ex hotel eat...wear nice shirt..haha..like we strike a few millions sia..waha...pray hard we todae n tmr will strike 1st prize...wahah....tonite 7pm must stay tune at the tv text c gt strike not..hehe..

hmmz..todae earli morning went to temple wif my mama....wat a filial girl..hehe...eh dun think i go there pray to strike 4d worz..waha...aiya i pei my mama go out of kindnesss sia..she kp on askin me to pei her...think she feel lonely..waha...after prayin den go vivo shopshop a while den went home le...hmmz..tats the end of the day...shall end here...




if life is a book..wat is your tile of the last chpt?..

hmmz...mayb things might not be as it seem...ple might appear to be bad..but mayb they hab kind intentin...or mayb people might appear to be friendly to u but actuali they r bad....human r juz so unfathomable...the more u wana undertsand dem the more dey r diff to be understood..recently sort of wrong k n c....thut they r bad...but in the end they are not as bad as they seem...mayb shuld understand more shuld not judge them by thier cover....yupz...

Gg to the place remind me of smthin...we hab once agree to go there b4 gg to s...but things change..hopefuli we wuld hab the chance...i believe we will hab the chance

sometimes feel tat i m juz tokin to the air....mayb its beta to not tok at times....

Its been a long time since i do something i like most... mayb life is juz busy or its another reason..was thinkin after watching the i not stupid show yst though the movie its long tym ago ...its say if u wana do something u like den do it to the fullest...but i feel tat depend whether u r giben the chance to proe yr potential..aiya duneo wat i m crappin abt..shall end here...

-silence-

finali fyp is offically over le...yippie...finali can put an end to fyp..hmmz..todae fyp was so nervous..as usual no confidence to present and i suck in expressing..anyway juz hope i gt do well bahz..my eyelid gib jumping since sat..mayb its a bad sign..haiz...anyway...since fyp its over so let be it..for this wk i cn relax abit..nxt wk nd to study for test agn..hmmz....


Juz thinking bac..feel that for the past few wk has been neglecting my fren..so long nv meet up wif dem le..so busy wif fyp n tests...felt quite guilty abt it...so sianz..how i wish life can be not so busy at tym...been rushing here n there mayb hab miss some wonderful parts of life...
anyway been wondering alot some times...wondering abt friends wondering abt life wondering abt ple character n this n that...

yawnz...so tired todae...feel that all my energy r gone..mayb i shall slp earli tonite...

-potential-

life's unfair

the moment i rch home...i haben even put down my bags..i juz step into the house..den ma yell at me ...hey todae go out nv close window..the whole floor was wet...i was damn pissed off...juz rch home nia...gana all this shit...yell at me...den nvm....awhile latr i go watch tv...den bro came bac...den ma walk out off the kitchen...scream at me agn...yst raining nv kp the clothing ar...the neighbour call nv listen to the phone...i was lyt sian diaoz....yst gt ple ph hm mehz....as if i m deaf wun hear the ph ring....she rather believe the neighbour den me....tat neighbour oso another de lar..blurblur one duneo she gt call the wrong no. not lor...haiz...den she say yst gt remind me to kp the clothes before she go out le...i was lyt diao...she gt call me mehz...she called bro lor...as if i gt stm will 4get wat she say in a few hours...aiya she evrytym lyt tat de...evrything blame me...she nv scold him at all de lor....she is damn biased de...all is my fault sia, evrytym my fault....its damn unfair de...the more she scold me the more i hate him sia...is it being the elder one must b responsible for evrything...get the scoldin n all tat....i rather nt to be the elder one...all even not to b born into this world...was realli damn pissed off...haiz....wateva....it spoil my mood for todae...T_T

one incident can affect the day mood

Mixed-feelin

Nothin special this mornin, but just feel lyt blogging thtas all. Life is pretty busy, how i wish 7dec faster arrived, by then mos of the tests are over and of cosh fyp is den over. Now finding info for my formal rpt which is due tmr. hab been finding the info since yst, the tcher gav us such a hard formal rpt to do, no info can be found on the internet,haiz.

Yst was thinkin abt human nature..Juz feel lyt evryone sometimes will show their fake side somehow or another..u muight did it not-knowing-ly..hmmz..They might appear to be good with u.but then behind u they might backstab u or wat..Sometimes its makes ple wonder is that prsn sayin the truth cos they duneo which are the truth n which are the fake..This not only happen in working life, schl life oso will happen too..Mayb showin their fake side is for self-denfense, or juz to make evryone happy n to avoid conflict. Juz as i say in my older entry, children(kindgeratan or pri schl) life r much happier, they wun backstab u or wat n they r v.innocent.

Anyway, yst bro n dad had a short arguing.hmmz..sometimes i m gettin to hate bro, his action,his attitude irk me. I think he has change bahz somehow or rather. Nowadays when he quarrel wif dad he would use vulgarity #%^%*.. i hate ple using vulgaity even they r in the right position or wat n somemore use on my parents..how can sia..he would den scream n slam the damn door n den my ma wuld go into his room n say cnt scold vulgar n blah blah blah....so wat ..he still haben change yet..juz feel tat mayb ma too pampered him n let him become lyt tat. Sometimes juz feel lyt gibin him a tight slap on his face. Wateva.i wun tch him how to zhuo ren, cos his life is up to him to choose, wat can i do.. juz hope he can wake up n stop using vulgarity to release his anger ..

ok yah tats all for todae...bac to rpt-in tym..yawnz...@_@




Can the present be exchangable for the past?

sianzzzz

AARgh~...y no hab any any info on paracetamol in the intenet wan....so angry...find so long ..still no info...mon gg to hand in the formal rpt..but still cnt find any info...find until so pek chek le..yawnz..





thut evything its over but its nt...

Juz got bac home nt long ago. This few days has been reaching home late. Most of the days stay in the schl library pia-in fyp rpt until 7 plus den went home. Tmr still nd to pia fyp logbk, mon nd to hand in..haiz wonder went den i will be free...so busy with fyp and tests..i think not onli my grp r rushin fyp..other grp r also sia..hope dem all the best...hope we will do well in fyp sia..anyway yst receive a msg frm my cousin she has open a manicure shop call muemue( a cute name sia)..haha...anyway if anyone wana do manicure can go to her shop..haha
shop add:
33 mohamad,sultan rd, #02-12

hmmz..not bad sia...she open a business her sis(which is my another cousin)...hmmz...last tym use to c her v.often went i was attending pri schl..but nowadays ..i onli see her once a yr (cny)...hmmz...we r all busy with our own lifes...n i miss my grandparent cos its been 9 months since i last saw dem..though we didn't tok to one another much due to communication prob..anyway quite envy my cousin got capital to open a shop on her own...hmmz..i think i can never a shop bahz....haha..no money sia..waha..if i were to open a shop..hmmz ...mayb i can try opening a restaurant..waha..no lar..i seriously nv thut of opening a shop on my own...i juz wana b a ming xin can le( a dream nia)..haha....cos i feel tats so cool sia..n mayb still gt fan club somemore..waha..mayb i m thinkin to much..
while studyin for my test yst..was thinkin tat time flies sia..cos in another few months time i m gg to graduate soon...mayb i will miss my poly fren somehow....will we contact or will we lost contact...will we say hi to one another while walkin dwn the street somedays..will we think of one another or rmb another..
dun feel lyt workin so soon..mayb might consider further my study in local or private uni but den oso duneo wat course to study on..hmmz..

-differences-

Punctuality = Responsiblity

Mayb nowadays ple r neglecting the sense of punctuality. Is it bcos they fear to wait or was it becos they are taking things for granted...5 min is consider late, 10 min is also consider late, 15 min is oso consider late...so mayb its doesnt matter to b hw late..is tat true?..but to me 5min is acceptable, 10min ok cn tolerate...but 20minutes n above ..hmmz tat bad~.....

Actuali i sometimes also tend to be late..i m late due to various factors..sometimes is due to bus..sometimes is i hab bad time magnagement..n sometimes i dun wana wait for other( i rather other wait for me..hehe.. ) hmmz n i m oways late for lecture..mayb i m takin things for granted when the tcher didn't say anything abt it..thinkin tat they should be immune about it..

Todae attend the lc lesson n was readin a story on puctuality..the gal actuali let her frenz to wait for 1 whole hour n in the end didn't feel any remorse but argue back when her fren was angry with her . She bcame caculative saying she let her waited for 5minutes on the other day..hmmz..if i were in her fren situation i will be damn pissed. i rather go home den meet her..haha...







-Sense-

Tired

I was so tired today. i woke up at 12pm and took my breakfast. After breakfast, i went back to sleep again. I woke up at 3pm but was still phycically n mentally tired. I dun neo y...was it becos of fyp or was i running away from smthing..hmmz ..hw i wish i could be more awake and not so restless..


Hate the start of nxt week.. Nxt week onwards is going to be horrible...gg to hand in edited-fyp rpt agn...the fyp rpt is driving me crazy gt so many things to edit and nd to think of hw to ans k's ans sia..argh~..then gt 2 test...n den nxt nxt wk gg to hab 2 test agn( 1 of the test sux, gg to hab alot of memory work to do) den nd to hand in formal rpt...after den soon its gg to fyp presentation..blahblahblah...how i wish the 3 wks holi to come soon...haiz...






休息是为走根长远的路，但害怕的是要休息的时间也没有

fypsuxbigtime

all because of fyp

evryone gone crazy
slpin late at nite
neglecting one another not knowingly
worrying abt the dateline of fyp




we r all being control by a non living things



abolish fyp~

读完文章
留下的是悲伤

记得在巴士上
一起唱的歌
那不是一首简单的歌
因为它在我们的心里
留下了一个回忆


事情慢慢转变
彼此各忙各的
但我们彼此都不想回到从前
努力挽救
求的只是一个的结果