Tired

I was so tired today. i woke up at 12pm and took my breakfast. After breakfast, i went back to sleep again. I woke up at 3pm but was still phycically n mentally tired. I dun neo y...was it becos of fyp or was i running away from smthing..hmmz ..hw i wish i could be more awake and not so restless..


Hate the start of nxt week.. Nxt week onwards is going to be horrible...gg to hand in edited-fyp rpt agn...the fyp rpt is driving me crazy gt so many things to edit and nd to think of hw to ans k's ans sia..argh~..then gt 2 test...n den nxt nxt wk gg to hab 2 test agn( 1 of the test sux, gg to hab alot of memory work to do) den nd to hand in formal rpt...after den soon its gg to fyp presentation..blahblahblah...how i wish the 3 wks holi to come soon...haiz...






休息是为走根长远的路，但害怕的是要休息的时间也没有

fypsuxbigtime

all because of fyp

evryone gone crazy
slpin late at nite
neglecting one another not knowingly
worrying abt the dateline of fyp




we r all being control by a non living things



abolish fyp~

读完文章
留下的是悲伤

记得在巴士上
一起唱的歌
那不是一首简单的歌
因为它在我们的心里
留下了一个回忆


事情慢慢转变
彼此各忙各的
但我们彼此都不想回到从前
努力挽救
求的只是一个的结果

bored..

stuck at home for whole day
can't wait for elearning week
den can relax abit

todae when to cityhall to shopshop for my ma bdae prez...walk here n there in the end got nothin....when i was abt to go home tat tym when to the toilet beside quicksilver de...den the toilet qeueue was damn long...in front of me was standing 2 gals..one gal dressed in black n the other dressed in white t-shirt..the gal who dressed in black seem somehow mature though she look lyt 17yrs old tat kinda..the white shirt gal seem much kiddy n dressed much lok kok den the black shirt gal (she oso look lyt 17yrs old lar)..then tat white shirt gal standing bhind the black shirt gal den put her head on the black shirt gal shoulder ..at 1st i was thinkin wah they are over-intimate as a fren sia..but then this part was nothin as compared to the nxt scene..the two gals den went in to the same cubicle..i was lyt-_-"....wth dey so urgent to pee ar..nd to go in to the same cubicle..nvm den i went to pee too..when dey came out of the cubicle i think the one who is gg to use their cubicle was shock or wat lar den stare at dem...i think i would oso b lyt tat lar..when i c two grown up gals comin out from a single cubicle..den when they were abt to get out of the toilet (i was standng behind dem to get out of the toilet too)..teh black shirt gal den turn over n shouted to tat lady who stare at dem" wats wif the stare..nv c before lesbian is it"..den the white shirt gal giggle away..i was lyt wth...ok lar..so wats if u guys r lesbian, its there anything to b proud of..no nd to go to the same cubicle or wat shit lar...tryin to show off u guys r lesbian or wat..-_-..wats wif the world nw sia..bisexual is on the trend is it..hmmz..




不想是逃避,逃避未必快乐

不能被褥据
是因为我们不能
或是我们都没尽力过
大家带着失望离开
拼命的找借口
安慰自己
让自己好过一些


That night, it seem so nice and enjoyable, we finally found the feeling we once lost. Even though we didn't manage to complete our main objective but the journey was still worthwhile. This journey let me understand more about this world. 为何要自己扛着重重的背包，如果把背包的东西分给周围的人，这一来会让自己好过一些。Maybe i should learn and move towards it.
However, a beautiful picture without color is not yet complete. It would be even more pleasant if color was painted to it.

渐渐的开始懂了
是因为了解了
或是详细的看了

想着改变
但大家都不知该从哪里开始
大家反复都迷失自己心中的指南针
进还是退


当她们说她们选择了那个答案
我也没想那么多
只是不犹豫选择自己的答案
但现在回想
或许我也和她们如此一样
是因为大家的来原都一样吗。。。

《小时候的我们》

闭上眼睛
去感受我们的童年。。。

大家都很无知
见的世面不多
做错事时，
大家都会说还小不懂事，
而爸妈就威胁我们吃果条烦恼的东西很少计较的不多

梦想好多，
有真实的，
有很夸张的

想哭就哭，
想笑就笑，
想气就气，
绝不会带着假面具做人

很容易逗我们开心
而我们的笑容在那一刻是最真实和灿烂的

Abt her

In this quiet and late night
she sat there alone
with soothing music played along
staring out of the window
deep in her thoughts
sooner or later she knew no one
she feel so lost in the crowded city
she feel so lonely even though there are lots of people around her
the people once close to her seemed like stranger now
no one understand her inner side
and she just cannot understand their behaviour
she tried to open up but..its seemed so harrrd
she attempt to 4get but the scene seem so vivid
loneliness and sadness overwhelmed her
but not a drop of tear drip down her tired eyes..

Recently,i juz can't slp earli..hab been slpin at ard 3am even though i m physically v.tired..kp thinking of alot of stuffs, thinking of this n that. Anyway, time passes so fast, in another 2 days tym, i will go genting le. This is the 1st time i m gg oversea wif frenz(though go to neighbourin country nia), felt quite excited and abit scared..lolz...can't wait for wednesday to come..yippie..hmmz..then after genting trip, i m gg to chiong to ecp for night cycling..though its quite tiring but once in a while its damn cool sia..cycle frm ecp to changi..feel the cool breeze, the excitement , the silence @ the night and the c-in of ah-guah(kidding lar) ..wateva it is..nxt wk is gg to b a interesting one..





Enjoy life today, yesterday is gone and tomorrow may never come

人的不完美

人总是觉得自己很完美
而觉得周围的人有缺点
是自己和别人的想法不一样
而造称自己觉得周围的人有缺点

人总是爱计较
老是想着别人付出的多少
而从不想到自己可以为别人付出多少

人往往把自己放在第一
做任何事都从自己的角度看
绝望了别人的感受

人很矛盾
有时为了想改进自己
为了让周围的人更喜欢他门
但他们绝迷失了原来的自己
有时会让周围更讨厌他们

他们

好多话说不出口
不懂得这么去表达
许多想法都不一样
太多的不了解
无意间的忽略
我们之间朋友的定义都不一样
这一切的一切不知该怪自己或对他们失望

宽念不同
彼此都不沉实
而都不信任
小憩的我们
都不让对方
以再而三威胁的你
让我渐渐的恨你

这一切的一切造成那一夜的我们

two-sided

是否每个人都会有双面/性格呢？

有时的自己是没有同情心的
而有时的自己是有良心的

有时的自己是那么的催落
而有时的自己是那么的坚强

有时的自己是倔强
而有时的自己是那么的拿不定主意

有时的自己是坏
而有时的自己是好的

有时的自己是那么的爱玩
而有时的自己是用功的

有时的自己是沉默
而有时的自己是超 high

有时的自己是顽固
而有时的自己又不是

到底哪一个是真真的自己呢？

-who vs. who-

click

m bac to post agn...exam is finali over...finali..yeah! but i was not happy as i thut i would be...anyway after xam went to ps to watch click...
wow~ click is a damn nice movie ..
its a mixture of not just comedy but oso kinship and abit of sdaness...i m quite amazed on hw the director manage to come up wif a funny yet emotional-filled movie..so i encourage evry1 to watch it...while watching this movie, it left me hab lots of thuts n emotion-filled...so i will briefly describe the movie

The main character(duneo wats his name), he oways place is career 1st and family 2nd...so when he got this so call universal remote he can control the ple/stages of his life....whenever he quarrel with his wife or wat he will fast forward them and as a result he will miss some parts of his life...so i was wondering if it's gd to hav this unversial remote to juz fast forward to the best moment of yr life which you wanted but in the mean time u will miss out some stages of yr life and cannot experience them agn n might regret...
The main character as i said placed his career 1st and neglect his dad n family members...he skipped his children growing up while fast forwarding his life..and oso its such a pity, when he realised that his dad had passed away, he was remorseful as when his dad died he didn't even attend his funeral cos he had fast-forwarded his life....this part of the movie makes me some thuts..the mian character didn't xpress hw much he love his dad n took his dad's love for him for granted until he died n its too late...i was thinking i oso din xpress hw much i love my parent esp to my mama or even to my friends..不是我不要，而是我不会。mayb u guys might think its sound ridiculous..hw can be duneo de..i juz duneo..mayb i dun hab the courage or wats..
And also the main chracter while pursuing his career has neglect his family..so i was thinking hab u guys stop doin wat u r busying wif n spent more tym u yr love ones b4 its too late... cos u might be missing some interesting part of yr life....或许人在失去后才懂得珍惜吧...
so after watching this movie...i rather not to hab this universal remote n juz go thru my life step by step......

-stand by me-

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter
I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through
Cause it's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on Calvary Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose contro
l Cause it's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
To you

喜欢一个人不一定要拥有他/她

这故事是关与两个不同的人....


她是一个想天长地久的人

爱他是应该放手,
因为她看不见幸福,
虽然天天细念着他,
心里有点不舍,
但她更害怕受伤害,
"别对我太好,
我怕我忘不了,
别对我太好,
我怕我想走也走不掉"
或许这样是更完美的一个结局,



他是一个在乎成轻拥有的人

他把爱看得很简单,
爱她不应该放手,
而是一起勇敢的面对困难,
他一次一次的试着挽留她,
"别对我太好,
我怕你走了,
我承受不了"
他依然相信爱情可以解决一切








nothin is constant expcept for changes

yst..went to sh's hm to celebrate my bdae...though nt evry1 is present but still its kinda fun...we went to make sushi...but sad to say..the making of suhsi its a failure..hehe...firstly the rice is quite soft..secondly the wrapping of sushi is oso a failure..and lastly cutting of sushi was v.hard..hmmz..after eating of sushi we ate popiah..yummy..sh's ah ma de popiah was veri nice..but i put qiute alot of chilli in the end it tasted quite hot sia..

den after we ate popiah we sat ard to chat ...sh suddenly said wat we gg to do in our future...the 3 of dem hab sort of thut abt wat they wana b le..ch wana b a xin ni yi sen n oso open a shop....sy gg to take over his dad business...sh wana open a shoe shop...as for me, seriously i nv ren ren zheng zheng de thut abt this qns b4 bahz...my childhood dream's gt alot..gt bcum doctor, air stewardess, actress.... but as i grew up all this dream bcame juz a dream..i find that all these r kinda unrealistic bahz...i reali duneo wat i gg to b sehz...mayb in the end i juz b a normal lab technician bahz...

sh oso said will we remained lyt this when we grow old..will we still crap with one another? will we continue suan-in one another?...we believe tat we will even when we aged..^^...i reali wonder wats is our topic lyt when we r 30 plus or 40 plus, i reali cnt imagine we will gather ard n discuss hw our kids r doin in schl, or which market's food is the freshest..haha...

oso ch questioned us wat we gona do for our 21th bade celebration...smthin surprised n amused me is wat ch wana do...she wana held a bade cele in mac ...gt ronald mac come n entertain us...hmmz..at 1st it reali amused me..but after hearin ch xplanation i accept her idea..haha..tats her childhood dream to hab cele in mac...hmmz..i think i nv hab celebratn go attend party in mav bahz..nt bad to go bac to our childhood times...as for me..agn i duneo....but i will consider this questn durin this 2 yr bahz...i hab thut abt holdin a chalet but its kinda ma fan n tiring..u nd to plan wat u wana to or else it will be kinda bored..anyway yst ch said smthin which strike me..she said even though went we gather ard we might nt tok at tym but the feelin is still gd.. oh yah...i hab juz realised we hab known each other for abt 7 yrs le...so fast...though its seem lyt we hab known each other for 2 yrs nia..hehe..n we oso realised we nv hab big quarrel b4 cos we all r calm n rational ple, n will considered each other feelin...i juz felt tat yst conversatn was kinda heart-warmin..i juz feel tat slack is smthin which kept our friendship gg...


hmmz...anyway thx for the prez given by slack...i was xpectin a shirt or wat..so when i recieved tat prez was kinda "hard-to-believe" ...haha...i seriously lyt it..thx u guys...n i enjoy the tym spendin wif u guys ...it will reali bring my trouble n sadness away...mayb i suld feel fortuanate as compared to other ple out dere who nv haD zhi tong dao he de frenz...hehez..tc...bb...

...promises r easily made n at the same tym dey r oso easily broken...

advance celebration

hehe..todae was v.memorable..haha cos my poly clique help me cele my bdae..although its still earli but i reali appreciate wat dey hab done..

hmmz...should i say the whole story?..nope..me kinda lazy to write evrything out..anyway..todae st,wn n ms dey collabrate wif my mama to trick me lor...omg..i din xpect my mama will collabrate wif the 3 to cele my bdae..waha..1st dey trick me to tb den i walk home...den dey appear in my home to gib me a surprise..was kinda shock to c dem sia...haha..din xpect they would be/in my home..haha...ok lar..was sort of gan dong...sing bdae song for me..cut cake...gib me present...soon we set off..we went to ecp...we went to ms dere to eat..wah eat alot sehz..eat until my stomach gg to xplode le..but the foods v.nice..yummy~..hehe...after dinner..dey began to act suspiciously..haha...nt onli after dinner mayb is the whole day..lolz..ok..den after dinner..dey made me wait outside the toilet for 20min..tsktsk..kelian de me..haha..cos dey nd to go make smthing..a surprise..waha..after waiting for 20min...st finali come to "fetch" me..lolz..she bought me to a shelter den i saw their masterpiece sehz..waha..so nice..too bad i dun hab the photo or else cn show..hehe..n dey bought the firework thingy(duneo wats is tat called)...n we play n play..until the whole shelter was damn smoky..haha....n st hurt herself while lighting the fireworks..i think todae seem to be a bad day for her...n oso dey bought vodka for me...dey knew i wana tried drinkin alcohol so dey fulfil my wish..waha...but out of 3 bottle dey bought onli 1 tasted nice..so in the end we hab to play zhong zi mi ma to clear the alcohol..lolz..after drinking, i was kinda mild drunk, but i think winnie more serious..haha..winnie n ms face turn red sehz..haha..den after drinkin we went home leh...but smthin funny happen to me sia..so ps sia..omg...u knoe i m mild drunk le..den me n ms was gg to sit mrt home...ms chiong into the mrt whereas for me i was lyt strollin to get into the mrt cos i nv heard the train was gg to close the door..den when i was abt to enter the train the door was 1/4 shut..thinkin omg n panicking..ms was inside den i haben get into the train..duneo y i suddenly use my both hand n try to force open the mrt door..omg..i think i reali drunk le..if i m awake i wun do such a dui lian thing sias..argh~...but in the end i think the mrt driver saw me or watz..the door open n i quickly board onto the train..ms was laughing at me..hurmp..but i think it was reali damn funny..it will be the 1st n last tym i will b doin tat bahz..hehe...ok lar..shall end here..anyway juz wana thx st,ms,wn,mama for gibin me a surprise..hehe..luv u all...tata...

....距离是美....

frenz

we may fight,
we may quarrel,
we may disagree,
we may neglect one another,
we may yell at each other,

But on behalf of "frenz" this word

we will 4give ,
we will giv in ,
we will accomodate n compromise
we will get on our feet n b fren agn..

tats wats the difference of being a fren




waha above is a "poem" created by me..waha...juz feel kinda bored nw n dun feel lyt slpin..hehe...anyway tmr match will be germany vs. portugal...though the chances of portugal winning is slim but i still support dem..gogogo portugal...aiya evn if germany win i oso dun mind lar..but the best is portugal win lor...as for the finals i wun comment much..cos its italy vs. france..i m nt interested in both of the team..but i hope france will lose cos i hate dem lyt hell...waha...opps....oh yah anyway todae is my ex-itp colleague last day of work sia..x.w and w.k...hope dem all the best in wateva dey do bahz..hmmz..anyway hab the urge to drink some alcohol..waha..feel lyt xperiencin the taste of being drunk n 4get abt evrything..waha..dun say i m a wild gal..i m v.zhenG jing de ok!...hmmz...anyway i will end here le...cya..tc evry1..bb..nitey~




我们要把恨拿出来才可以把爱放进去

recently, i had not been online in msn...knoe y..haha...cos my com crash sia...sadz~....now no computer to use le...luckily, my mama borrow her company come home lend me use...do my project n stuff...hehe..hengheng...but quite sad..cos all my songs r gone..argh~...and oso maple no more le..sadz...nvm...wait till my new cpu /hardisk to come bahz...kelian...anyway tonite match is portugal vs. france...please let portugal win sia...i reali hate france sia..it eliminate spain n brazil sia...all of dem r my fav team leh..hw could france be so power~..argh~...anyway germany lost to italy..they final r kinda borin le cos all the powerful team r gana eliminate le...sianz...recently was kinda low...oh yah..i fell in love with a band called x-japan..nt their appearance lar is their songs..dey are a old band le.all the members look old le..waha..s dun xpect me to fell in love wif dem..waha..i think dey oreadi disband le bahz..i juz got to listen thier songs n fell in love wif their songs..waha...especially the song called "forever love"..their songs are v.touching sia..i cn somehow sense the sadness..waha..i m nt kidding ..its real...
haiz..so sianz..ok lar ..i wana end here..go study for tmr quiz..tata ^_^~






we lost our dreams along the way