yipyip..its finali the arrival of 3 wk holi...so happy..this will b the last holi in my poly life....in another few months time gg to grad from poly le...hmmz...wed juz attended my grad party...the perormance by the kinderlands kids r so cute...though they dance not v.professional..haha..but then they entertained all of us...so mighty of them...so young but yet make us laugh so happily..sometimes juz so pei fu wif the kids..they can dance daringly n will not bother about whether is it dui lian or not..unlyt the adults..they will care about their face..anyway quite admire one of the tcher..though she nv taught me b4..but tat day she sang a song dedicating to her food students..n i think she rox...y ic no tcher dedicate song to us de..haha.so unfair..sobz..
hmmz..anyway when they display the clips on our life in poly...i suddenly think tat i will miss sp..haha..miss the tchers..miss the foodcourt..miss evrything..thought i will not miss the stuff...mayb 3yrs of life in there will make me somehow miss them...saw the students tahnkin their tcher but too bad i nv been feature in the clips..i shall thx them here in the blog though they will nv c it..but nvm...hmmz..i wana specially thx the tcher which i feel they r damn gd..ahha..jeff whey..ms tan hwee bin..mrs tan..kwok..hta..hmmz tats all..waha...aiya n also those who taught me lar...dun say dun hab..
how i wish study life will nv end..but sometimes its so miserable to study..haiz...after the clips thingy went to t1a to eat the buffet n after phototaking session den went home le...was so tired...zzz...

fri went to eat steamboat wif slack...went to tian tian huo guo to eat..wah the steamboat so ex..tsktsk...nxt tym dun wana go there le..but i think the tom yam nt bac..hurmp..after tat was so thirsty den went to a dessert shop to est dessert or rather drink water..hmmz..we were all thinkin wat to do for christmas..hmmz...after tat..duneo y..some1 suggest we go buy 4d.waha..each person gib one no.den we decided to bet on 4 no....buy on sat n sun...1st time buying 4d sia...hope lao tian will bless me..lolz/.///..hehe..after the number choosing session...we were all crazy..kp imagining wat to do after we strike 4d...drive posh car..den go ex hotel eat...wear nice shirt..haha..like we strike a few millions sia..waha...pray hard we todae n tmr will strike 1st prize...wahah....tonite 7pm must stay tune at the tv text c gt strike not..hehe..

hmmz..todae earli morning went to temple wif my mama....wat a filial girl..hehe...eh dun think i go there pray to strike 4d worz..waha...aiya i pei my mama go out of kindnesss sia..she kp on askin me to pei her...think she feel lonely..waha...after prayin den go vivo shopshop a while den went home le...hmmz..tats the end of the day...shall end here...




if life is a book..wat is your tile of the last chpt?..

hmmz...mayb things might not be as it seem...ple might appear to be bad..but mayb they hab kind intentin...or mayb people might appear to be friendly to u but actuali they r bad....human r juz so unfathomable...the more u wana undertsand dem the more dey r diff to be understood..recently sort of wrong k n c....thut they r bad...but in the end they are not as bad as they seem...mayb shuld understand more shuld not judge them by thier cover....yupz...

Gg to the place remind me of smthin...we hab once agree to go there b4 gg to s...but things change..hopefuli we wuld hab the chance...i believe we will hab the chance

sometimes feel tat i m juz tokin to the air....mayb its beta to not tok at times....

Its been a long time since i do something i like most... mayb life is juz busy or its another reason..was thinkin after watching the i not stupid show yst though the movie its long tym ago ...its say if u wana do something u like den do it to the fullest...but i feel tat depend whether u r giben the chance to proe yr potential..aiya duneo wat i m crappin abt..shall end here...

-silence-

finali fyp is offically over le...yippie...finali can put an end to fyp..hmmz..todae fyp was so nervous..as usual no confidence to present and i suck in expressing..anyway juz hope i gt do well bahz..my eyelid gib jumping since sat..mayb its a bad sign..haiz...anyway...since fyp its over so let be it..for this wk i cn relax abit..nxt wk nd to study for test agn..hmmz....


Juz thinking bac..feel that for the past few wk has been neglecting my fren..so long nv meet up wif dem le..so busy wif fyp n tests...felt quite guilty abt it...so sianz..how i wish life can be not so busy at tym...been rushing here n there mayb hab miss some wonderful parts of life...
anyway been wondering alot some times...wondering abt friends wondering abt life wondering abt ple character n this n that...

yawnz...so tired todae...feel that all my energy r gone..mayb i shall slp earli tonite...

-potential-

life's unfair

the moment i rch home...i haben even put down my bags..i juz step into the house..den ma yell at me ...hey todae go out nv close window..the whole floor was wet...i was damn pissed off...juz rch home nia...gana all this shit...yell at me...den nvm....awhile latr i go watch tv...den bro came bac...den ma walk out off the kitchen...scream at me agn...yst raining nv kp the clothing ar...the neighbour call nv listen to the phone...i was lyt sian diaoz....yst gt ple ph hm mehz....as if i m deaf wun hear the ph ring....she rather believe the neighbour den me....tat neighbour oso another de lar..blurblur one duneo she gt call the wrong no. not lor...haiz...den she say yst gt remind me to kp the clothes before she go out le...i was lyt diao...she gt call me mehz...she called bro lor...as if i gt stm will 4get wat she say in a few hours...aiya she evrytym lyt tat de...evrything blame me...she nv scold him at all de lor....she is damn biased de...all is my fault sia, evrytym my fault....its damn unfair de...the more she scold me the more i hate him sia...is it being the elder one must b responsible for evrything...get the scoldin n all tat....i rather nt to be the elder one...all even not to b born into this world...was realli damn pissed off...haiz....wateva....it spoil my mood for todae...T_T

one incident can affect the day mood

Mixed-feelin

Nothin special this mornin, but just feel lyt blogging thtas all. Life is pretty busy, how i wish 7dec faster arrived, by then mos of the tests are over and of cosh fyp is den over. Now finding info for my formal rpt which is due tmr. hab been finding the info since yst, the tcher gav us such a hard formal rpt to do, no info can be found on the internet,haiz.

Yst was thinkin abt human nature..Juz feel lyt evryone sometimes will show their fake side somehow or another..u muight did it not-knowing-ly..hmmz..They might appear to be good with u.but then behind u they might backstab u or wat..Sometimes its makes ple wonder is that prsn sayin the truth cos they duneo which are the truth n which are the fake..This not only happen in working life, schl life oso will happen too..Mayb showin their fake side is for self-denfense, or juz to make evryone happy n to avoid conflict. Juz as i say in my older entry, children(kindgeratan or pri schl) life r much happier, they wun backstab u or wat n they r v.innocent.

Anyway, yst bro n dad had a short arguing.hmmz..sometimes i m gettin to hate bro, his action,his attitude irk me. I think he has change bahz somehow or rather. Nowadays when he quarrel wif dad he would use vulgarity #%^%*.. i hate ple using vulgaity even they r in the right position or wat n somemore use on my parents..how can sia..he would den scream n slam the damn door n den my ma wuld go into his room n say cnt scold vulgar n blah blah blah....so wat ..he still haben change yet..juz feel tat mayb ma too pampered him n let him become lyt tat. Sometimes juz feel lyt gibin him a tight slap on his face. Wateva.i wun tch him how to zhuo ren, cos his life is up to him to choose, wat can i do.. juz hope he can wake up n stop using vulgarity to release his anger ..

ok yah tats all for todae...bac to rpt-in tym..yawnz...@_@




Can the present be exchangable for the past?

sianzzzz

AARgh~...y no hab any any info on paracetamol in the intenet wan....so angry...find so long ..still no info...mon gg to hand in the formal rpt..but still cnt find any info...find until so pek chek le..yawnz..





thut evything its over but its nt...

Juz got bac home nt long ago. This few days has been reaching home late. Most of the days stay in the schl library pia-in fyp rpt until 7 plus den went home. Tmr still nd to pia fyp logbk, mon nd to hand in..haiz wonder went den i will be free...so busy with fyp and tests..i think not onli my grp r rushin fyp..other grp r also sia..hope dem all the best...hope we will do well in fyp sia..anyway yst receive a msg frm my cousin she has open a manicure shop call muemue( a cute name sia)..haha...anyway if anyone wana do manicure can go to her shop..haha
shop add:
33 mohamad,sultan rd, #02-12

hmmz..not bad sia...she open a business her sis(which is my another cousin)...hmmz...last tym use to c her v.often went i was attending pri schl..but nowadays ..i onli see her once a yr (cny)...hmmz...we r all busy with our own lifes...n i miss my grandparent cos its been 9 months since i last saw dem..though we didn't tok to one another much due to communication prob..anyway quite envy my cousin got capital to open a shop on her own...hmmz..i think i can never a shop bahz....haha..no money sia..waha..if i were to open a shop..hmmz ...mayb i can try opening a restaurant..waha..no lar..i seriously nv thut of opening a shop on my own...i juz wana b a ming xin can le( a dream nia)..haha....cos i feel tats so cool sia..n mayb still gt fan club somemore..waha..mayb i m thinkin to much..
while studyin for my test yst..was thinkin tat time flies sia..cos in another few months time i m gg to graduate soon...mayb i will miss my poly fren somehow....will we contact or will we lost contact...will we say hi to one another while walkin dwn the street somedays..will we think of one another or rmb another..
dun feel lyt workin so soon..mayb might consider further my study in local or private uni but den oso duneo wat course to study on..hmmz..

-differences-

Punctuality = Responsiblity

Mayb nowadays ple r neglecting the sense of punctuality. Is it bcos they fear to wait or was it becos they are taking things for granted...5 min is consider late, 10 min is also consider late, 15 min is oso consider late...so mayb its doesnt matter to b hw late..is tat true?..but to me 5min is acceptable, 10min ok cn tolerate...but 20minutes n above ..hmmz tat bad~.....

Actuali i sometimes also tend to be late..i m late due to various factors..sometimes is due to bus..sometimes is i hab bad time magnagement..n sometimes i dun wana wait for other( i rather other wait for me..hehe.. ) hmmz n i m oways late for lecture..mayb i m takin things for granted when the tcher didn't say anything abt it..thinkin tat they should be immune about it..

Todae attend the lc lesson n was readin a story on puctuality..the gal actuali let her frenz to wait for 1 whole hour n in the end didn't feel any remorse but argue back when her fren was angry with her . She bcame caculative saying she let her waited for 5minutes on the other day..hmmz..if i were in her fren situation i will be damn pissed. i rather go home den meet her..haha...







-Sense-

Tired

I was so tired today. i woke up at 12pm and took my breakfast. After breakfast, i went back to sleep again. I woke up at 3pm but was still phycically n mentally tired. I dun neo y...was it becos of fyp or was i running away from smthing..hmmz ..hw i wish i could be more awake and not so restless..


Hate the start of nxt week.. Nxt week onwards is going to be horrible...gg to hand in edited-fyp rpt agn...the fyp rpt is driving me crazy gt so many things to edit and nd to think of hw to ans k's ans sia..argh~..then gt 2 test...n den nxt nxt wk gg to hab 2 test agn( 1 of the test sux, gg to hab alot of memory work to do) den nd to hand in formal rpt...after den soon its gg to fyp presentation..blahblahblah...how i wish the 3 wks holi to come soon...haiz...






休息是为走根长远的路，但害怕的是要休息的时间也没有

fypsuxbigtime

all because of fyp

evryone gone crazy
slpin late at nite
neglecting one another not knowingly
worrying abt the dateline of fyp




we r all being control by a non living things



abolish fyp~

读完文章
留下的是悲伤

记得在巴士上
一起唱的歌
那不是一首简单的歌
因为它在我们的心里
留下了一个回忆


事情慢慢转变
彼此各忙各的
但我们彼此都不想回到从前
努力挽救
求的只是一个的结果

bored..

stuck at home for whole day
can't wait for elearning week
den can relax abit

todae when to cityhall to shopshop for my ma bdae prez...walk here n there in the end got nothin....when i was abt to go home tat tym when to the toilet beside quicksilver de...den the toilet qeueue was damn long...in front of me was standing 2 gals..one gal dressed in black n the other dressed in white t-shirt..the gal who dressed in black seem somehow mature though she look lyt 17yrs old tat kinda..the white shirt gal seem much kiddy n dressed much lok kok den the black shirt gal (she oso look lyt 17yrs old lar)..then tat white shirt gal standing bhind the black shirt gal den put her head on the black shirt gal shoulder ..at 1st i was thinkin wah they are over-intimate as a fren sia..but then this part was nothin as compared to the nxt scene..the two gals den went in to the same cubicle..i was lyt-_-"....wth dey so urgent to pee ar..nd to go in to the same cubicle..nvm den i went to pee too..when dey came out of the cubicle i think the one who is gg to use their cubicle was shock or wat lar den stare at dem...i think i would oso b lyt tat lar..when i c two grown up gals comin out from a single cubicle..den when they were abt to get out of the toilet (i was standng behind dem to get out of the toilet too)..teh black shirt gal den turn over n shouted to tat lady who stare at dem" wats wif the stare..nv c before lesbian is it"..den the white shirt gal giggle away..i was lyt wth...ok lar..so wats if u guys r lesbian, its there anything to b proud of..no nd to go to the same cubicle or wat shit lar...tryin to show off u guys r lesbian or wat..-_-..wats wif the world nw sia..bisexual is on the trend is it..hmmz..




不想是逃避,逃避未必快乐

不能被褥据
是因为我们不能
或是我们都没尽力过
大家带着失望离开
拼命的找借口
安慰自己
让自己好过一些


That night, it seem so nice and enjoyable, we finally found the feeling we once lost. Even though we didn't manage to complete our main objective but the journey was still worthwhile. This journey let me understand more about this world. 为何要自己扛着重重的背包，如果把背包的东西分给周围的人，这一来会让自己好过一些。Maybe i should learn and move towards it.
However, a beautiful picture without color is not yet complete. It would be even more pleasant if color was painted to it.

渐渐的开始懂了
是因为了解了
或是详细的看了

想着改变
但大家都不知该从哪里开始
大家反复都迷失自己心中的指南针
进还是退


当她们说她们选择了那个答案
我也没想那么多
只是不犹豫选择自己的答案
但现在回想
或许我也和她们如此一样
是因为大家的来原都一样吗。。。

《小时候的我们》

闭上眼睛
去感受我们的童年。。。

大家都很无知
见的世面不多
做错事时，
大家都会说还小不懂事，
而爸妈就威胁我们吃果条烦恼的东西很少计较的不多

梦想好多，
有真实的，
有很夸张的

想哭就哭，
想笑就笑，
想气就气，
绝不会带着假面具做人

很容易逗我们开心
而我们的笑容在那一刻是最真实和灿烂的

Abt her

In this quiet and late night
she sat there alone
with soothing music played along
staring out of the window
deep in her thoughts
sooner or later she knew no one
she feel so lost in the crowded city
she feel so lonely even though there are lots of people around her
the people once close to her seemed like stranger now
no one understand her inner side
and she just cannot understand their behaviour
she tried to open up but..its seemed so harrrd
she attempt to 4get but the scene seem so vivid
loneliness and sadness overwhelmed her
but not a drop of tear drip down her tired eyes..

Recently,i juz can't slp earli..hab been slpin at ard 3am even though i m physically v.tired..kp thinking of alot of stuffs, thinking of this n that. Anyway, time passes so fast, in another 2 days tym, i will go genting le. This is the 1st time i m gg oversea wif frenz(though go to neighbourin country nia), felt quite excited and abit scared..lolz...can't wait for wednesday to come..yippie..hmmz..then after genting trip, i m gg to chiong to ecp for night cycling..though its quite tiring but once in a while its damn cool sia..cycle frm ecp to changi..feel the cool breeze, the excitement , the silence @ the night and the c-in of ah-guah(kidding lar) ..wateva it is..nxt wk is gg to b a interesting one..





Enjoy life today, yesterday is gone and tomorrow may never come

人的不完美

人总是觉得自己很完美
而觉得周围的人有缺点
是自己和别人的想法不一样
而造称自己觉得周围的人有缺点

人总是爱计较
老是想着别人付出的多少
而从不想到自己可以为别人付出多少

人往往把自己放在第一
做任何事都从自己的角度看
绝望了别人的感受

人很矛盾
有时为了想改进自己
为了让周围的人更喜欢他门
但他们绝迷失了原来的自己
有时会让周围更讨厌他们

他们

好多话说不出口
不懂得这么去表达
许多想法都不一样
太多的不了解
无意间的忽略
我们之间朋友的定义都不一样
这一切的一切不知该怪自己或对他们失望

宽念不同
彼此都不沉实
而都不信任
小憩的我们
都不让对方
以再而三威胁的你
让我渐渐的恨你

这一切的一切造成那一夜的我们