心情

好久没有那么早起身，
在早晨里，
看到这繁忙的城市，
我暂时抛开烦恼，
带着轻松的脚步走入人群中，
马路上人来人往，
他们的脚步速快，
而车子噼噼噼个不停，
突然有种幸福的感觉，
自少我现在比他门轻松，
可以暂时看看“感受”这世界。

到了十点，
大家都已经到了工作岗位，
那些较早前的人群都已消失了，
留下我独自站在马路中央，
这时又有另一总感觉。




我：what is life?
他：hmmz..i oso duneo..but i think life is something i will do it to the fullest, though i might nt neo wats the outcome. I think its something interesting and wonderful.
我: hmmz..u r so optimistic
他: y?
我: cos at least u think its interesting and wonderful ...

random post

The f up life la...haiz..i duneo...this n that, nothin goes smoothly..y is things oways diff frm wat its planned..

wats life abt?

haiz..some words r hard to b xpressed out..i duneo i hab made the right choice.confused la

2dae its my 100th entry for bloggin..actuali i wanted to blog this 100th entry after xam..n make it a "special entry"..but den...


anyway..life is short do cherish it..juz got to neo the xu weilun, the taiwan actress pass away on sun..tats kinda sad..she was still like in her late 20s...read the news article say tat she still intend to do wat stuff in her 30s like gettin married n treat her family better by giving them more time..hmmz..but den evrything is too late le..she does not hab this chance..anyway juz hope tat she rip..


雨几乎下了，
听完了故事，
反复想起你，
她的故事，
就像我们之间，
没对没错，
但我比她差劲多了，
千万个理由，
但没达到重点，
也许这一次错了
live life with no regrets

Actuali..todae found out i began to like the ic module more..but if there are no testss..hmmz..anyway i like it cos sometimes gt some games n xin ni ze yan..n it or rather the tcher taught me some human skills..from the way we act it can determine our future..hmmz..being a supervisor we mustn't be "emotional blackmail"..must be more agressive n kp ot yr stand..n many more..from the eyes it can tell how reliable a person is..hmmz..it seem interesting...how i hab this "power" then i can c how reliable is that person..


She said " how can any1 change for others..its makes him changeable..n if so which side is the real him?"

Sins

Agn~

yrotsih has taeper flesti niaga....

has tahw it syawo syas:

it sekat 2 sdanh 2 palc, era ew illaer gnibig up siht myt dnuor? ebyam or ebyam ton?

pots gnikniht it 4 won....tsuj dun anaw ekam it tceffa my doom..



igonabstrongtotakeonthechallengeitstimefornojokenbmaturenthinksensible

-a choice-

decision

hmmz..in another mayb 1 mths tym reali gt to say gdbye to sp..though its 3 yrs in there but it seem so fast..still rmb in my past entry still wishin to faster grad..but now as its nearin i m quite unwilling to leave..cos after tat its either work or studyin..yupz..which way to go?...so confusin..if work..i oso duneo wat i m gg to work as..想做但害怕自己梦想着..if study oso must nd to depend on wat i wana work in future..yah..times reali flies..gg to rch the age of 20 le..wow...so fast..mayb its time to b serious..thinkin abt mine future

美好的时光一瞬间远远离去

唯一美丽的它断了
无法挽回
他们都说
再买一个新的
但却不知道
它带表了什么
只有拥有的才知

害怕我们的友情像它一样催罗

昨天上了人生的一程课，
内容不必多说，
也是我很久没遇到的问题
站在马路的中央
不断的徘徊，思考着
向左走还是向右走？

或许不想着改变
还是我很顽固，
还是害怕受在一次的失败

New year is coming..haben thut of any resoltuion...

xmas post

On the xmas eve went to sh home to cele..we brainstorm n decided to cook our own christmas dish..last yr we prepare steamboat for christmas, this yr we dcide to cook western food..haha...we meet at vivocity de giant at 430pm to buy our necessary things..wow vivocity was damn crowded..evryone dressed at their best for the countdown party..but some oso nv reali dress up lar..anyway we went to giant to get chicken fillet, fish filiet, fries, campbell soup, the french bread, fruits n so on....after getting all the goceries it was about 6plus le...den we thut of gg to bakerzin to buy our logcake..but in the end bakerin disappoint us no logcake sia..we went to swendsen to buy..wah the queue at swendsen was damn long...so many people queuing up to eat dinner..after buyin our logcake we chiong to sh home...cos from sh home the bus journey nd about 30min..but the dry ice can onli tahan 45min sia..

so ard 7pm we rch sh hm.. me n sy cut the fruits to prepare our fruit salad..tsktsk peelin of fruit skin n cuttin of fruits was no easy task..haha..while sh n jj preare the campbell soup thngy n deep fry the fillet n fries...wah we preapre all this till ard 830 den start eating sia..the dishes gt fries, fillet, nuggets, campbell with bread, fruit salad...haha..a sumpteous dinner sia..haha..but overall the food was not bad..but then we cook too much sia..waste some food...

our sumpteous dinner

after dinner, we were all lazy to clear up the plates..so we juz chat around n slack around...ard 10 we den start clearin up the plates...but in the end is sh maid wash the plate sia..haha..after clearing up, we slack around takin some random pic...

one of the random cool pic

we are some kind of illegal people being caught by police

after habin fun with the camera, we den went up to sh room to watch tv..again slack around n waiting for 12am to come..finali the arrival of 12am..yippie..we went downstair to hab our logcake..waha...its icecream log cake..coolz..choclate one..we were eating the log cake in a barbarian way..haha...we juz use our forks n dig the cake..but as usual we cnt finish it

After eatin the logcake, the guys play with the dry ice n invent some stuff..actuali wana upload the video abt the dry ice..but tat dumb utube upload so long..in the end forgo the idea of uploadin le.this dry ice invetion causes a mild explosion...n this things entertain us for about 15min or more sia..haha...

after all this, jj n wj went home...left we 5 gals at sh home...hmmz..5 of us has nothin much to do..fio play the piano den ch play the guitar..i was like gg to fell aslp soon sia..sy was slackin ard...den awhile latr i try playin the piano..it seem hard though..haiz..then after tat we watch some tv n clips...ard 4 am we tuck in...xz den came..sh went downstair to enterain xz...then awhile latr sy went down to eat her tibits..haha she hungry sia..they about 5am den slp..after tat slp slp slp...10am woke up...prepare some stuff..watch tv..den fio,ch,sy n me went to clementi eat lunch..sh went out wif her family to eat..we went to the jap restaurant..the food damn cheap..but the food tatse okok nia lar..after eatin, we went to clementi big book shop cos fio wana buy superglue...after tat was ard 2 plus le..den we went home le...tats how i pass my xmas eve..

no pt gg bac to the past cos its over and will not return..

supper

supper anyone?? anyone hungry can call me out for supper sia..haha..so bored sia..recently hab some thuts..i think tat if i hab some fren who live near my home as in few blocks away it will be damn great..haha..cos if at nite cn call him come out n eat supper or chit chat..when bored cn meet up with him..or sometimes cn go jogging or night cycling 2gata.can play badminton...cn visit each other house..tat would be so fun...even if we go out, we can go home 2gata..gt a company mahz ..but then too bad sia..no hab sia...

actuali last tym when i m in pri schl abt pri 1 or 2 use to hab de..she juz live a block aaway from mine..we used to be damn gd frenz..used to go to her home and play..her bdae she will invite me to her party..but due to some reasons, our friendship severed le..so now..no hab anymore..

-naive-

部落格里含的意识，
我想我明白，
不知该同情，
或是冷酷无情，
或许这一切都与我无关，
批评的空间轮不到我


在人生的道路上，
遇见的人让我长大一些，
慢慢接近大人的世界，
远远离开小孩的一切，
或许沉默是我用来对代未来，
而欢乐是我放下用沉墨代替

yipyip..its finali the arrival of 3 wk holi...so happy..this will b the last holi in my poly life....in another few months time gg to grad from poly le...hmmz...wed juz attended my grad party...the perormance by the kinderlands kids r so cute...though they dance not v.professional..haha..but then they entertained all of us...so mighty of them...so young but yet make us laugh so happily..sometimes juz so pei fu wif the kids..they can dance daringly n will not bother about whether is it dui lian or not..unlyt the adults..they will care about their face..anyway quite admire one of the tcher..though she nv taught me b4..but tat day she sang a song dedicating to her food students..n i think she rox...y ic no tcher dedicate song to us de..haha.so unfair..sobz..
hmmz..anyway when they display the clips on our life in poly...i suddenly think tat i will miss sp..haha..miss the tchers..miss the foodcourt..miss evrything..thought i will not miss the stuff...mayb 3yrs of life in there will make me somehow miss them...saw the students tahnkin their tcher but too bad i nv been feature in the clips..i shall thx them here in the blog though they will nv c it..but nvm...hmmz..i wana specially thx the tcher which i feel they r damn gd..ahha..jeff whey..ms tan hwee bin..mrs tan..kwok..hta..hmmz tats all..waha...aiya n also those who taught me lar...dun say dun hab..
how i wish study life will nv end..but sometimes its so miserable to study..haiz...after the clips thingy went to t1a to eat the buffet n after phototaking session den went home le...was so tired...zzz...

fri went to eat steamboat wif slack...went to tian tian huo guo to eat..wah the steamboat so ex..tsktsk...nxt tym dun wana go there le..but i think the tom yam nt bac..hurmp..after tat was so thirsty den went to a dessert shop to est dessert or rather drink water..hmmz..we were all thinkin wat to do for christmas..hmmz...after tat..duneo y..some1 suggest we go buy 4d.waha..each person gib one no.den we decided to bet on 4 no....buy on sat n sun...1st time buying 4d sia...hope lao tian will bless me..lolz/.///..hehe..after the number choosing session...we were all crazy..kp imagining wat to do after we strike 4d...drive posh car..den go ex hotel eat...wear nice shirt..haha..like we strike a few millions sia..waha...pray hard we todae n tmr will strike 1st prize...wahah....tonite 7pm must stay tune at the tv text c gt strike not..hehe..

hmmz..todae earli morning went to temple wif my mama....wat a filial girl..hehe...eh dun think i go there pray to strike 4d worz..waha...aiya i pei my mama go out of kindnesss sia..she kp on askin me to pei her...think she feel lonely..waha...after prayin den go vivo shopshop a while den went home le...hmmz..tats the end of the day...shall end here...




if life is a book..wat is your tile of the last chpt?..

hmmz...mayb things might not be as it seem...ple might appear to be bad..but mayb they hab kind intentin...or mayb people might appear to be friendly to u but actuali they r bad....human r juz so unfathomable...the more u wana undertsand dem the more dey r diff to be understood..recently sort of wrong k n c....thut they r bad...but in the end they are not as bad as they seem...mayb shuld understand more shuld not judge them by thier cover....yupz...

Gg to the place remind me of smthin...we hab once agree to go there b4 gg to s...but things change..hopefuli we wuld hab the chance...i believe we will hab the chance

sometimes feel tat i m juz tokin to the air....mayb its beta to not tok at times....

Its been a long time since i do something i like most... mayb life is juz busy or its another reason..was thinkin after watching the i not stupid show yst though the movie its long tym ago ...its say if u wana do something u like den do it to the fullest...but i feel tat depend whether u r giben the chance to proe yr potential..aiya duneo wat i m crappin abt..shall end here...

-silence-

finali fyp is offically over le...yippie...finali can put an end to fyp..hmmz..todae fyp was so nervous..as usual no confidence to present and i suck in expressing..anyway juz hope i gt do well bahz..my eyelid gib jumping since sat..mayb its a bad sign..haiz...anyway...since fyp its over so let be it..for this wk i cn relax abit..nxt wk nd to study for test agn..hmmz....


Juz thinking bac..feel that for the past few wk has been neglecting my fren..so long nv meet up wif dem le..so busy wif fyp n tests...felt quite guilty abt it...so sianz..how i wish life can be not so busy at tym...been rushing here n there mayb hab miss some wonderful parts of life...
anyway been wondering alot some times...wondering abt friends wondering abt life wondering abt ple character n this n that...

yawnz...so tired todae...feel that all my energy r gone..mayb i shall slp earli tonite...

-potential-

life's unfair

the moment i rch home...i haben even put down my bags..i juz step into the house..den ma yell at me ...hey todae go out nv close window..the whole floor was wet...i was damn pissed off...juz rch home nia...gana all this shit...yell at me...den nvm....awhile latr i go watch tv...den bro came bac...den ma walk out off the kitchen...scream at me agn...yst raining nv kp the clothing ar...the neighbour call nv listen to the phone...i was lyt sian diaoz....yst gt ple ph hm mehz....as if i m deaf wun hear the ph ring....she rather believe the neighbour den me....tat neighbour oso another de lar..blurblur one duneo she gt call the wrong no. not lor...haiz...den she say yst gt remind me to kp the clothes before she go out le...i was lyt diao...she gt call me mehz...she called bro lor...as if i gt stm will 4get wat she say in a few hours...aiya she evrytym lyt tat de...evrything blame me...she nv scold him at all de lor....she is damn biased de...all is my fault sia, evrytym my fault....its damn unfair de...the more she scold me the more i hate him sia...is it being the elder one must b responsible for evrything...get the scoldin n all tat....i rather nt to be the elder one...all even not to b born into this world...was realli damn pissed off...haiz....wateva....it spoil my mood for todae...T_T

one incident can affect the day mood

Mixed-feelin

Nothin special this mornin, but just feel lyt blogging thtas all. Life is pretty busy, how i wish 7dec faster arrived, by then mos of the tests are over and of cosh fyp is den over. Now finding info for my formal rpt which is due tmr. hab been finding the info since yst, the tcher gav us such a hard formal rpt to do, no info can be found on the internet,haiz.

Yst was thinkin abt human nature..Juz feel lyt evryone sometimes will show their fake side somehow or another..u muight did it not-knowing-ly..hmmz..They might appear to be good with u.but then behind u they might backstab u or wat..Sometimes its makes ple wonder is that prsn sayin the truth cos they duneo which are the truth n which are the fake..This not only happen in working life, schl life oso will happen too..Mayb showin their fake side is for self-denfense, or juz to make evryone happy n to avoid conflict. Juz as i say in my older entry, children(kindgeratan or pri schl) life r much happier, they wun backstab u or wat n they r v.innocent.

Anyway, yst bro n dad had a short arguing.hmmz..sometimes i m gettin to hate bro, his action,his attitude irk me. I think he has change bahz somehow or rather. Nowadays when he quarrel wif dad he would use vulgarity #%^%*.. i hate ple using vulgaity even they r in the right position or wat n somemore use on my parents..how can sia..he would den scream n slam the damn door n den my ma wuld go into his room n say cnt scold vulgar n blah blah blah....so wat ..he still haben change yet..juz feel tat mayb ma too pampered him n let him become lyt tat. Sometimes juz feel lyt gibin him a tight slap on his face. Wateva.i wun tch him how to zhuo ren, cos his life is up to him to choose, wat can i do.. juz hope he can wake up n stop using vulgarity to release his anger ..

ok yah tats all for todae...bac to rpt-in tym..yawnz...@_@




Can the present be exchangable for the past?

sianzzzz

AARgh~...y no hab any any info on paracetamol in the intenet wan....so angry...find so long ..still no info...mon gg to hand in the formal rpt..but still cnt find any info...find until so pek chek le..yawnz..





thut evything its over but its nt...

Juz got bac home nt long ago. This few days has been reaching home late. Most of the days stay in the schl library pia-in fyp rpt until 7 plus den went home. Tmr still nd to pia fyp logbk, mon nd to hand in..haiz wonder went den i will be free...so busy with fyp and tests..i think not onli my grp r rushin fyp..other grp r also sia..hope dem all the best...hope we will do well in fyp sia..anyway yst receive a msg frm my cousin she has open a manicure shop call muemue( a cute name sia)..haha...anyway if anyone wana do manicure can go to her shop..haha
shop add:
33 mohamad,sultan rd, #02-12

hmmz..not bad sia...she open a business her sis(which is my another cousin)...hmmz...last tym use to c her v.often went i was attending pri schl..but nowadays ..i onli see her once a yr (cny)...hmmz...we r all busy with our own lifes...n i miss my grandparent cos its been 9 months since i last saw dem..though we didn't tok to one another much due to communication prob..anyway quite envy my cousin got capital to open a shop on her own...hmmz..i think i can never a shop bahz....haha..no money sia..waha..if i were to open a shop..hmmz ...mayb i can try opening a restaurant..waha..no lar..i seriously nv thut of opening a shop on my own...i juz wana b a ming xin can le( a dream nia)..haha....cos i feel tats so cool sia..n mayb still gt fan club somemore..waha..mayb i m thinkin to much..
while studyin for my test yst..was thinkin tat time flies sia..cos in another few months time i m gg to graduate soon...mayb i will miss my poly fren somehow....will we contact or will we lost contact...will we say hi to one another while walkin dwn the street somedays..will we think of one another or rmb another..
dun feel lyt workin so soon..mayb might consider further my study in local or private uni but den oso duneo wat course to study on..hmmz..

-differences-

Punctuality = Responsiblity

Mayb nowadays ple r neglecting the sense of punctuality. Is it bcos they fear to wait or was it becos they are taking things for granted...5 min is consider late, 10 min is also consider late, 15 min is oso consider late...so mayb its doesnt matter to b hw late..is tat true?..but to me 5min is acceptable, 10min ok cn tolerate...but 20minutes n above ..hmmz tat bad~.....

Actuali i sometimes also tend to be late..i m late due to various factors..sometimes is due to bus..sometimes is i hab bad time magnagement..n sometimes i dun wana wait for other( i rather other wait for me..hehe.. ) hmmz n i m oways late for lecture..mayb i m takin things for granted when the tcher didn't say anything abt it..thinkin tat they should be immune about it..

Todae attend the lc lesson n was readin a story on puctuality..the gal actuali let her frenz to wait for 1 whole hour n in the end didn't feel any remorse but argue back when her fren was angry with her . She bcame caculative saying she let her waited for 5minutes on the other day..hmmz..if i were in her fren situation i will be damn pissed. i rather go home den meet her..haha...







-Sense-